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414 · Jun 2015
Untitled XCII
Steven Muir Jun 2015
I.
History repeats itself in
the worst ways;
a broken bone finally heals and
is snapped again
with softer hands.

II.
Falling for someone is
different every time you do it,
and watching others fall apart is harder
the fifth time 'round.

III.
Sit still and the world will turn around you.
Stand up and run,
and you'll fuel its momentum.
412 · Jan 2015
Suspicions
Steven Muir Jan 2015
I.
He's asked me to tell him
that I am worth it
every day.

II.
A little bit of me
thinks it's very silly,
and it won't do a thing,
but
simply knowing he
cares enough to keep me doing it
means it's
at least a little true.

III.
I'm worth
something
to him.
408 · Jun 2015
Streetlights
Steven Muir Jun 2015
We are streetlights;
One pool of light barely out of reach
Of the next.
Steven Muir Jan 2015
I.
We traipsed into the cathedral
and found her lying on the floor.
They made the service public,
had forgot to slam the door.

II.
If you could have caught her up,
took her hands, you would.
But you're another sinner,
turn away and turn your hood.

III.
You wanted her stiff form
in a starched and ironed dress.
You yelled, you screamed,
and you did not digress.

IV.
Injustice is a girl
who is buried in a suit.
400 · Aug 2014
Seventeen
Steven Muir Aug 2014
I.
Not yet,
am I seventeen.

II.
When I was five or six
I imagined a world in which
my first kiss was on my sixteenth birthday
and I was wearing a pink dress.

III.
I had my first kiss when I was fourteen,
in plaid pajama bottoms
and a loose top.

IV.
When I was seven or eight
I imagined a world in which
I was a vet tech
with my hair in a bun.

V.
I am in a world
where vet school
is not interesting.

VI.
My hair
will never be long enough
for a bun.

VII.
"Be the person you needed
when you were younger"
I would have balked,
and disagreed,
I know.

VIII.
If I could see a picture of me now
when I was little
I would laugh
and never believe a word about
how I hated my *******
my hips
my voice.

IX.
I would have never believed a word of how
I'd fall in love with a girl
who was sad as night
and made me as happy
as the sun.

X.
And I never would have believed
that I would love that little girl
who had grown into a man.
394 · Nov 2015
Los Angelos
Steven Muir Nov 2015
I.
The world dropped away and may have dropped out of existence,
but when the plane landed it was reality as hard and cold as it comes.

II.
Reality, as soft and warm as possible,
blue bottled sakè, gentle hands, the music as loud as a foghorn, the night air -
through the windows, cold as hell but brilliant.
City lights are brighter when you're laughing.
393 · Jan 2015
The Mock Prince
Steven Muir Jan 2015
I.
I had a childhood just like
you,
if you'll recall.
Playmates in dresses
and pretending we could be
princesses,
and now we've grown
so tall.

II.
We all dreamed of
older things,
thought about marriages
and kids,
and even closer, prom.

III.
But you'll wear
a dress,
and I'll wear a suit.
You'll be a princess
and I'll be
a mock prince.

IV.
It isn't like I blame
the playmates
for distancing themselves.
The abandonment is
mutual,
but it still feels a bit like
separate hells.
393 · Apr 2016
Untitled CVII
Steven Muir Apr 2016
I.
******* just think if Van Gogh had taken anti-depressants
he might not have painted and *******
if I had said "No" loud enough I might never
have picked up a camera and

II.
******* if I hadn't been the reason my ****** never killed herself -
and ******* if you didn't take a step back when I said "her" -
******* I wouldn't be fighting for **** all and holy
**** if anyone had said something when I started going quiet
and

III.
******* we call ourselves artist's because we create and
******* we create because we were destroyed but
******* I will go to hell before I will call my ******
my muse.
389 · Sep 2015
Untitled C
Steven Muir Sep 2015
I.
Car Hits Tree:
Local Teenager Killed In Speeding Accident.

II.
I couldn't write I couldn't
think,
for a week.

III.
I sat down in the
aftermath,
and you were still pounding inside my head;
boy who I wanted to defend,
boy who I wanted to be.

IV.
You, alone, in the car.
Sixteen,
player on the football team.

V.
We all wore blue and loved and thought of you,
but the days ticked on and you slid farther into that coma,
never woke up again.

