Enough

Its been quite the time since Ive felt
The feeling of heavens grace,

Quite the time for some memories
I can never erase

I still remember looking madly at you like
An angel in the night

I still remember the feeling of calmness
Whenever I see you in sight

It has been a long rush of emotions
Catching up to me

A long thrill on how i could ever again
Regain my apathy

Yes, tis true that I’ve regained some fragments
Of myself

Ironic, it feels like an old forgotten book taken
From a shelf

But i digress, with words and symbolisms in the like

I always forget to bring a piece of reality in this
Long and painful hike.

Dont get me wrong, the challenge was
Hard and real

Sometimes a little bit too much of a life that is
Surreal

Every song Ive heard was right about one thing

Its that letting go hurts more in this reality than the Worlds deadliest sting

By the way it wasnt all that bad and savage

Some things happened, like how i mustered up
My courage

Aye its true, for months I’ve been running on fumes

Everything I had on you , love, time, happiness, and emotions, everything caught up to me but eventually, the darkness consumes.

Every moment I thought I had a chance at reaching you is but a lie faced by my own delusions

How did I ever believe that I could walk two steps ahead in holding you when Im always two steps behind with my illusions

Each time I try to get closer , the more you back away

Then I wonder is it me, am I just a toy for someone’s childs-play?

Then again maybe I am, then again maybe I am a lone wolf, gazing towards the moonlight in solitude

All I know Is that time has peeled of the mane of my fortitude

All I am is a beast
A pitiful dog at the very least

You’re not to blame
You dont need to feel shame

Nor pity and despair
Even sadness just be fair

Its just that....

Ive had enough
I can no longer be tough
Im done, I can no longer bluff
The tide’s too rough

No matter how much i climb your mountain of grace
Ive accepted the fall that i can never keep up the pace

My feelings aint gone but its dying to be dead
Time to accept that all this is a trick in my head
Well then, its done, no more words need be said

Stay a gem, you’ve earned that title after all your pressure.
Stay forgetting me, a coal, you can never treasure
I hope someone could fill the hole in your leisure
A happiness that no one can ever measure

I hope you find and stay with
Someone who could take you to an adventure

I hope he is
Someone who you can call forever.

-Mas

Darkness sets in, the world becomes silent.
Eyes become heavy, mind goes blank,
Voices speak out, scenes settle. Iridescence fills the void.

A face appears, the light is faint and a character comes approaching.
She wields her hair like a crown for gods to seek, her smile is dangerous as it is beautiful.

Her hands are soft as clouds, and her voice is as beautiful as the strings of heaven.
Suddenly she notices a strange boy who is unfortunately me. