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Another day passes as he wishes he had been born differently
Another day he puts on clothes he doesn't like
Another day he looks into the mirror and feels nothing but pain and sadness
Another day he wastes his breath praying to god to change him
Another day he walks through the mall and wishes he could change his body
Another lie told to a friend when asked if he is okay
Another night spent dreaming about the life he feels he should be living
Another week spent feeling completely alone
Another year spent living the same life
A life he feels deep in his heart is the wrong one.*- Jeffrey Sutter
He looks at the empty bottle he has just fished off
He punches the wall and tells himself this is the last time
He knows this is the same thing he told himself yesterday but refuses to admit he has a problem
His pain has been replaced by the feeling of numbness and confusion
He just sits and waits for the day the lights finally shut off
He thinks to himself maybe then I will finally find happiness.* -Jeffrey Sutter
*I wrote this only because I hadn't written anything in a while... I hate this poem...
Another night spent shaking in the cold waiting for the warmth of love to warm him
Another day spent waiting for love to flow through his heart            
Another week spent crying in the shadows cast by his broken soul
Another month spent walking along the shattered edges of his world
Another unfathomable year spent in a desolate life
Another lonely boy looking for nothing more than for someone to appreciate his existence*
-Jeffrey Sutter
I tell her that I forgive her as I look into her eyes
She looks at me and smiles assured that the lie I just told her was the truth
I tell myself it’s the truth as lying to myself is the only way I can muster up the courage to say it
I hold her close as I think about the lie I have just told
I tell myself I just need more time
I tell myself that it’s her fault I can’t forgive her
Many years pass as I hold on to the hatred and anger I have in my heart for her
I look in the mirror and see nothing but a hurt child refusing to let go of the past
I convince myself that letting the anger go will mean letting her go
I reach the edge of the dam and look across at the vast river of hate I have allowed to flow into my heart
I tell myself that it’s time to let it all go
I open the gates and allow myself to cry
The feelings of anger flow out of me like a raging river roaring down a mountain after the first snow melt
I can finally start to forgive
          I can finally tell her I forgive her*
-Jeffrey Sutter
Another night left alone to ponder my life,
Another night to dream of a life that is not mine,
The darkness thickens around me as I try and grasp what my life has lead up to,
My mind spins uncontrollably as I contemplate the decisions I made,
I sit under the one poorly lit light left in my world,
As it flickers on and off each time threatening to never come back on,
Time is continuously wasted by my obsession to figure out what it all means,
And in this chaotic time of my life,
That’s when it hits me like the bolt of a rifle slamming into a bullet,
I know who I am inside,
I have always known,
My mind has been tricked,
Weighed down by the unforgiving nature of our society,
The flickering light in which I sit under burns brighter than ever,
Now not only lighting up the small corner I sit in but the whole room,
With the path I need to take finally lit by not a flickering light but by the sun,
I am finally ready to stand up* -Jeffrey Sutter
He looks into her sparkling eyes
He reminds himself to breath
She smiles at him and touches his arm
His heart skips
Time seems to lose all meaning
And within this timeless moment he knows he can stay with her forever
He moves closer gently placing his arms around her pulling her tightly against him.
He has never felt anything so warm
He smiles knowing this moment will never end
A tear runs down her face
He tells her that he will always be there
Time starts to move again
He knows this is the last kiss good bye
He leans down toward her slowly still looking into her eyes
Their lips touch
Years of memory’s rush threw his head
He hears the screeching of the train
Their lips slowly separate
He says I love you as he feels her warmth leave him for the last time* -Jeffrey Sutter
His lips press against my neck
My hair stands on end and my fists clinch tight
His arms rap around my chest like a straitjacket
He is rough in all the right ways
He pushes me against the wall
His breath warms the back of my neck
I feel him slowly turn me around to face him
His soft hands wrap around my waist so gently
I look deep into his light brown eyes
His eyes pull me toward him like an inescapable gravitational field
The space between us grows ever smaller
My mind is racing at the speed of light
Our lips touch for the first time
My mind freezes
My body goes numb and is then filled with a warming since of passion and love
Are lips feel like two puzzle pieces that were made to fit together
I finally understand what the perfect kiss feels like
This perfect moment is stopped by a screeching noise followed by a bone shacking vibration
I wake up to my life and get ready for work* -Jeffrey Sutter

— The End —