VI.
Your sister said at the football game,
she wanted to use present tense for you;
he IS here, he IS a good kid.

VII.
I couldn't do it.
You were here, you were a good kid.

VIII.
And now it's over,
and you will be a page in a high school yearbook,
a newspaper clipping,
and a tragic backstory.

IX.
Car Hits Tree:
Local Teenager Killed in Speeding Accident.
380 · Nov 2014
I Am Not Patriotic
Steven Muir Nov 2014
I.
I will look up to
superheros if I want to.

II.
I will call myself
Captain America
if that's what makes me comfortable
in my own skin.

III.
You are not going to stop me
because you don't know what it's like
to drown
in clean air
upon seeing your reflection.

IV.
I will call myself
Captain America
and I will thrive.
372 · Oct 2015
Untitled CII
Steven Muir Oct 2015
I.
You will be here another year,
you will be safe another year; I cannot
ensure
any of this.

II.
I ensure,
that I will be here,
another year.
I ensure that I will be
wherever you are
as long as you want me there
and the contents of my pockets allow.

III.
I ensure that I will not escape
and leave you
behind.
370 · Jul 2014
Let's Begin
Steven Muir Jul 2014
I.
Let's begin by taking all our clothes
and packing them into a trunk.

II.
Let's begin by packing up our fridge
we'll put it in a cooler.

III.
We can shove them in our car,
please stop and grab my sunglasses,
we're going to need a flashlight
two pillows
and a sleeping bag.

IV.
Come on quickly let me
grab your hand
and we'll start -
I've got a map.

V.
We'll go from here to there
and stop at every town in between,
I'll make us dinner,
you make up the bed.

VI.
Quick, jump in,
I want to begin.
361 · Jan 2015
Untitled LII
Steven Muir Jan 2015
I.
Some nights
it's like hoover **** has broken
right behind my eyes
and there's no noise
no shaky breath
just wet cheeks.

II.
I can't make it stop and
there's nothing even wrong.
I'm terrified to sleep
with someone someday;
I don't want anyone
to know.
360 · Feb 2015
For a Brother
Steven Muir Feb 2015
I.
It gets easier
with time.

II.
I know how hard this is to
believe,
but I trust you so
please trust me.

III.
And maybe my words will
reach you
and maybe they will not.
360 · Nov 2014
Inadequicies
Steven Muir Nov 2014
I.
My ******* ribcage
does not work
how it should.

II.
I can barely
breathe
without a stabbing pain

III.
"There's nothing
wrong with you"
Thank you,
doctor.
359 · Aug 2015
Untitled XCVIII
Steven Muir Aug 2015
I.
They told me
"opposites attract".

II.
Opposites attract, but you will
burn each other up
until you are all gone and there is
nothing left but ashes.

III.
Opposites attract, but find someone
who is not magnetic.
357 · Jul 2014
Untitled XXIX
Steven Muir Jul 2014
I.
Your blood family
is not the only family you will ever have
and don't you dare tell me so.

II.
You are under no obligation
to love
anyone.

III.
*******.
356 · Jan 2016
Untitled CV
Steven Muir Jan 2016
I.
And I finished the playlist I made for you.
It's lovely, once you listen
seven times.

II.
I appreciated when you told me nothing would change but
may never know if you were lying.

III.
If you believed that,
did you also believe I was the one changing things?
354 · Aug 2015
Untitled XCVII
Steven Muir Aug 2015
I.
When I look back,
it's almost laughable.
The irony of my very existence
is almost laughable.

II.
I'm a ******* joke,
but I'm never able to laugh
until months later.
352 · Jul 2014
Untitled XXXIV
Steven Muir Jul 2014
I.
Honestly
if someone called me '****'
I'd only be mad
it wasn't
'******'
349 · Feb 2015
Valentine IV
Steven Muir Feb 2015
I.
I am a bundle of
nerves
over you.

II.
Silly,
as it'll be
the third time we do this
for February 14th.

III.
But the thought of
seeing you tomorrow
and your smile
makes it hard to not be
giddy.
347 · Apr 2015
A Boy I've Never Met
Steven Muir Apr 2015
I.
"Drink orange juice,
pet a puppy.
Take care of yourself."

