“Valentine for a ghost”


Desperation on the side of the road,  kiss me like it’s two months ago and i want to lay close to you and listen to closing time, but the signs are all closed on our time. My heart hangs with me one more time until tomorrow.  What part of the forest are you pruning today? Let’s lace the lights and let you move on to a new tomorrow. I’m glad you are happy. That means the world to my heart. Hearing from you sent me singing. I count my ways through your X’s and O’s. I’m  just wanting that slow dance to start. My arms are empty and I’ll sing this tune when i see you. I’ll smile you’ll never know my thoughts go to the what if’s of what will never be. I’m dreaming of a dark day. It’s raining in all our skies. I hope you move on to big things for your figure it’s fragile in my thoughts even if i know you can handle any sling or arrow. Let that talk box bleed our songs in counter clock wise i sit on your side because i want to be by your-side. My mirror is shallow almost empty my hair hangs low almost in my face. i wont change anything in hope it won’t change anything. Nye was a new year and it bleeds into my future this year started out brilliant... hopefully I’m not the mind sculptor you thought i was. i miss you, a lady lover and i want to linger in your door way. Be my stranger stay long and dream of me tonight. And hopefully the bubbles bubble up over the brim of our glass. Be the mistress of solitude a singer who speaks of  fortune. Don’t find out I’m not here. And I’m holding on to hope that your feelings could slow. My second life time lover a whisper of 100 Wishes and like that it’s gone. Goodbye Wednesday.
I get the mandela effect about cause it seems like January went on forever in another dimension, like side swiping cars when I’m coming down the street or turning mailbox flags up and walking past waiting for the rain to come. I’m stuck in the beginning of a final fantasy fiction scenario where you told me to never stop smiling for you. I’ll get on that plane and never turn around. I’m on a space ship headed to another planet where you and me didn't exist and I’m a lightsaber cutting through the fan fiction of a rainstorm I’m looking for a season to change to spring but I’ll hide in fall. Where will my story turn the page on our chapter. You were a side character i was hoping for a main role.
So come suffer in silence with me and stand on shoulders of ones who came before i want to arrange your eyes so you can see me again.

You’ll never hurt me again and i know you’ll feel better, but...

It’s ok cause I’ll keep living and leading a life less than fortunate, but the dust has settled and the lights are turned low. They swept up after the ending its time to go. You went your way and I’ll go mine. My heart is huge and i tear off pieces for people like you living in my home outside a dusty town, I’m the crystal ball for your gypsy curse. Don’t forget the time you smiled for a ghost.

“ V. Some sort of day”


Some sort of day My frustration passes into sadness fiery eyes turn bright past night. Don’t end this before it can begin. The little legend grows the young design past mine. I want to hideout in our pillow fort built for two. I’ll wait two whole weeks and my heart hurts when i see you sigh without me by your side. Don’t give up on dreams let’s live in this just awhile longer I’m not ready to wake up from you. I’ll Learn every angle in your armory i want to figure out where you go from here. Don’t wish this genie away. Let me stay your efreet. I’ll be your friend who’ll let you win or not when you want. I want to live up to the cause of disaster. I’ll drive you under a street light and be behind you. I wouldn't hold my hand away from you was just adjusting  my safety belt for our protection and steering our way into forever. Don’t let this be the end when i just want to shape the world with you through when the stars end and let my shadow hug you in your sleep. Don’t give up on me when I’m trying to find the Balance of cool and caring. Some sort of day I’ll want to spend the day alone with you in the dark again or I’ll just fade and forget how you smile and look away. I’m sampling our time to spend for the future in my memories. I’m torn two degrees caught out in the cold of this beauty. I hope to see you conquer the world even if it’s without me. My heart can’t break but the pieces can shatter and fall into another place. I’d like to share you with the world but I’m too late chaos cAptured me and stole it all away. Remember me when you sleep I’ll be the shadow hugging you from all around. Some sort of day one just not like today.

Im a luminary ascending and lantern’s last night.  I  fell in so we can’t fall out, we like the neighborhood quiet 7am psychic reading minds while looking in windows. I shake in the breeze and dream i cant fight the dragon. Treasures left in my wake I’m realizing escape isn’t that easy. God didn’t abandon he left us to work on more pressing matters.  If i don’t wake up I’ll arrive in the water on the other side. Let’s not split hairs let’s just chase the rabbits. Machines plugged into my eyes and connected to my heart sends me staggering down the street. I’m a lightning rod caught up in a game of capture the flag. I’m creating new plots for the plays that were your favorites. I talk **** just to save your soul. I’d sing your praises if you could only save yourself. I didn’t mind my business until i had a business mind. I didn’t separate fact or fiction just to throw away both piles. We just want to fall forward like 96 simple life leaving shades closed until noon.