No one could ever love
The person who I am
They tell me I should die
And I know that they are right
But I deserve to suffer
To live a life of pain
So I can be punished
For who I have became

I hear her voice inside my head
Playing back the things she's said
I feel her beat inside my heart
She has taken up every part
I see her smile when I close my eyes
I remember and part of me dies
She doesn't love me like I do
That is a fact I know its true
But I still can't get her out of my head
It makes me wish that I was dead

I am sitting here
Only treading water
Not getting any better
But I am building muscle
With every single stroke
So that maybe one day
When life it's me
I can hit life back
And come out on top

Don't mind me I am slowly dying
Don't mind me I am just crying
Don't mind me I am probably lying
Don't mind me I am just longing
Don't mind me I am slowly losing
Don't mind me I am just dying

Nobody would even care
If I slit my throat and died
They would not shed a tear
Maybe they'd even smile
Because I am so awful
That people want me dead
Maybe they are all right

You told me a lie
That you'll always be here
For me when I am down
But in my darkeat moment
You're nowhere to be found

She was
A loveless lover
A heartless heartbreak
A soulless soulmate
A lossless loss
A dreamless dreamer
A wasteless waster
A hopeless hoper