II.
It's never came to my mind to
do such a thing.
Take care of
me?

III.
Whatever for?
She was always more
important.
345 · May 2015
Friday, 7:30pm
Steven Muir May 2015
I.
It's a click and a
whir of my lens,
and I was
laughing.

II.
Softer laughter then what I forced out
when I was next to her.
Easier,
and I was able to breathe.
344 · Mar 2014
Diagnosis, But Not My Own
Steven Muir Mar 2014
I.
And her therapist said
A++ diagnosis
on my part when she told her
I'd done my own research.

II.
What had I said? I said
Trauma
Depression
Social anxiety
I don't want
my diagnosis to be correct

III.
Please
tell me something good
can come of this

IV.
Tell me
you can fix her
because I can't fix a thing
and it's the worst
thing I've ever done
to watch her
fall apart
344 · Dec 2015
In Future
Steven Muir Dec 2015
I.
There will be enough breath in you to shout,
and there will be enough people who love you to listen.
343 · Jun 2014
Untitled XIV
Steven Muir Jun 2014
I.
Look at him
picking daisies

II.
Would you call him
less of a man
for loving flowers?

III.
His anatomy protects his manhood
While mine de-validates it.
341 · Aug 2015
Botched Beginning
Steven Muir Aug 2015
Stop when red lights flash.

Stop lights;
when red flash.

Stop lights.
Stop lights.
Warning lights.

You should have ******* listened.
340 · Sep 2015
Untitled XCIX
Steven Muir Sep 2015
I.
I am made of sleep,
of sweaters, bedhead, and melted shivers.
334 · Apr 2015
Untitled LXXXVII
Steven Muir Apr 2015
I.
I'm a butterfly's
wings,
I'm delicate as a storm cloud.

II.
I might shatter if you touch me,
but broken glass hurts
the person who breaks it.
333 · May 2015
Untitled LXXXIX
Steven Muir May 2015
I.
"When I come home I can
hug you through your panic things,
or your anger things."

II.
And no one's ever said that
before. I'm a *******
disaster, disgusting, drinking problems to come.

III.
You're telling me I'll have
someone to hang onto,
someone to cry into,
someone who tells me we'll get through things together.

IV.
Are you sure this isn't
a ******* joke?
But I trust you,
because how can you not trust someone
who's always been so **** good.
328 · Mar 2015
Untitled LXXVII
Steven Muir Mar 2015
I.
I'm beginning to understand
how people use the term
"Healthy relationship",
and I'm beginning to understand
what it doesn't mean.

II.
It means
sacrifice,
sure.
But it also means
being allowed
to ask for sacrifice.

III.
It means
needing someone
but
being needed,
too.

IV.
There's a lot that's hard to
tuck under your belt
and keep with you.
People always say give
and take,
but they don't say
how.

V.
Sometimes things get
bad without hitting.
Sometimes things get
harsh without yelling.

VI.
Sometimes things go downhill fast
and no one even means it.
323 · Mar 2015
Untitled LXXIII
Steven Muir Mar 2015
I.
Evict the conviction
that convicts are evicted
from grace.
Steven Muir Feb 2015
I.
"It's alright if you step on my toes;
I'm in too much other pain
to notice."

II.
"I'll let you two go;
it'll just give me panic attacks
anyhow."

III.
"I'm sorry I'm crying, it's just that
no one has ever been that nice to me
before."

IV.
"Don't take your arm
from around me,
please."
321 · Apr 2014
Fickle Time
Steven Muir Apr 2014
I.
Every day like
a knife but not
for knives are defined
and days are
fluid

II.
Every minute
like an hour
but not,
for hours are long
and minute are sometimes
nothing but a blink

III.
Time is a fickle friend,
because no matter
how often
you go to see them
they keep mocking
never
constant.
321 · Jan 2015
Valentine I
Steven Muir Jan 2015
I.
She breathes in sunlight
every morning,
and exhales upon the clouds
that surround my head.

II.
Hair twined in flowers
and lungs full of summer air,
she's a vision
without a care.
318 · Jul 2015
Untitled XCV
Steven Muir Jul 2015
I.
It's funny how
commitment looks on
the face of someone who's never
been committed to before.

