All I do is walk around in circles
go to the same place each night
not knowing where I should be heading
because it's too bright
I want to go near the church
but my feet won't let me
I turn to the bench and sit there to ponder
write about how my day was so ******
get bitten  by mosquitoes
who love me
and who is to blame for this pathetic situation
only one person and that is
me.

I replace sadness with anger
but that doesn't always work
because
the tears won't stop
and the heart
keeps on hurting
from this struggle
of wanting and not wanting.

I left the door open
walk in if you'd like
but don't keep me waiting
because it's chilly at night
the window is broken
so don't even try
just choose
stay or go
there is no other way