I look but I don't see
My family tries to get through
While my friends try to talk to me
My mind is lost
To a sea of despair
My mind
It's what all these mistakes have cost
I can't hear what they're saying
My mind is lost
I'm in a place of thought
Where no one can reach me
I'm hidden away
While everyone thinks I'm here
Ok

I've got a wild heart that won't commit
I carry it on my sleeve
Hoping I'll find the perfect fit
That's not true
I don't know what I want
I change when pain is a possibility
Choosing a different side of me to flaunt
It's a self inflicted torture
A cycle that's hard to end
Meeting someone new
Knowing that soon you'll let them see a change
To avoid pain
And start again

Dreams of broken glass
I've had
Of children
Who to hell cannot pass
Of loves that never last
Here I am alive and well
Yet still in living hell
Where nothing stays true
I lie here
Always wishing I was with you

I like to pretend that my feelings for him
Aren’t really there
That;s hard to do though
When I feel this ache in my chest
All because I still care

It’s hard to pretend I don’t care
When I’m in love with you
I’ll say I’m not
Only deep down I do
Deep down I always knew

He was supposed to be mine
Even though I don’t feel it
I’ll tell everyone I’m fine

The tears that fill my eyes
The ones I won’t let fall
They speak my truths
Everyone sees their hidden depth
That’s why my eyes
They have the power to enthrall

Not him though
He won’t allow himself to fall
I can see it though
He wants to
He wants me to let go of all my truths
Of everything I hide
Everything he wish he knew

Only I can’t do that
So I’ll keep on pretending
Hoping no one else falls for the trap
That are my eyes
Waiting for the one who won’t allow himself to fall
Waiting for him to give in to the thrall

His blood dripped red
As he laid
Unmoving in his bed
It was done with such ease
A stab here
A stab there
As he begged in a broken voice "Please"
Still she kept on
When he awoke
He did not know
It would be his last dawn
When my heart broke
He didn't know that those words
Would be the last that he spoke
He was my latest love
I sit and watch his blood drip red
I return to my mind
And I feel it grow
The dread
I see the man that I once loved
In a pool of blood
Dead

I love him
In a way that I cannot explain
I try and try
But I cannot
Perhaps this makes me insane
All I can say
Is that I love him more than the stars in the night
Even though they are precious
Those twinkling lights
I love him more than the sun loves the moon in that tragic tale
For I would do so much more
Than to die anew everyday of my life
I would suffer any pain or grief for him
Even if it destroyed me to my core
He does not feel the same
Perhaps
That is why
This love is one I can never fully explain

The eyes are the window to the soul
If you look deep into hers
You will see all the stories she has never told
The pain and the grief
All the memories she cannot let go
But that's the thing
No one cares to look
So her stories
Are the ones no one will ever know

He is everything
The only light in her darkest days
His laughter brings her joy
His presence brings warmth
Surprising her always
Keeping her on her toes
When she's gone
He tells everyone what he wants them to know
None of it's real
For her he doesn't care
Fall in love with her
Never
He wouldn't dare
Oh what a pity
The laughter that brings her joy
Is at her expense
All because she fell in love with a boy

I've heard the voices in my head
I try to ignore them
But I can't ignore what's been said
Their words have cut me deep
I can't get away from them
Not even in my sleep

The laughter dies down
As the smile turns into a frown
The tears
In the beginning fall slow
Becoming a river of sorrow
The facade is gone
The true person shown