I hear her voice inside my head
Playing back the things she's said
I feel her beat inside my heart
She has taken up every part
I see her smile when I close my eyes
I remember and part of me dies
She doesn't love me like I do
That is a fact I know its true
But I still can't get her out of my head
It makes me wish that I was dead

I am sitting here
Only treading water
Not getting any better
But I am building muscle
With every single stroke
So that maybe one day
When life it's me
I can hit life back
And come out on top

Don't mind me I am slowly dieing
Don't mind me I am just crying
Don't mind me I am probably lieing
Don't mind me I am just longing
Don't mind me I am slowly losing
Don't mind me I am just dieing

Nobody would even care
If I slit my throat and died
They would not shed a tear
Maybe they'd even smile
Because I am so awful
That people want me dead
Maybe they are all right

You told me a lie
That you'll always be here
For me when I am down
But in my darkeat moment
You're nowhere to be found

She was
A loveless lover
A heartless heartbreak
A soulless soulmate
A lossless loss
A dreamless dreamer
A wasteless waster
A hopeless hoper

I don't deserve this love you give
I am but worthless flesh and blood
While you are a goddess divine
In your presence I can not live
For I am worse than mud
And you my dear are so fine

I think that we should part
For I can not live up to you
You are leagues above
I will only break your heart
And then you will find someone new
Who will give you so much love

Although it hurts me so much
I know that it is for the best
For me to leave you on your own
I will always miss your touch
But I did not pass the test
So I am meant to be alone

I hope you can understand
That all I care about is you
And none of this is your fault
I am unworthy of your hand
This is something I always knew
That by your love I can not stand

I am sorry it must end this way
But I wish you only happy days

I wish to hold
You oh so tight
And let you know
That it's alright
I'll move your fears
Far from your sight
And if we were
To ever fight
I would be sure
To make it right
So we could hug
In the moonlight

I know I am not good enough
I know I can't be perfect
I know I don't deserve you
I know I will always be average
I know I can't do everything right
But that doesn't mean I will stop trying

It is a lie
That Love exists
Some argue against
They say love is real

Now read it backwards

I see the blue
Of the sky
I see the green
Of the trees
But all I've seen
And caught my eye
Can't compare to you

When I am feeling so alone
I know that you are by my side
Your warm embrace to be my home
In your arms I can always hide
And almost feel like their my own
I then forget I ever cried

Thinking is an dangerous pastime
It can make you extend past time
And make you think of all those times
When you messed up so so many times

I want to cry
Into your arms
To feel your breath
On my neck
To hear your voice
Say it's alright
To feel your lips
So close to mine
And then I know
I'll be just fine

This love I feel
For you is real
Yet this all
Feels surreal

I can't believe
You chose me
It's like this all
Just can not be

I say that I'm alright
Even when I'm not
Because I feel so tight
Like I'm tied in a knot

I'm not good enough
I could never be
You deserve someone better
Than I could ever be

All I wish in life
Is to be good enough
To have you as my wife
But loving me is so tough
So I cut myself with a knife
Because I have too much stuff

I know it is my fault
I know I made you cry
Just lock me in a vault
All alone for me to die

Heart break
Headache
Mistake
Self hate

My head is spinning
You keep it going
With all these signs
All of these times
That we go out
I listen to you pout
Yet you keep on saying
We will never be a thing
You said you have never
Been on a single date ever
Then what were those things
Those meetings with meanings
People call those things dates
I guess you have higher rates
First you said you loved me
Then you went and confused me
You said we should be just friends
But the signals you give never ends
Then you said you weren't into guys
And then you gave your reasons why
Now you say you will never date
I don't know what is next at this rate

My heart it beats
Beats like a drum
Beats for that someone
Haven't found them yet
Eventually one day I will
And give them all
This love I have inside
My beating heart

I think I like you
But I'm not sure
I know I love you
I am pretty sure

I think you like me
But I'm not sure
I know you love me
I am pretty sure

I think we like each other
But I'm not sure
I know we love each other
I am pretty sure

I have sadness on the inside
But joy on the outside
I like to hide my feelings
But they always show their face
I wonder if I could feel
What it would be like
To be happy even just one time

I cry tears of words
Words with rithym
Words with rhyme
Words that feel
Words that show
Show how I feel

Love is hate
The hate of being alone
The hate of being apart
The hate of seeing them hurt
The hate of seeing them go
The hate of hearing their crys
The hate of hearing their pain
The hate of leaving someone
The hate of leaving forever

I want to help you
But you don't want my help
You just want to live
In all of your pain
I can understand that
But you would never know
Because you'll never talk

I can't help but feel
My opinion doesn't matter
Though they say it does
I never get my way
Even if they ask me
I guess I just don't matter
Or at least what I say

A poet is an artist
Doesn't matter their name
Their story is the same
They went through so much pain
It almost left them lame
So they must explain
All of their pain

I thank the pain
For making me
The man I am
It gives me reason
To write the rhymes
That help so much
To stop this heart
From aching so much

You are a scar on my heart
A wound that'll never heal
Though you might just fade
You will always be here

