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TBDutton Aug 2021
ive spent a lot of time over the years considering this art
poetry.

and i've come to the conclusion that i'm not very good at it.
primarily because it requires a vocabulary that i do not posses.

and every time i do im disappointed in myself.
so i think what do i need to do to make myself better at this.

and there, i was only thinking about myself.
TBDutton Jan 2021
i thought i was clever...im not...i won't ever be...

i thought i meant something to somebody...i didnt...i wont ever

i thought id leave a legacy...i can't...they already forgot me

i thought you cared to read this...u didn't...care to even forget me?
Jan 2021 · 125
I was here 1.23.2021
Jun 2020 · 95
Here I Sit
TBDutton Jun 2020
My country is burning;
And here I sit

My comrades are falling;
And here I sit

They’re taking my earnings;
And here I sit

They’re denying me transparency;
And here I sit

They watch me and I don’t watch them;
And here I sit

I can’t practice my religion;
And here is sit

How long - until;
I can’t sit
Sep 2019 · 141
let me confuse you
TBDutton Sep 2019
Let me muse you with my wisdom of which i have not
let me confuse you with my dismal portray of thought
when sour met the hour of which they have bought
and kissed the sweet darlings for he bear the honor not

i think sadness pervades on those who think the opposite fought
and persevere those who kissed the feet and forgot
scarcely are those who puff away the night
and forget that they try caused them so much fraught

for i sit alone and construct illusions of tire and might
i wish you understood my meaning and so do i
by gones be by gones my efforts now contrite
but sweet things bid sweet things and i wish you a good night.
Sep 2019 · 369
Feel me?
TBDutton Sep 2019
It's like i want to beat someone responsible
but the only one responsible is me.

i can't be heard, i can't know why.
The peace is gone inside.

When will i realize i'm stuck with this pain
Burning me alive.

No pool to quench the fire
deserted
it stings the mind.

Somewhere a light shines
but i'm blind.

Feel me?
Mar 2019 · 203
I waz hear
TBDutton Mar 2019
I waz hear
3/3/2019
Jan 2019 · 296
Come Swim
TBDutton Jan 2019
Step on the shores of the sea
wade into the water
come swim with me

Let the water pass your extremities
into the depths allow your face to be

Here we need not breath
and movement is fluid as your hand will see
Jan 2019 · 281
Imagination
TBDutton Jan 2019
I attempt for humor
but reach for what humors me

Don't think it vain
it's just how I connect with my fellow human beings

If my thoughts seem sporadic forgive me
I'm drowning the doubt
infusing creativity

I fear I do not know how to write a tale
my imagination recedes under it's dark veil

I wish he could see me
and i him
for an imagination makes us feel like a child again
Jan 2019 · 477
Quick Hit
TBDutton Jan 2019
A quick hit.
Ya get your fix.
Slip inside.
Goodbye.
Jan 2019 · 574
An Examen
TBDutton Jan 2019
I was youthful then,
My expectations and understanding of the world,
not in the slightest developed.
To me.
The immensity of a common situation,
Perhaps,
One you take for granted,
Put my mind, body and soul in peril.
Weird how time develops a mind.
Youth searching for answers,
Does.
One day find the keys to his doors.
For many of mine were locked,
but light doth shine fuller and brighter each time the key turns.
In those days,
It is most unfortunate the limited expanse of my mind;
For if I had been more developed,
the severity of such a situation would have been extinguished with care.
And diligence.
One can not conceptualize HELL,
Unless one has lived it.
Situations exist where evil lies,
We must do our best not to disturb his slumber.
He sources the weak.
The undisciplined.
Those who cherish raw emotion and think only of pain.
Such was my experience...
and try i have,
to forget the days where I burned inside;
my brains melting outside my head,
spinning,
falling,
crashing into the depths.
Jan 2019 · 180
Transfigured
TBDutton Jan 2019
So there we all were...
transfigured boys of budding manhood.
Zeal and pride fumigated the rooms...
but timid were our hearts.
To reach for something we knew not we wanted...
lost as sailors on a clouded sea.
Jan 2019 · 237
A Narrative Piece
TBDutton Jan 2019
A narrative piece to follow...
an attempt at exploring the creative depths of my mind.
Hopefully
the waters break above the knee.
May I drown there?
Jan 2019 · 227
Birds of a feather
TBDutton Jan 2019
Birds of a feather flock together...
So tis true for me
Dare I say all humanity
Love is shared with his own kind
Perhaps they share the same mind
So drawn to a love I should be
Who shares the same sentiments as me
Understand myself to understand another
Search for what I want and desire no other
A mate who compliments me and I thee
For a thousand days will deplete with misdeed
Time shared with right
Will make my life complete
Where will she be found?
How long must I wait to find common ground?
Peace and contentment I only desire
Someone to fill my heart with love and share the fire
All in good time these things will come
I must fire the clay
Sculpt the marble
Prepare the mold
For love.

— The End —