II.
As if commitment to another human was merely
the promise that you would not
end your own life.
318 · Aug 2016
Aftershocks
Steven Muir Aug 2016
I.
You do not have to speak to your ****** again as long as
time lasts,
probably.

II.
You are
legitimately safe now.

III.
You have never felt so jumpy.
313 · Jun 2015
Untitled XCI
Steven Muir Jun 2015
I.
The telltale signs of lust are writ
upon your features,
it's easier to ignore then to fear.

II.
I don't with a single hand to touch me,
at least not where you think it counts,
at least not here.
311 · Feb 2015
Springtime Will Be Better
Steven Muir Feb 2015
I.
Shooting down that stars
wouldn't be
nearly deserving of you.

II.
But as far as you're concerned
my desperate best
is good enough.
311 · Sep 2014
Untitled XLIV
Steven Muir Sep 2014
I.
They asked me to write an essay
depicting the
glories of the
American Dream.

II.
I couldn't, but
I wrote three pages
easily.

III.
They were
the wrong three pages -
I told them about
Natives Americans
torn from homelands.

IV.
I told them about
police brutality,
the things going on in Ferguson,
and the media coverage of war overseas.

V.
I told them about
separation of church and state
and how that ought to look.

VI.
I told them
I'm not sure if I can write an essay about the glories of equality
in a country where
I do not feel equal.
310 · Mar 2015
Untitled LXXIX
Steven Muir Mar 2015
I.
I've never been
******* better,
I've never burned
******* brighter,
I've never stood
******* taller.

II.
Two years ago I said
"If broken hearts make you stronger,
I don't need to be superman."
But now I feel a little bit
like superman,
it was worth it
all along.
307 · Sep 2014
Smoke
Steven Muir Sep 2014
I.
It looks like
fog
from my window

II.
The hum of my
air purifier
blots everything out
sound wise

III.
And outside
everything is covered in
the gray
haze.

IV.
When I leave my room
my lungs -
already weak and
malfunctioning, on the best of days -
choke,
cough,
and reject what I put in them.

V.
I hope
the fires
clear up.
307 · Jul 2014
Carson
Steven Muir Jul 2014
I.
You're
a driving force ,you're
a maniac ,
in the best of ways.

II.
You're calm and
collected,
you're handsome.

III.
I'm not in love with you, and
I wouldn't want to be.

IV.
But I do love you.

V.
I don't think I've ever been
so lucky
to call someone my friend.
306 · Nov 2015
it's alright i promise
Steven Muir Nov 2015
I.
You're more than you think you are.

II.
You're discarding me and it's alright.

III.
I must deserve it if you think it's right.

IV.
I will dig my nails into my own skin the way you did.
305 · Mar 2015
Untitled LXXX
Steven Muir Mar 2015
I.
The world is filled with
too much to ever see
in a lifetime,
and maybe this is why
we tell stories.
305 · Feb 2015
Untitled LIV
Steven Muir Feb 2015
I.
Freak of
nature
but at least
it's natural.
301 · Dec 2014
Untitled XLVII
Steven Muir Dec 2014
I.
December
is for bubblegum feelings
this year.
Steven Muir Mar 2014
I.
I don't know you anymore
I don't know your friends
or your place.

II.
I missed
forgot
stopped saying hello when we passed
on the street.

III.
I heard
there was a man
and he was your father.

IV.
I heard his heart
gave up on him
only forty-eight
and gone in a flash.

V.
It's not beautiful,
and we're not heroes.

VI.
And now I regret leaving you
you must have others to turn to but
look what I've done.

VII.
It hurts for you in my chest,
It goes still for you in my mind.

VIII.
But you'll never
accept help from me
not now
because you don't know me
anymore.
300 · Apr 2015
Untitled LXXXVIII
Steven Muir Apr 2015
I.
The world is
a hundred times kinder
then I would have thought
before.

II.
There's so many good people,
people she told me
didn't exist.

III.
Now she's the
odd ******* one out.
Don't hurt people
to save yourself.
299 · Apr 2015
Untitled LXXXIV
Steven Muir Apr 2015
I.
There's a stabbing
in between my ribs,
but it's from laughing.

II.
Used to be from
longing, a want for something.
Now it's physical pain;
I couldn't be happier.
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