Look me in my eyes
I promise you it will be okay
Communication is key
That’s something we both say
But why is it when I don’t open up
You beg and pry and plea
And always say “it’s okay; talk to me”
But yet when you show these signs
I tell you the same
But you roll over in bed
And let your brain drift away

I lose myself in my mind at night
You always tell me it will be alright
But too bad that this time it isn’t
I feel trapped inside this prison
Overthinking is so problematic
All these thoughts make me feel like an addict
My mood, it always stays static
I finally tell them everything
And that’s when they start to panic

Why do you choose to enter my mind
At the most inconvenient of times
Last night while I was asleep
You snuck through the window
and into my dreams
How long is it going to take
for me to forget your name
I’ve sealed myself away
But this time you stayed
Why isn’t it as easy for you to leave my mind
As it was for you to walk out of that door

I thought about you today.
Why the **** can you not go away?

When I’m laying next to you
Everything feels new
All the stains have been bleached white
I can finally fall asleep at night
You entered my mind and wrecked it
But that’s exactly what I needed this second
You broke down all my walls
You even stayed there for the fall
Just so you could rebuild me
Into the person I want to be
Patch up every hole that was left
Worked hard with every breath
To make sure I could contest

Nicotine constantly in my system
All you had to do was listen
Everything I said to you
All that ****, it was true
But you had selective hearing
Did I ******* mean anything?

I sit in a room and imagine the thousands of eyes staring at me judging.
Yet I sit in a room that's empty.
I worry about everything that I'm going to come in contact today.
Yet I won't even leave my house.
I think about how bad the conversations with you would go.
Yet I refuse to even pick up my phone to text you.