you are warm rain
you are a brightly flowered skirt
a romance movie, with only 2 people in the theatre
   you are pink 5 inch stilettos...
      minty breath
and black coffee
                          at 2 pm
You are my favorite afternoon.

I would like to say...
I would like to say...
That I hope she is happy with you...
I DO.
But I don't believe she can be as happy as I was with you.
And maybe she's not.
But that doesn't change the fact that she is communicating with you now
And I'm not.

I had you one day
JUST to remember...
Haha JUST to remember...
Like it's "in your face"
When actually,
I know you remember everything
I know you remember the first time we met
I am NOT being dramatic
It shifted my perspective
I want to be thankful
I WANT TO BE THANKFUL
And I AM...really...
but sad too...
I don't want it to be a death
I don't want YOU to be a death
I want to accept you in me
To still allow myself to feel fulfilled through you
And move on as well.

What is this?
What is this thing?
What is this thing that I am feeling?
Imaginary fluff...like I like him
But maybe not...
It's hard to recreate  heart.

Silly really
How a band he liked so much could become a....
what do you say?
"sore spot"
Although I swore I liked it too...
Oh that's right
All the "swearing"
that was really me trying to inundate myself with him
to tell myself he was my soul's song
What does that mean?
Do I even like the music anymore?
Silly really
Silly to be talking about this
To be droning on and on on a stupid website
But I can't feel
And all I want is to feel
Is to have HIM
I desperately desire him
What will happen?
Why? What is this?

I wonder what she's like...?
She looks like me ya know
I don't know why but she does
I don't want to get lodged here,
in the "picking apart the other woman"
but there IS another woman...
Why?
Why?
I just want to ask, what happened?

In a beautiful day
There was no wind
Each person held their breath
All was still
Because ALL was working underneath
Each surface KEPT SHIFTING
EACH SURFACE KEEPS SHIFTING
It is ok...
It is ok...

Child
Do I want you to stuff it?
On the contrare
bring it up!
bring it out!
the light makes all things clear
are you sad?
do you have a corner
where indeed it has been tucked
                                         and tucked
                                               and tucked
                                                     and tucked
LET ME OUT!
BE FREE!
There is a world of wind
that longs to call your name
to break every damning cycle
that whispers
      "have-not's"
           "shame" - the despicable
Each longing
    Each sigh
         The deepness of your soul
MAY IT BE MAGNIFIED!
NOTHING IS TOO DARK!
Every trap is ludicrous