I've been happy
I've been sad
I've even driven myself mad
Thinking about me and you
Everything we used to do
Fourth of July staring at the moon
Knowing that we were falling soon
Holding you wishing time would stop
Staring deeply at the watch you bought
I still wear it everyday
No wonder when I think of you
It's at that time of the day

She shares her name with a flower
Together I hope we bloom
Come lay with me and I promise
To hold you from dusk until noon
My life was feeling cloudy
Until I met you
My world was so dark
But you give it a whole other hue

You say you know how I feel
Please come sit in my mind a bit
I promise you don't have to stay long
A second or up to a minute
And you'll have your fit
You'll wonder how I got so far along
Well I'll tell you it's the songs
There's one that specifically spoke to me
Track number 24
There's one person that knows this
And she also knows much more
She knew me before the heart break
And she was my first heart ache
She was everything and more
But I ****** up
We all make mistakes.
Mine just seem to want to come in waves.
Feeling like the keys, they just washed away
Unlike gnash these feelings won't fade
There isn't a day when my brain
Isn't filled with beautiful images of her face
I want to say **** it and make it end
But my weapon of choice isn't your typical smith and wesson
It's a pen.

One more night of you coming home late.
I swear that's all that it's gonna take.
To make me feel like it's all forgotten. Reinforcing the fact, we hit rock bottom. ****, I just need to know what caused all this ****.
To make my mind go back in time,
And start to reminisce.

On the fact,that we had it all.
Your phone rings, ignore the call.
Never there, even in the fall.
What the hell caused you to drop the ball.
Laid back on that chill ****.
Tell me can you feel this.
The length between us is too thick.
It all died at that picnic.

Laid up on me I'd take it back.
Those moments, we can't get back.
Never thought, it'd come to that.
Even when you said, "I got your back"
Maybe it was too good too last.
Lucky I didn't put that *** on blast.
But **** that **** its in the past.
Throwing accusations in our house of glass.

Remember  way back in the day
When everything was A-Okay.
It was just me and you, skies were forever blue. But then the rain came and washed away
All the structure we had made.
Now we're all black and blue
Battered up from the storm that came through.

Lying in the rubble, why burst the bubble. Everything was going well until you stirred up trouble
Why you never come around here anymore
I've been so alone since you shut that door.
We were so rich in love
Now we're so **** poor,
Nights like these sure make my heart pour

Stare deep into me
Before you bat your eyes
I was here long before he made you cry
I was the one chasing after you for years
Don't you dare cry, I've used up all our tears
Please tell me how can you leave me alone
Does love look at me, stop, scoff, and scoot along
Why are days so short but nights so long
All these questions that will never be answered
Sad thing is the only reason we've talked recently is because of cancer.

We live in a world that's normalized bottling feelings up.
But use the word "*****" to describe the few that open up.
Why does our world have to be this way
Feels like talking is dead these days
You've got anxiety in depression at every single corner
Trying to talk about your feelings makes you the foreigner
Let me be here for you
Tell me all your problems I'll share mine too
Show me all the scars I'll kiss those too
Share with me all your dreams and I'll make them come true.

She's different.
She gave a different vibe.
It wasn't even close to going straight between the thighs.
I'm interested, now I know she is too.
Took many nights for this full moon.
If this works I honestly don't know what I'll do with myself. I'll be so happy I probably won't be able to contain myself.
And that will be all for you.
Not your body, money, or physical can do.
But your mind that's what has me so interested in you.
We are similar in many ways and that's the crazy thing.
I was 100% certain I was the only one going through that pain.
Well you've been hurt and it seems like it hurt your past too.
They say hurt people hurt people but what happens when two hurt people mend together to renew.
Hoping that we grow into one person would be cool.
But if it so happens that we just patch up ourselves that will suffice too.
I know this is going to mean a whole lot to you. I really hope you like reading my feelings too.
I like the praise as selfish as that seems but acceptance from people is what fuels me.
You're absolutely great in every single aspect. Your mind is intriguing and you're extremely beautiful too.