Through this day, I'm spinning out of control
Crashing into my fate in the form of a dead soul
And I'm praying to some God I don't believe in
Trying to make all my wrongs right as I'm sitting out on the corner, holding a can made of tin
They see me as a ghost
Thinking I have it better then most

Going broke
My home is under the branches of an Oregon White Oak
The fire's dying
Everyday I'm trying
The men in the suits
Don't give a **** that I'm living in a cave of roots

This is the future that's now not so clean and clear
Darling, I know a home seems so far away, a light year
But we can stick this out
Sometime we'll have rain, no longer a drought
Just stay with me another night
For tomorrow, we'll get up and fight.

Hearts pounding,
The suicide alarm in your head is sounding
My key just broke in half
Nobody's around to laugh
So I walk to the door
Knowing exactly what I'm looking for

December walks in the fading light
My face turning a pale white
Looking out on the river, seeing the Black Sea
My eyes seem to deceive me
I close up like a dead flower
At night, my head turns into rush hour

The voices
They seem to grow nearer with all my choices
Trapped in the back of a car going up in flames
And the police are tryin' to get my parents names
But it was already too late
I was headed over since the age of eight

Nothing but an empty room
And now all that's left is a filled tomb
I took a girl with me as I went
Two lives got spent
Makes me go numb
My pulse is racing... a drum

Swirling out of reality
My strength is sinking, just like my mentality
To stay here, to stay alive
There's a ember inside of me, to survive
Loving lost ones
The burden of it weighing tons

Heart's pounding,
The suicide alarm in your head is sounding
December walks in the fading light
My face turns to a pale white
The voices they seem to grow nearer with all my choices
Noting but an empty room
Now all that's left is a filled tomb
Swirling out of reality
My strength is sinking, like my mentality

14 balloons floating in the wind, hitting electrical wires
14 kittens running around in the yard, perfect prey for the Hawks
14 unmatched socks laying by the fire, catching fire and burning down the house
14 years of living on Earth, wanting it all to end
14 will be where it stops

I know I say I hate you
And that you're just some fat old *****
Or that I want to **** you most nights
And that I wish you were never born

But I would be dead right now
Always had someone who would keep me warm when I was in a cold world
Never missing a chance to say goodbye on my way out the door
Giving me this look of love and respect.

I love you more than a person could love their pet
You were my life support through 7 of the worst years in my life
And I love your sweet purr as you fall asleep in my arms
That grin on your little face makes all the sleepless nights worth it

You won't be around forever
I wish I could live the rest of my life with you tapping my leg for more Friskies
Nothing can bring me up from my lows like you can
Just a plop in my lap
That's my reason to keep fighting for life
Because of you.

I love you buddy, I won't let anything happen to you.
I love you more then I could ever show.
On the darkest nights, you somehow tell me to just pull the sheets up and sleep
On the hottest days, you still lay on my legs
I love you cat. I love you Luna.
Even though it may not seem like it.
You mean the world to me. I love you.

Speaking softly to yourself.
She's in the room across the hall.
And you're afraid to cry if she hears you..
Just speaking what you're going to ask her.
"Mom, would you let me be a guy?"
And all of a sudden, your whisper is shaking
and tears of worry and shame slip down your cheeks

I feel more lost
And yet more found on this night
I pace in the mirror
pull out a pink sweater shirt
"If you like how you look in this, don't tell her"
I think as I pull it over my shoulders
I hate how I look...
It's not me.
Grab my skater jacket and cover up the pink
And then I smile. This is me.
I have to do it one way or the other.

Wrapping my arms around your familiar body
Making a wall of Hope and Happiness around the two of us
Creating a world where we're the ones to thrive
Your warmth is nice
And your cheeks are the color of a perfect peach

Roaming in your forest
Gleaming gold rays drip through the canopy
You're laying right in one of them
Looking so perfect, I can't help but smile
Nothing could break us
Because I built a shield of Faith, Strength and Unbroken Promises
Garden glove in garden glove, walking back
They call her Love.
I call her Life.

When there's nowhere to turn
I'll call your name
When you think you're done for
Quit fighting
When there's no light
Close your eyes
Stay strong.
The worst is over.