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Apr 2017 · 459
3am
Aharon El Apr 2017
3am
I can't sleep

there's a man with a key to my house
I'll let these bullets fly
Seven birds in the sky
Flying South

I can't sleep

'cause you're cuddled up
And you don't a ****
what I see

I can't sleep.

I lay in my bed
With this gun to my head
I can't speak
Up

I'm up.

Alone in the night
With a black burning bright
In my teeth

I. Can't. Sleep.

I'm back in the house
quiet like a mouse
I hear you breathe

I can't sleep - I can't hear myself think
I can feel myself right on the brink
Something most people wouldn't believe
Of me

At your door with my gun
Seven Shots
Could you run?

I don't think
I don't blink
I just sink

This lead through your head
Through the floor and your bed
Through the wall and you fall
After all of it all

Hush, Baby
Now go to sleep

So much for that year long lease
Go to sleep
This **** ain't gonna cut it
Dec 2015 · 1.1k
Awakening
Aharon El Dec 2015
The time has come for the chidren of Israel to awaken
We are living in the written times of the End

Though I may not know where this life will lead me,
I know that Allah has a place for me in Her kingdom

Wake up, children of Israel.
You ought to know where you come from
Nov 2015 · 339
K
Aharon El Nov 2015
K
Few people in the world can make me smile
Even if she hasn't' been around for a while
She can always bring me back to the time

That we had that little fling
It was such a little thing

But it reminds me that I can be loved

Especially when no one shows it

I'll Ask 21 questions
But I only want answers to the important ones
She even wears the same perfume as all those years back...
Nov 2015 · 335
Confidence
Aharon El Nov 2015
I like to drink wine.

This was discovered only a couple of weeks ago.
Wine gives me the drive to do what I know I need to do.

Whether it be for myself, or for those around me.
In the case of tonight, it's for myself.

I've had two and a half glasses of a cheap Cabernet
but the way it makes me feel give me the motivation to see another day

I just want to sleep, wake up, and do what it takes to make my life easier. And if that means waking up at 7am to work a job that people look down on then **** it. I'm in.

Let's go, **** it

This wine has taught me that even though I may feel as if I'm struggling in the current moment; I'm just going to sleep and wake up to see a new day. A day given to me by a God that knows my ins and outs. My ups and downs. My weaknesses and my strong points.

I'm on this planet for a reason unbeknownst to me

Maybe there is no reason.

But I know that I'm going to enjoy it to the fullest.

And keep my eye on The Prize

That Prize being a woman that loves me.
A woman that loves everything about me.


The way I love so many women at this current state in my life.
Vendange is one hell of a drug
Oct 2015 · 1.8k
Untitled
Aharon El Oct 2015
We're all connected
one way or another

But certain people give off a sort of glow
A wavelength

A Vibe

A vibe that either brings us together
                                                        ­                         or drives us apart


Your vibe grows radiant when you speak from your heart
It gives off that Afro-Cuban kind of funk

That smooth bass line that could either put a man to sleep
Or keep him up all night long
I prefer the latter
Sep 2015 · 382
A New Beginning
Aharon El Sep 2015
I've been told that the Devil is a liar.
It's days like today that help me understand that that couldn't be any less than true.

His influences will hit you like a ton of bricks

His ways take hold of you like the Jaws of Life

But once you realize that your fear, anxiety, and discomfort all come from the Snake

It's easy to grasp on to the fact that the Lord is by your side.

All it takes is a little prayer.

"Faith the size of a mustard seed"

*That's what my momma taught me
Jan 2014 · 402
3:30am
Aharon El Jan 2014
The thought of you next to me jolts me awake
I look left and you're not there
My heart skips
*Because it felt so real
It's cold in my room...
Jan 2014 · 397
Let's Go
Aharon El Jan 2014
Let's go to the beach tonight
Yeah, now.
Why not?

Let's walk along the coast and hold hands
Let's giggle on the shore and play in the sand

Let's forget about what's waiting for us at home
Just you and I, in the dark.

*alone
Jan 2014 · 537
9am
Aharon El Jan 2014
9am
He starts the day with black coffee and a cigarette
He's on the ground, but that not where his head is at
He writes a poem in his room, on his bed
A memory foam pillow greets his weary head

He types his heart out with every single letter
Ingests chemicals that give him a full header

Inspiration comes from a black bird that he saw
Circling his house with a mouse in his claw

Vultures do what they have to to survive
Just like any man would to do stay alive

The bird swoops down and takes what's his with no question
It's heart beats faster with a geometric progression

A man must do the same if he wants to get what's his
Especially in the time in which we live

He has to be ruthless and swift
And take his own like a gift

The unsuspecting mouse never really stood a chance
And the man must take his opportunity at first glance
Dec 2013 · 774
Mon français de Noël
Aharon El Dec 2013
Un cadeau, pas nouveau, mais enveloppé dans l'amour,
Compte tenu de me des étoiles au-dessus

Pour avoir et se tenir avec toutes mes forces
C'est vous, je souhaite avoir ce soir
Dec 2013 · 436
Time
Aharon El Dec 2013
There's ever enough
Yet, I've managed to waste so much

I think of how much I could have accomplished
in the recent time that I've taken off

A lot

How much money I could have saved
rather than indulging on what I thought I needed

How many new people I could have met
Despite the fact that I barely talk to the people that I'm closest to

Oh, but it all can change
When someone gives you a deadline

Then, you're on their time

There's nothing I hate more
than being on a deadline.
It makes me want to step on the gas
not shift
and make the tachometer red line

I like to do things at my own pace,
Run my own race
But when I'm on you're time,
That can't be the case

When I'm on your time
My opinion isn't worth a dime
I have to meet your standards
and do it within the time you tell me?

