all you did see was my laughter
smiles and friendly banter
never for once you really thought
that deep inside I could be hurt

I tried to live my life the best way
I could, just to make you smile every day
and you never saw the pains and tears
that i hid deep inside all these years

but today I am giving it all up
bringing flowing tears and blood to stop
never to feel again the chest rise
to the beat of life which is a ruse

the pain eats slower
the turmoil gets deeper
they think they know
but that's their imagination

everything looks normal
even smiles come easier
the tears that come
felt only by the one in the mirror

shattered dreams, unspoken fears
bleak future all rewards of sin.
shared moments more saddening
future tales less likely

the will to persist evaporates
the urge to give up radiates
I see the strength go gradually
I see their tears now more clearly