Sleepless_Nights2001Whisper

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My life part 2Being in a program sucks it's like I have no one to go to. I have been in a program since I was 12 years old and I feel like there is not a day that goes by where I have freedom or space and it sucks. I never have time for myself and everyone should have time to themselves. But when you live with others who struggle with a lot like you. You find conflict and its hard for freedom when you have others controlling what you do. Telling you what to do every second of your day. / I just wish that there will be at least one day out of my teenage life where I can be myself and not listen to others telling crap. Life is frustrating.

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Jan 9, 2019

FeelingsDo you ever just feel like you like too many people, / that you are going to get judged. / its okay i know the feeling,

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Jan 9, 2019

Merry Christmasthere is no snow on the ground but who cares its Christmas, Merry Christmas.

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Dec 25, 2018

Letting him hurt mecalled him twice, / answered once. / cried a bunch,

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Aug 17, 2018

My lifeThere was a time were there was a girl who wanted things but couldn't explain why. She was confused and depressed all the time and her body kept changing. Her parents never excepted who she has decided to become, so when she grew up it was hard to tell others who she now is. I am that girl. I wanted everything. / As I continue to grow up I learn new things. I have gone through so many different changes that sometimes I get very confused. I have been in many different relationships and most have not been healthy. There were a few different relationships that were good but I messed up by leaving. But there is only one person I can actually say I would get back with. He was the first person I can actually say was the first ZI ever loved and I know if he ever asked me back out I would leave the person I was with for him. / I'm in a program because apparently im too much to handle for my parents. Sometimes I feel neglected but i know i'm not. There are alot of people that are there for me even if it's not my parents. I am a very bubbly person. It hurts me ever more than a normal person will hurt when I get upset because depression makes everything worse than a normal person might feel. I say might because who really know what or how others feel. Somedays I wish I wasn't alive but then I think there would be no way anyone can see the world without them in it because what if the world didn't exist.

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Aug 11, 2018

That one personWhen all you want is that one person, / the one that keeps your heart beating. / that one person can change everything,

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Jul 18, 2018

What i choselooking forward into this world i see him, / in my life all i want is him. / for once in my life i am confident,

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Jul 18, 2018

LifeYou makes mistakes. you learn from them. dont ever give up. keep on moving. love comes and goes. but until you find the one person that will love you unconditionally you will have a hard time coping sometimes but once you find the right person dont lose them. keep them close and treat them right. love them and take care of them.

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Jul 17, 2018

AloneAlone and scared i wait, / For a sign. / I don't know what kind,

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Jul 16, 2018

Cryinglaying here, / just being a bum. / with my tears flowing,

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Jun 29, 2018

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