As I see your lips forming a curve
A smile is plastered on my face
You looked at me and greeted me with warm inviting smile
You didn't even warn me that you'll let me fall head over heels to you
I wish I'd wore my protective gear since then
If only my heart could wear a bullet proof from this unrequited love
And never feel the blood rushing out my veins and the thumps of my heart beat
But then you really a bad ** ****
You shot me down without even knowing it
And now I don't know if my heart beats normally or abnormally
It was in pieces like mirrors shattering
Like thunders lightning
And like blood never compatible
Or else Death shall fall upon me.

at the age of 10 i was molested
by the person i trusted
i tried telling her the truth yet she won't listen
for she thought i was capable of lying

yet in every pain, every fear, every drop of tears
i have learned that in order to survive
i have to move on and forget about my tragic past
surround myself with people i trust
it may not  be that easy, i know
but i will, i have to, and i'm going to

It's a four letter word with one syllable
Yet bears a heavy meaning
It can mean rest
It can mean loss
It can mean escape
It can mean the end
Death
It has the same meaning, bit a lot of interpretation
Death by violence
Death by disease
Death by suicide
Death by nature
We humans are obsessed with death
What is beyond it?
Is it really the end
If you died today what happens tomorrow?
What does it feel like?
Does it hurt
Does the pain last forever?
Death is forever
But is it really?

Invisibly, slowly, painfully, terminally ill
waiting at  death's door, i can't do this anymore
i want to scream but got tongue tied
i want to show them  how i feel
but it won reach their eyes

i fought hard, fought with all my strength
even fought against the darkest shadow
but i receive was pain

i feel so empty
this dark shadow has truly taken over me
help me
help me..

wanted
to
become
a
queen
of
my
own
circle