In a place.. In a country full of freedom.. I've never felt so.. So trapped..

I'm constantly finding new ways to break free from this hell that we call 'life' but in the end.. I always find myself in the same place.. Exactly where I started.

The weight of depression and sadness pulls you down like an anchor into an ocean full of nothing but sharks that will bite you in two without hesitation.

The struggle of finding a reason to keep going.. Everything you once loved, every passion just turns into a pain that taunts you endlessly.

Smoking, cutting, drinking ... Anything to take the pain away temporarily until.. Until its all over. You're stuck there.. With nothing but yourself and your thoughts to keep you company..

There's nothing in the world that's forever but the pain that continues to follow you no matter what you do..

The only happiness that you can manage to find is through the Marlboro pressed to your lips.. To the shot of liquor in the little glass cup in your fingertips.. Or to the blade that you put to your wrist waiting for that oh-so beautiful crimson to trickle down it like a dead tree.

It all takes a toll on you... Before you realize.. You're on your deathbed wheezing out your last words.. But at the time.. It was all worth it for those temporary moments of happiness..

For you.. The one I love..
The one I shall share my best memories and the rest of my days with..
The one who I shall stand beside no matter how fierce the tides of the this ocean called "life" gets.
The one whom I will always love and cherish as the days of life wind to a thin.. As the darkness of the world collapses on us..
As we share all of our sorrows and fears as one.. All of our moments and happiness as one...
And most importantly... Share our love for each other as one.. I love you.. More than I ever thought possible