You are a dream
A dream to me
So unobtainable
Yet so real
I feel you close
But you are not here
You are far away
Inside your mind
With all those thoughts
That make you cry
I wish I could
Go in your mind
And beat those demons
That are inside
So you'll be happy
Then maybe you'll see
That I exist

You are the poem of my heart
The hope that I am living by
I die inside when we're apart
But by your side I can not cry

You are the breath inside my lungs
The air that keeps me alive
You are the food that sustains me
Just you smile can fill me

So matter what you say or do
I will always end up loving you

Why do I have these feelings
That you're the one for me
When I can not have you
You will never love me
I am just not worth your time
Although we are close friends
I am with you through the bad
And with you through the good
I try to make you smile
When you want to cry
I try to talk it through
But you push away
Makes me feel that I
I am the source of your pain
And I that was ever true
I would gladly die for you
So you can live your life
Without the pain I cause
But if it's not the case
I will keep on loveing you
Even if don't in return
Because love can be one-sided
Though it hurts much more
I will go through pain
Because it is you I adore

Every piece of art
Is worth a thousand words
For each and every stroke
Has meaning and took thought
Made with love and care
Priceless beyond compre
You can not place a value
Of thoughts made into art
The feelings that go in
They can not be bought
Words can not express
The thoughts behind the art

These thoughts inside my head
They won't let me go to sleep
Keep my mind on racing
I wish I could make it stop
I try and I try but I am too weak
Funny how my mind is stronger than me
Not funny how it makes me feel
Feeling like I want to die
Feeling like I want to end it all
Making me hate all I am
I am a worthless human
Praying every night I die
Disappointment when I wake up alive
Every night it's getting worse
Don't know how long I can fight
These demons inside my mind

I am feeling lonely
Without you by my side
You make me feel so lovely
When in your arms I hide

I wish I was next to you
Because you are feeling sad
I would tell you what is true
So much joy to be had

I hate you see you cry
It scares me half to death
When you want to die
It takes away my breath

Why do I want to cry
Why do I want to die
Because I want to love
It's all I can think of
Not love of any kind
The love that is blind
Everyone falls away
Each and every day
Just me and my other
We got one another

I hope you know
How much I care
For each and every
One of you
I would gladly die
To save you all
Give my life
So you could live
I would help you
Through anything
Never leave you
For any reason
Because I care
So much about
Every one of you
If you remember
Only just one thing
Remember that

Every time I see it
It makes me smile
Even in my darkness
How can anything
Contain so much
Yet be so little
Just a simple picture
Nothing more
Nothing less
Yet it makes me smile
Puts a wild grin on me
I hope I can know
Know the owner
Of this beautiful piece

Tears rolling down my face
Spiraling out of control
Getting sader and sader
Nothing can bring me up
I will always be down
But nobody even cares
Like I actually matter
Maybe one day I will
today is not that day
In truth that day will not come
Because I could never
Never be loved

I am falling
             falling
                  falling
                  
Falling out of touch
     Falling into my bed
          Falling in my mind
               Falling out of style
                    Falling into your arms
                         Falling in love

Hiding from myself
Because I am a monster
Hiding from defeat
Because I am a failure
Hiding from friends
Because I am a waste
Hiding from you
Because I am in love

Though I walk through life
I feel like its a run
Time is flying past
Like a bullet from a gun
People coming in and out
With the rising of the sun
I am getting so much older
Soon I'll be more than a son
But all I really care about
Is me being your ***

I give you my heart
You give me it broken
I give you my love
You give me the shoulder
I give you my time
You give me the leftovers
I give you my money
You give me a dime
I give you my pride
You give me it defeated
I give you my key
You give me your walls
I gave you everything
You gave nothing at all

Lonelyness is here to stay
It fallows me around all day
It's like a cloud about my head
Making me wish I was dead
I just want to curl up and cry
Because my friends won't let me die
Even with those friends I am alone
Because in the end they all go home
Then once again lonelyness is my company
It doesn't go easy or have any sympathy
Just breaks your heart and will to live
Weeds out the weak like a sive
It follows me around all day
This lonelyness is here to stay

Being near to you
Is all I want to do
To stay by your side
I'd give all my pride
Just to hold you hand
I'd count the grains of sand
To touch your lips with mine
Oh it would be devine
Just to know you care
I'd shave all my hair
To have you feel my love
I'd catch a thousand doves
Just to hear your voice
I'd give up all my choice
To put my head on yours
Oh better than a hundred years
All I want to do
Is be near to you

The truth of love is this
We think we need someone
To fill a hole in our heart
But in reality there is no hole
In fact we are fully whole
We do not need someone else
Just to understand that we
We are whole and perfect
Just the way we are
And when two people understand
That they don't need someone else
Is when they are able to fully enjoy
The gift of being with each other

I'm followed by these thoughts
Of what could have been
If I was a better man
A man who had a plan
I just float through life
Like a ship apon a wave
If only I was better
Maybe we could have been

When I see you face
I fall in love all over
Want to kiss your face
I will never be over

How could I forget you
Your my first and only
I'd be lonely without you
I want to be with you only

We might just be friends
But that can't stop me hoping
That we ended up more than friends
So I will keep on hoping

And I will keep on falling in love again
And again and again and again