That intense link
With emotions
Guilt, Regret
With every decision
Just isn't there anymore
I don't feel it

This is scary
Interesting at the same time

I seem to handle rejection
way better
I seem to have
almost  a carefree attitude
To things
That would have left me in tears
Should I be worried?

I don't think so
I'll savor this
Milk it down as long as it lasts
Things seem simpler
Less Emotional burden
I feel different
I love this.

To be alone is not so tragic,
to be alone, and yet at peace is magic
but oh to be alone with you
That my love is magic meant for two,
For in this life are many troubles,
we both have more than just a few
but when I see the love that lies behind your eyes
My troubles fade from view
And my world is born anew.

It easy at times
To bottle down
Those feelings

Comes a time
When someone opens you up
Every single pain
That you had held back
Comes out
Tearing your heart apart.

When every single thought
Of those memories
Engulfs your heart
You feel your body tremble
You throat dries up
Your eyes weeping
Invincible tears
Only seen
By the heart.

I may look calm,smile
Inside
I am shattered to pieces.

I ruin things
Say words
That can't be taken back

I **** the spark
As soon as it lights up

I ruin connections
Intentionally
I see the end
Before it Begins

I know I can't handle it
When the End
Actually comes.
With every beautiful beginning
Comes a sad ending.

I need help.

When you lack words
To express
The turmoil of emotions
Going on inside you.

When you feel sad
Lonely
And can't explain why

Just coil up in bed
Hide in a corner
You wanna cry
Can't find the tears

Nothing you do
Seems to cheer you up
I hate such days
It's like I am mourning
Something I don't know

The loss of something
I never had

I pray,
I don't get to see you
It's almost impossible
To get over you
When  I have to see your
Lovely Face,
Piercing eyes
Smile that melts my heart.
Every Workday.