Chelsea Spahr

Chelsea Spahr Apr 2014

Anxiety

It eats me alive from the inside out.
Every day, every hour, every minute, every second.
The thoughts that enter my mind are intense.
Paranoid thoughts, seeing faces I wish I never had to see.
Anxiety eats me alive.
Nothing I do can stop it.
Anxiety is poison to the mind.

Chelsea Spahr Apr 2014

Two Years

Two years ago today, you asked the big question, I answered yes.
Two years ago today, you became apart of me that I could not live without.
Two years ago today, you helped me become a stronger person and face my demons.
Two years ago today, I'm still with you and couldn't be more proud to not only call you my best friend but my other half.

Chelsea Spahr Apr 2014

Judging

Never judge a book by it's cover.
Never judge a person before you really know them,
because not everything is always what it seems.

Chelsea Spahr Mar 2014

Life

Life is all but a beautiful nightmare.
We're all struggling to stay alive, trying to make sense of this world we live in.
So much hate, so much judgement, why can't we all get along?
Certain ways people should look,
Certain weight to be considered beautiful.
This life full of terrible thoughts, self hate, hatred amongst others,
All just to feel accepted.

Chelsea Spahr Mar 2014

Broken

What you did to me will forever have an effect.
The marks you left were not what should have been.

The pain you caused me, the sleepless nights,
the thoughts of suicide, the endless nightmares.

But I refuse to give up, to let you feel like you have won.
I will not give up on myself no matter how hard it gets.

I refuse to let you see me fall apart.
You no longer have the power.

This journey of recovery may be hard, but I will never fall.
I've come this far and will only go further.

I'm no longer broken.

Chelsea Spahr Mar 2014

Guardian Angel

My guardian angel, not a day goes by that I don't think of you,
Not a day goes by that I don't miss you.
My heart is heavy and aching with pain knowing you will never return.
Who knew these past 9 months would be so difficult, full of sadness.
For you, I would do anything to bring you back, to form more memories,
To have you here for as long as possible.
My guardian angel, please never stop looking over me for I am doing my best to make you proud.
I love you, this family isn't the same without you.
Please never forget me.

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