Ignorant of the pain you make
Because you made my heart awake
Yes you caused my heart to ache
But you caused my heart to brake

I am lonely
But never alone
I have this thing
That always will follow
They call it depression
I call it a monster
It comes in the night
Out is the shadows
Don't know when
When it will strike

I have a hope
Her name is love
I know her well
She knows me not
Yet she's my hope
For me to meet love
Is my one ambition
My deepest desire
Yes I have a hope
And her name is love

I do not write for them
I write for myself
Not to pour out to them
But to express myself
Not to bring joy to them
But to cope with myself
My poems are not for them
My poems are for myself

You are my sunshine
Dear you are my hope
You make my world shine
Make me put down the rope

I want you to know
The extent of my love
I'm hit with Cupid's bow
For you are a dove

So innocent an pure
Majestic and beautiful
I can't even be sure
If you're not an angel for sure

I have a confession
I don't mind depression
It helped me make friends
But what if it ends
Would they ever stay
Even for one day
Maybe they would
No reason they should
I am worthless
Couldn't be less
My pain is unbearable
Chains so unwearable
My mind is my prison
By my own decision
Locked myself inside
Don't let me outside
I will destroy you
Though I don't mean to
My issues are contagious
Loving me is outrageous
So do yourself a favor
And make yourself a hater
Throw away the key
Before you can see
The monster that is hidden
I horse never to be ridden
Please just keep me caged
Never to be engaged

First you say yes
Then you say no
Confused i guess
You just don't know

you confuse me too
Giving mixed signals
Im not a number two
I want clear signals

But when you don't
I listen to my heart
Even if you don't
Or don't have the heart

I wished that you loved me
You show me you do
But we are just friends you tell me
Yet we do more than friends do

Everyone thinks that we are
So why not make it true
Decided who we are
I will always be true

The decition is yours
You know my stance
My heart is yours
So what is your stance