The scars are down deep
The promises I made are getting hard to keep
Don't even  know what's real
when  will I ever heal
Tired of knowing I'm a mistake
Can't take it  I'm about to break
Wish I could just disappear
Why am I even still here
Why is tomorrow never a better day
When will I ever feel okay
There's a voice in my head
Says I'm better off dead
Look at myself in the mirror
Wish life could be a little bit clearer
I'm falling apart
I don't know I am
I guess that's the worst part
I smile when everyone's  around
But I always fall to the ground
Can't controll my emotion
Always causing a commotion
Just wanna drown in  an ocean

If I die
Would they wonder why
Or just move on
Ignoring the fact that I'm gone
If I die
Would anyone cry
Would they be tearful
Or would they be too busy being cheerful
Would they care if I die
Or at least try
If I die
And fade away
Would they forget me in a day
If I die
Would I finally have freedom
And leave this world so glum
If I die
Would they at least say goodbye
Would they say they love me
Or who I was meant to be
The things I wonder
What were to happen if I die

Life is about making mistakes
Learning from the friends we make
Knowing life isn't a piece of cake
Were taught to go through the pain
We learn to dance in the rain
To be proud of our name
Never say it with shame
Were not all the same
We learn to pass our limit
To live our life
Every single minute
We think we can be on our own
But really we can't do this alone
We learn to make a mend
So quit trying to pretend
Stop listening to the voice in your head
Quit thinking your better of dead
 learn to use our voice
We all have a choice 
Don't loose who you are
Just because you don't think your a star
Don't lock yourself inside
Focus on the bright side
Break all the rules
The others you must not  follow
You are your own jewel
Just remember it's a new day tomorrow
Keep  this in your mind
There will be times that you feel like your not fine
There are times where you wont know what's real
But were taught that we will eventually heal

Sleeping late
Trying to think straight
But I still remeber our 1st date.......
I still remember it like yesterday
I had to watch you walk away
And it didn't matter how much I wanted you to stay
I still had to watch you go
Every since that day I been feeling low
You left me here alone
And now here I am waiting for you at home
Tears are falling down my face
But I'm still waiting for you just in case
You said well see each  other once again
But my question for you is when
It feel like it been forever
And I'm wondering  when well be together
It's been so long
And I'm trying to be strong
I don't know how long I can last
I wish time could go by fast
Cause I need you by my side
And  you're all that's been on my mind
And I don't care if the world disappears
As long as you're here
Without you I wouldn't know what to do
And lately I've been feeling so  blue
Right now it feels like  my earth stop turning
And the sun stop burning
Why did you have to  leave
I felt so diseved
I still remeber like yesterday
There was nothing left  to say
I had to watch you walk away    
Oh how I wish you would've stayed

We know....
Sometimes were in a bad place
Where all we need is some space
We continue our way
Hoping for a better day
Trying to be strong
Maybe someday we''ll belong
Sometime we get tired of everyone saying it'll be okay
But ain't that what they all say
Hard to see loved ones go
But that's the world we know
We wanna cry
Some of us  can't admit it
That we wanna die
That we wanna quit
We stopped believing
So now were leaving
Time to let go
But I guess that's  the life we know

When I die
Save your tears 
Cuz u never cared when I was here
Youd hear me  calling
Youd here me scream
But all u did was stare at your iphone screen
There were times where I wish it was all just a bad dream 
There were time where I  just wished I could wake up
But it was all  reality
And no one seem  to know who I truly am 
Not even me
So when I die
Save your tears
No one cared when i here
You never picked up the phone
You never asked if I was alright all alone.
Oh how how it would have changed my day
If you had only asked if I was okay
So when I die
Pls don't cry
Save your lies
Cause you never cared
And when I needed you
You were never there
And I know when I die
The memories of me will fade away
And you'll forget me in a day
  Once I'm gone
Don't ask why I died
Think of what I use to feel
Then you'll understand why
Never knew what or who was real
Didn't know who was a fake
I was just mistake
A waste of  space  oh Such a disgrace
And at night the only thing for comfort was my loneliness
The only thing that surrounded me was darkness
oh it wouldve change my day
If only someone asked if I was okay
So after I die
Save your tears
No one ever  cared about mine when I was here
So this is it I guess  Goodbye