I sleep walk through stars
A galaxy of madness,
And to think i would forget fetishes of the heart

Mother, I'm sorry

I shall sleep walk through the ruin of my rose
Plucked by none,
This is what i chose

I shall sleep walk, father
I bow down to none,
I'm growing young but growing sad

It's empty by the crack of dawn
I beg feelings to arise
And i shall sleep walk
through the night

In the midnight lurking, my deepest fears.

Dark
Empty
I don't prioritize loved ones anymore
Ruckus of a poetry I suppose
No muse,
No rhythm.
Shan't write about the lovely spectre
Of a yellow, green and basket of dead, dried
I beg your pardon is your idea of celebrating beauty , the chant of the dead?
For I, like Autumn
Beneath the tree
Dead like leaves
Falling through eternity.

The hills are calling out to me
It's time i gathered my belongings'
I'm a young traveller,
A kindred spirit
It's to you I call out no more,
I travel alone
I travel the seas,
I travel the noise,
I travel the desert
I travel without a choice
And once I travel, there's no turning back
I am my own wolf pack,
I'll get lost in the woods and leave no clue

One find day, you'll lose my track.

Who are we,
Are we who we say we are
Are we the friends we pretend to be
Are we the lovers we fake at night
Are we the people we promise and then lie

Who am I,
But an illusion,
Lost in time
Forevermore,
Blind, and in love.

Snow has gathered and it's time to go
I wonder whom I'll chase
I have packed my bags for the holidays
But home is a person, not a place.

I hope I let go of you someday
I hope it isn't about forgiveness anymore
I hope I know what to say
I hope I wouldn't want you standing near my door

There is always a fear
There is always a dark space
There is always someone I love
I just assure myself that it's a bad day

Sometimes it's empty
Sometimes it's numb
Sometimes it's painful
Sometimes i guess I'm just dumb

It's been long
And i tell myself
Sometimes life offers you the best,
But just sometimes,
It doesn't go well.

Mom, help me
Help me please
There is a monster
In the bed beneath

I cannot understand the world
They think I'm lying
Help me please!

Tell them that the sky is purple
Tell them, that the world is dark
It scares me!

I tell them I see ghosts!
I see them crawling in my headspace
They whisper death in my ears
They show me new ways!

I'm not an addict, i have seen people leave
They made me cry mom
They lied to me, please believe!

Mom, hold me at night
I want to see the stars
I want to see pretty pictures in your eyes

I try to clean my eyes
I clean them everyday

I try to breathe but they stare at me in the night

Mom, please love me
Please love me

I want to put an end to this fight.