I continue to live my life the way I want it to be without you.
It still hurts knowing what happened between me and you.
I tried to make you happy and make you feel wanted again even after everything that happened.
I don't know where I went wrong........
I feel like now all I did was smother you and scare you away.
Will you come back one day?
Will we be together again as one?
Will we ever be the same if we did get back together?
Will the same thing happen again as it did before?
Life is all about taking chances.
There ain't no telling what's in store.
Hell.......for all we know we might all just die by flying unicorns from the planet Saturn.
I really don't know.
The point is, life is going to give you challenges we all must overcome.
I'm going through some challenges right now.
Why am I going through these challenges right now?
So that I can get ready for the even bigger ones coming down the road in my life.
The whole point of me typing this is to express myself and make myself feel better.
It does to an extent.
If you ever read what I type please don't be mad at me.
Please don't leave me alone.
Please whatever you do........
Please don't give up on me.
Because I'm not going to give up on you.

It has been only a few days and I am starting to realize the true intention of everything that has happened.
Yeah we both had a part to play in our separation.
Yeah we both thought it was probably to early to get together.
But what has happened, happened.
I'm slowly starting to be a better person and understanding why I did what I did.
Your making me open my eyes and see my mistakes and to improve them for the good of our relationship that I hope will come some day.
I still love you with all of my heart and then some.
I forgive you for what happened.
I still want everything from you and I hope that don't scare you anymore.
One day I hope that we are together and will be a better couple to improve on what we need to work on.
Maybe someday I can actually be myself again..........

The things I feel can not go away.
All I feel is pain and suffering.
I am trying to make myself better in a way that we can be better one day.
It bothered me at first to not hear from you in awhile.
Now it's slowly going away as I understand why this all happened.
I have scared you to a point of possibly no return.
But I ask you this......
Would you give up on something you can always have?
Would you throw everything away like trash and not come back?
So many questions go through my head but it's not getting to me as bad as they did.
I'm starting to become better and not worry about things because I still have that hope.
Because I must still carry on with my life.
The hope that one day we can be together again.
I'm sorry for everything I have done.
Just please give me the chance of redemption.
To show you how I have changed.
I have been reading the book you gave me.
The book to get my mind off of things.
To read what I promised you I would do.
To make me better too in many ways.
Please if you are reading this. Please don't run away.
Please don't be scared of me.
Because I promise that one day you will understand.
One day I hope that we can be together again and go on with our lives.
I still think of you from time to time and I hope you do the same.
I am deeply missing you but I am waiting patiently for your return.
Thank you for changing my life in a good way and thank you for being there for me.
Now it's my turn to be there for you.
I am waiting patiently for you.
I made a promise to not give up and that's exactly what I'm doing.
Not giving up...............

Everything I have felt was true. Everything I said I meant it. I'm sorry for everything I put you through and I'm going to change for the good of me. I have some stuff to work on and so do you. I just hope one day we will be the same like we were before anything bad started. I'm sorry for pushing you to the edge and pushing you off. I do crazy things for Love and I am sorry for scaring you. Words can't describe how I feel now and I hope one day I will have the chance of showing you. You have blocked me for a period amount of time but I hope you don't block me from this. I am sorry. Words can't describe how I am now even though it has only been a short amount of time. Please never give up on the ones you love. I was told if you Love them set them free. If they come back they are yours, if not.......It just wasn't meant to be.

I Love You.........