*******.

You don't hold rank over me
I'm going to be what I want to be
But it's a shame that you cant see
The passion deep inside of me

I know that my time could be up at any moment.
And that Time waits for no one.
But give me a chance to sit down and have a drink.
Maybe I'll open up and let you in on what I think.

In the end this is just a rant
It's not like I wouldn't say this aloud if I could.
But I can't.
It hurts sometimes
Nov 2013 · 505
so unoriginal
Aharon El Nov 2013
It started with a whisper,
And that was when I kissed her
And then she made my lips hurt

I know I didn't write it
But the words couldn't be any more true

It was almost like time stopped
When our lips locked
Our clothes stayed on
But the bed rocked

I kissed your lips and your neck,
You took a deep breath,
I put my hand on your side,
And then you put me in check

When I look into your eyes
I see the planets align
When I look on to the future
It's only you on my mind

I want to be with you forever
In this lifelong endeavor
I look into my heart
But know this forever is never

It hurts me to see
That we will probably never be
But I'll try strive as hard as I can
To be your one and only man

As these words flow from my fingertips
I pray that someone will give a ****
I know that none of this madness
Can make up for my internal sadness

When it comes down to it
I'm just another hopeless romantic
All of that from Neon Trees on the radio...
Nov 2013 · 538
12:30pm
Aharon El Nov 2013
Overcast sky
Cool, fall air
Few birds chirp
And the wind blows

A fish jumped from the water
just now
It created a ripple in the water
Not big, but effecting the lake, nonetheless

It's peaceful out here for a change

Another fish jumped


And another


It's rather quiet
other than some machine I hear in the distance
It's funny how something I can't see
Can interrupt my relaxation

A man in a boat just rode past in and out of my view
Leaving a very light wake in the water

I drag my cigar

The smoke floats around my head
Just to be pulled away by an invisible force

Gnats fly around me
And the man circled back
Midday observations
Nov 2013 · 487
you leave me...
Aharon El Nov 2013
i want to be the center of your attention.
i try to keep my composure when i'm around you
i yearn to be by your side
i ache to be the one that you call "mine"

every time i see your smile

my heart stops
even if it's only for a second
my muscles contract
my eyes widen
and the air escapes my lungs

you leave me

well

**you know
Nov 2013 · 993
Headstrong
Aharon El Nov 2013
Why can't you see it?
It's right there in front of you!
All you have to do is accept it

But you're so stubborn
You refuse to open your eyes.

It's sad, really
All of the happiness and relaxation you could imagine
Is sitting right there

But you're so **** stubborn
You would rather soak in that sadness that is your current situation

You can change everything around you
Just by saying that you want to change
I mean, you are the boss of you, right?

But you're so ******' stubborn
You'd rather stick with what's easy instead of putting in a liiittle work

You are
so
****


             *stubborn
Nov 2013 · 652
Past Times
Aharon El Nov 2013
I used to get high every day.
I thought that it would take the pain away.
I used to think that I could make it end
So I would break the leaves from those stems.
I would light the L and take a hit,
And think to myself, "****, this is some good ****."

As my body was overcome by the effects of the plant,
My mind would wonder back to the days of when we first met
I was young and dumb,
****, just the thought of you would make me numb.

I established relationships with the people around you to see if I could get close to you
And it worked
You grew on me
And I on you

Sometimes you were hot,
And other times you we're cold
Sometimes you could be purple like royalty,
And other times you could be green with envy.
Now and again you would overwhelm my body
And at the same time, you'd stab at my soul

I got to a point to where I wanted to move further
But you were reluctant to do so.
So you ended it
I was devastated

One would think that this would be something easy to cope with
Nah, not at all

When I saw you with the next one, my heart would drop
I saw you moving fast with him
I knew it wouldn't last, but I kept my mouth shut
He ended it with you but moved on to "better things"

Time passed and now he's turnin' tricks to get his fix
You changed him
The same way you changed me, only I never moved on with you
So I wasn't caught with cuts and track marks

As I come back to reality,
I think of what you meant to me
Everything
You were my first
Hell, I still think about you
years later

I wonder what it would be like if I had stayed with you
Honestly, I know I'm better off without you
But even the little encounters that we have with each other now
Make me feel some type of way
I wonder if we could make another day

— The End —