An innocent scratch to ease the pain.
A skipped meal to ensure you dont gain.
A wasted day laying in bed.
Your left wondering what demons live inside your head.
You hate yourself and the mirror brings tears.
You look into the mirror & all you see is a overweight, bloated, and extremely out of shape girl. You're ugly, your worthless, is all the brain hears. You tell yourself, that no one can fix you.
This is the torture of Mental Health.

~Aishah

She was powerful,
not because she wasn't scared,
but because she went on strongly,
despite the fear.

~Aishah

Suicide is my way of being free,
Crawling out of the hole I created.
Suicide is the only way out of the pain, I feel.
Can't run from it, always a step behind.
The worst is that i'm trapped in my own mind.

My fake smile is getting heavier, can't hold it for much longer,
My eyes can't hold back. Done living in the dark, going through motions. I think its time to give up & be free.

~Aishah

Why can't I escape from the pain?
Every time I close my eyes, I see you.
You haunt me with every chance you have.
I feel your hands around my neck, draining all the light out of me.
And feeling me with darkness. I am forever stained with ink of your dark soul. When you open your mouth, fire pours out scorching my soul, burning holes in my heart. These Scars do not fade. They do not heal with time, but I look for the clearing in the dark sky. When I cry out from pain, you love it, it brings pleasure to your dark soul. I beg and beg, but you continue to torture my sorrowful soul.

~ Aishah

If I could give you Diamonds for every tear you dropped for me.
If I could give you a kiss for every heartache I caused.
If I could give you sapphires for every truth you helped me see.
You are a beautiful  women, who knows how to make anyone day with just a smile.
You'll be a treasure, that would match the sparkles in your kind and loving eyes.
After all, you're the light to my dark world.

~ Aishah

There is this girl that's always in disguise.
Everyone thinks she's the happy girl.
Who smiles, laughs, but really she smiles to hide.
Hide the pain, she fakes a smile and say she's okay, but she barely made it through the day.
She doesn't want to show others, that broken girl.
She want others to see her as this strong, happy person.
If she shows others that she is just a broken girl.
Others will treat her as if she is weak, as if she's fragile.
When all she needs is someone to love her, someone to show her that she isn't just that broken girl that everyone sees, but something more.

A ROOM WITH NO LIGHT.
A HOUSE WITH NO WINDOW.
A SMILE WITH NO HAPPINESS
A HEART WITH NO LOVE.

~ A'ishah

Sometimes all a person need is a "Hello" or a "Your beautiful" because you never know what people go through, that simple "Hello" and "Your beautiful" could make someone day. Maybe no one ever say anything to that person, maybe that person is being neglected or abused so you never know.

You are amazing, outstanding, beautiful, and don't let no one EVER tell you that you aren't worth it or not talented because EVERYONE has a talent & everyone is worth it maybe not you but to others. Don't try to change who you truly are just to please others, if they don't love you for you than they aren't worth your time. Yes, we all are insecure abut something, but thats okay because no ones perfect. You have to make yourself feel loved & beautiful, you have to be confident in yourself feel loved by loving yourself. You can't love others if you don't love yourself. When people look at you, the first thing that they take notice of is how well you carry yourself.

A friend is, someone who will bring you comfort & love. Someone who will have your back no matter how big the situation is. Friends are people who you can always look back to when things get a little rough for you. Someone who always try to brighten your day, or life. Last but not least, someone who listens to all your problems, just sit & peaceful listen in.

~ A'ishah

Whenever you scream, no one hears.
Whenever you cry, no one cares.
Whenever you need a shoulder to lean on, no ones there.

~ A'ishah