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Chasity Dec 2020
Drowning.
I'm ******* drowning
No one can save me
Not even myself.
Drowning.
I'm drowning slowly
I cant fight anymore.
It isnt anyone's fault but my own
I'm suffocating in isolation
Suffocating in my own body
I tried to just stay afloat
But I just cant
Every decision
And every choice
Is a direct consequence
That fuels my inner pain.
You finally saw
And I'm sorry you did
I never wanted you to see
How much pain I'm really in.
I wish I could fix it
But I just dont know how
There is nothing left to grab
Nothing to hold on to.
No lifeguard to jump in
And pull me to safety.
Theres just endless water
With me out in the middle
And nowhere to go but down.
It isnt anyone's fault
This is my demon
I was born this way.
How the **** I survived this long
I dont ******* know.
I'm sorry I ruined it all
Sorry you had to see and hurt
This wasnt supposed to be your pain
It's only my own
Chasity Dec 2020
Once its all said and done, what did any of it matter anyway? All the fights, all the rage, all the pain. Only trying to show how much you truly care for someone, just to be shot down and tossed into the abyss of no longer giving a ****. Love hurts. It truly hurts when the one you love cannot accept nor understand the depth and reality of how deeply you care for them. Its a painful yearning that only one person, one single soul will ever be able to mend. They hold the key, the key to life and happiness. The problem being sometimes its too late before they realize they hold someones life in their hands.

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