Believe that a lost connection breaks your heart more than once
What I know now makes no sense
what is new?
Figuring out your home has left you behind
The life you wish you could run back to and change it all
falls from every tree dead around you as you mourn all day anyway

The world you knew is changing all the time.  No purpose but to find a purpose

The devil of distress here
awakened by your life
Grim pleasure
twisting your mind
The hell hollow breath you breathe
into me
I become as dead as my vice

A callous temper flaring about
new Las Vegas diamonds
to my eyes
they are fixed, but just for me!

where your indirection led me to go
I sought hope in the structure of the cage
and the diamonds were real
but it matters not

After all of that 'being lost'
something was 'found' in what did not fit in
and the only thing I ever loved about myself was never
really real at all

Hello poetry I....don't always feel
Like I
Can relate
To anything in any form of creative
'But they say'
Expression is always the way
So I cut myself open
To feel again
Like someone or something that matters
Like money or fame  
I cut my heart wide open to stain
To see myself in my bloodiest
Way again
Like rose petals with stories of
Little white smiles of
People faking their fifteen and pay
While I dream
Some day I could make it over that cuckoo's nest
And finally be me again

I've no living sentimental cues
beyond jewels are finer areas
higher and just
and ive just become
another  
one of you

Ice memories burn like hell
and hell is frozen over
my mind with inspiration is so hard to find
always
when you're constantly falling inline

Lets drive tonight
to the moon

Eyes are ******
   They see dreams that are gone
And I'm forgetting what is in between
The beginning of the end of my life and the end

The stars never hurt for who you never got to be
and the chains never fail or so you always believed.  

A night could last forever and tomorrow only be a dream
I died over and over again
just to break the seams of this straightjacket
just to be
if only for a moment
happy, and free

My cemetary
      is the burial of thieves
          My heroes who never sleep
   As the arrows FLY across their empty graves
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