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Sep 2020 · 117
Love
Suus Sep 2020
It's such a overused word.
I don't believe you,
when you are talking about me.
Mar 2020 · 140
Effective words
Suus Mar 2020
Screams,
making every,
human turn around.

Curious eyes,
following the sound.

Tears clearly in your eyes,
with a desperate look,
as façade.

My sister,
truly overwhelemed,
by shame,
and the memories,
she wished,
never had.

Because this,
will just fit in,
like all the others.

Always filled,
with your cursed words,
that leaves my,
sister in a hopeless state.

Hearing her cries,
begging you to stop.

Seeing my sister like that,
the one that is always so strong for me,
broken by you before my eyes.

In that moment,
I will do anything,
to make it,
stop.





"I hate you"
It always works
Jul 2019 · 143
Perfectionist
Suus Jul 2019
When you are looking up how to write a suicide letter.
Jun 2019 · 142
Untitled
Suus Jun 2019
Love me in the way it should,
otherwise,
just stop.
Jun 2019 · 151
Desperate
Suus Jun 2019
My fingers want to move, tell you the truth.
But instead I remove.

The next day you will ask, and I will deny.
Hide every sign.

That I want to die
Jun 2019 · 258
Waves
Suus Jun 2019
It never fully leaves.
Just like depression
Jun 2019 · 260
The first time
Suus Jun 2019
d
  r
   i
p

d
   r
     i
  p

d
r
   i
p

I didn't mind,
the blood falling down my face.

d
   r
i
p

I wish,
it didn't stop.
Suus Jun 2019
I just never forgot about you.
Jun 2019 · 270
Just give me a second
Suus Jun 2019
I become quiet
                                       when it comes to
                                                              ­             talking about my feelings.

Needing some time to get the mask on.




                                                         ­                                           "I'm fine"
Jun 2019 · 189
Unspoken question
Suus Jun 2019
You don't want my answer.

Because then it would mean you failed,
of protecting me
from you.
Jun 2019 · 182
Untitled
Suus Jun 2019
Sometimes I really hate you.
I know I shouldn't.

I told you it too many times.
It's mine biggest regret.

Those words were never supposed to leave my lips.
Not a single time.
I'm sorry
Jun 2019 · 143
Hollow
Suus Jun 2019
Not here
                                        Not even here
                                                            ­                   And definitely not here

Will I find things worth living for.
I'm feeling empty
Jun 2019 · 130
I remember
Suus Jun 2019
Sun shinning,
wind blowing softly.

People dancing,
laughing loudly.

I smile,
but deep down
I don't.

This day means so much more,
than just celebrating.

Exactly a year ago,
we became friends.

For the first time, I had someone to talk too.
Someone who understood.

Who saw death like a friend.
But both knew that was ****** up.

You embraced it.
I didn't

Now I am standing her smiling with someone else.

It's been a year,
but I still remember.
I will never forget
Jun 2019 · 145
Hear me
Suus Jun 2019
Seriously what do I need to do.
When will you ******* accept.

That I'm not okay.
For years.

When will you really look at me.
And not turn your back to the truth.

Are you that blind.
Or don't you want to see it.

I know how you will finally hear me.
But I made a promise.
And I won't break it
Jun 2019 · 161
Hello again
Suus Jun 2019
It's been awhile.
I know you never really left me.

Feeling empty
Appearing at the right time.

Filling my mind.
You are snarky as always.

To be honest some part of me missed you.
May 2019 · 138
Please let me go
Suus May 2019
That hand on your shoulder.

Pulling you in,
against your will.

That hand on your shoulder.

Asking you,
what you shouldn't do.

That hand on your shoulder.

Reminding you,
of the time you wanted to go.

That hand on your shoulder.

Comforting you,
in ways it shouldn't



That hand on your shoulder,
not letting go.
May 2019 · 147
Stop manipulating
Suus May 2019
Crying in front of me, to get some emotion out off me.

Making sure you still have that power over me.

To make me cry.
May 2019 · 141
Too late, I'm afraid
Suus May 2019
I take a step forward.

Liquid dropping on the ground.
The colour red falling without any sound.

I take a step forward.

The sky starless.
My mind filled with darkness.

I take a step forward.

Desperate cries ringing into my ears.
Trying to let me shed some tears.

I look over my shoulder.

I smile.
Your eyes in denial










I take a step forward.
May 2019 · 217
Leave me alone
Suus May 2019
You are such a manipulative *****.

Making me feel guilty for trying to live my life, making me think I give up on you.

Saying that I hate you, to make me say I love you.

Remembering me of the "good old times",  listen even than we never had a stable relationship.

But I can't tell you that, and worst of all...



You know that.

— The End —