I used to get high every day.
I thought that it would take the pain away.
I used to think that I could make it end
So I would break the leaves from those stems.
I would light the L and take a hit,
And think to myself, "****, this is some good ****."
As my body was overcome by the effects of the plant,
My mind would wonder back to the days of when we first met
I was young and dumb,
****, just the thought of you would make me numb.
I established relationships with the people around you to see if I could get close to you
And it worked
You grew on me
And I on you
Sometimes you were hot,
And other times you we're cold
Sometimes you could be purple like royalty,
And other times you could be green with envy.
Now and again you would overwhelm my body
And at the same time, you'd stab at my soul
I got to a point to where I wanted to move further
But you were reluctant to do so.
So you ended it
I was devastated
One would think that this would be something easy to cope with
Nah, not at all
When I saw you with the next one, my heart would drop
I saw you moving fast with him
I knew it wouldn't last, but I kept my mouth shut
He ended it with you but moved on to "better things"
Time passed and now he's turnin' tricks to get his fix
You changed him
The same way you changed me, only I never moved on with you
So I wasn't caught with cuts and track marks
As I come back to reality,
I think of what you meant to me
Everything
You were my first
Hell, I still think about you
years later
I wonder what it would be like if I had stayed with you
Honestly, I know I'm better off without you
But even the little encounters that we have with each other now
Make me feel some type of way
I wonder if we could make another day