I know I pushed you away

It's my thing

I said I was sorry about hundred times

I'll say it again

I'm sorry

But all I know is you shoved me away too

So I guess that means one thing

I'm not worth the anyone's time

Anyone who misses me or loves me is just waisting their precious time

You say you love me

Darling you don't know me

I say I'm fine

I like to hide the fact that I'm dying

Darling I will keep trying

If you can learn

To love a girl with scars

I say I'm fine

You say I lie

You check my wrists

Never my thighs

But darling

Did you ever think

To look into my mind

In the end

There is nothing

In the end

Everything will be gone

Everything you worked so hard for

Will be gone

So what's worth living

Give me a reason

And I may stay

I love none

Because you see they will leave

If only the end of the world would speed up

So we can't waist our time anymore

Darling

Your too young to be this sad

Too young to cut

Too young to cry

Too young to die

Through out your razor

Through out all your blades

At first it may be scary

But beleive me darling

You'll find someone

Who cares

Then they will leave

Because that's what people do

They leave

Then the cuts that once disappeared

Will suddenly reappear

And so will your tears

I cut

Don't judge

I like to board

It's my escape from reality

I have secretly tried sucide three times

Once with a rope

But there was nothing to hang from

Once with some pills

But I just received a bad headache

Once with a razor and my flesh

But I'm still here

Why am I still here

I only have music

I only have boarding

I'm done

The mere look of myself disgusts me

Why am I so skinny

Can't I just be pretty

I eat like a cow

But gain no weight

People think I starve myself

I see the pity in their eyes

I wish it would wash away

I'm hideous being skinny