This is really weird…

What happened to me?

Everything disappeared…

Is this how it’s supposed to be?

Something’s drawing near…

But I won’t be able to see

It can sense my fear…

Now the beasts have been let free

Monsters

Ruthless creatures

Heartless

Missing features

Seeking a heart

It will start

To eat everything that holds fear,

To eat everything that I hold dear

They’re coming

I should start running

But the darkness surrounds me

Holds me

Chokes me

Blinds me

I know that it’s coming

My saviors in light, dark and twilight

But now it’s dawning

I pray I can make it through the night

I pray I won’t give up the fight

LIKE a huge Python, winding round and round  
The rugged trunk, indented deep with scars,  
Up to its very summit near the stars,  
A creeper climbs, in whose embraces bound  
No other tree could live. But gallantly        
The giant wears the scarf, and flowers are hung  
In crimson clusters all the boughs among,  
Whereon all day are gathered bird and bee;  
And oft at nights the garden overflows  
With one sweet song that seems to have no close,          
Sung darkling from our tree, while men repose.  

When first my casement is wide open thrown  
At dawn, my eyes delighted on it rest;  
Sometimes, and most in winter,—on its crest  
A gray baboon sits statue-like alone        
Watching the sunrise; while on lower boughs  
His puny offspring leap about and play;  
And far and near kokilas hail the day;  
And to their pastures wend our sleepy cows;  
And in the shadow, on the broad tank cast          
By that **** tree, so beautiful and vast,  
The water-lilies spring, like snow enmassed.  

But not because of its magnificence  
Dear is the Casuarina to my soul:  
Beneath it we have played; though years may roll,        
O sweet companions, loved with love intense,  
For your sakes, shall the tree be ever dear.  
Blent with your images, it shall arise  
In memory, till the hot tears blind mine eyes!  
What is that dirge-like murmur that I hear        
Like the sea breaking on a shingle-beach?  
It is the tree’s lament, an eerie speech,  
That haply to the unknown land may reach.  

Unknown, yet well-known to the eye of faith!  
Ah, I have heard that wail far, far away        
In distant lands, by many a sheltered bay,  
When slumbered in his cave the water-wraith  
And the waves gently kissed the classic shore  
Of France or Italy, beneath the moon,  
When earth lay trancèd in a dreamless swoon:      
And every time the music rose,—before  
Mine inner vision rose a form sublime,  
Thy form, O Tree, as in my happy prime  
I saw thee, in my own loved native clime.  

Therefore I fain would consecrate a lay        
Unto thy honor, Tree, beloved of those  
Who now in blessed sleep for aye repose,—  
Dearer than life to me, alas, were they!  
Mayst thou be numbered when my days are done  
With deathless trees—like those in Borrowdale,        
Under whose awful branches lingered pale  
“Fear, trembling Hope, and Death, the skeleton,  
And Time the shadow;” and though weak the verse  
That would thy beauty fain, oh, fain rehearse,  
May Love defend thee from Oblivion’s curse.

And then the day came,
when the risk
to remain tight
in a bud
was more painful
than the risk
it took
to Blossom.

You were the target I hit with
              the dart,
I didn't like you, I never did,

       I loved you from the start,

The first time it was so hard to move on,
clenching my fists,
I wanted you back,
with me, not without me,
but together we were completely f
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over the years the pieces began to not fit,
I pushed them together,
bit by bit,
but you didn't try hard ENOUGH for us,
because deep down you wanted us to be through,
to take time for yourself, to find out who you really were,
but we couldn't end it as just friends,
and when you found what you were looking for,
I took you back, again and again,
But no matter how hard we try, we keep losing us,
and once again
                   We've fallen
                                       down
                                                   We've sunken
                                                      so low,
we can't get back up,
beacuse a piece of ourselves is missing when we aren't together,
so we grab on to one  another,
                 for strength,
pulling ourselves up,
you make me happy again, but it's a messy cycle,
relationships without a friendship first,
is a sinking ship which is the worst,
it doesn't work because the trust isn't there, why can't you show me in the way that i'd like, that you really do care?
It's a game we play, from you to me,
staring into your eyes,
my anger dissapears as you begin
                                           to smile,
one false aquistion, and lack of communication,
we're off the page again, not knowing what each other said,
pushing me backwards, I fall off the cliff,
you finally shut the door and our lives together is no more,
you,
are all I see,
memories of us,
flashing before me,
I see the bottom coming near,
you wouldn't believe how much love was hidden by fear,
It's clear to me now,
you're my one and only,
IF ONLY,
we could have each other back,
communication is the key to unlock the door,
give it a chance and you will see,
it takes both of us, selfless, to be,
I guess it's too late,
my lack of trust, doubts, and fears,
and your lack of showing you care
this seems like a mistake, but you can't ruin fate,
we can't be together forever
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                                                        ever,­
my life is coming to an end,
I hit the ground and scream,
waking up, I realize, it was just a dream,
          I grab on to you,
to never let go, admit my mistakes, and prove I have room to grow,
I don't want it to end, I'm done playing pretend,
I'm sorry,
it's what I've been needing to say,
today is a new day,
I don't want anyone else,
you do complete me in so many ways,
yes we have different interests with different lives,
different hopes and different dreams,
but what it's really about is being on the same team,
To be in life together, to support one another,
knowing what each others likes are,
the kinds of thoughts and gestures that go so far,
doing things because it would mean the world to you,
is what we should both strive to do.

I don't know where we go from here,
too many ups and downs to remember what's real,
But I do remember I was once completely in love, I want to be that girl again,
swept off her feet, with a simple hello,
let's create new thoughts,
opened book, page so blank and bare,
I know you really do care,
but i can't do it on my own,
we both need to GIVE to have a relationship again,
even if it is just a friendship with nothing more, without you in my life my heart stays sore, I want to be there for you through the ups and the downs, even as just friends I'll support you through the smile and frowns,
because i know what we had was special and it will always be,
the thought in my mind of one day you and me,
if it doesn't work out I will understand, but at least you'll be there as a friend to hold my hand,
I've loved you from the start,
it's your turn to choose,
look in your hand,
you have the dart.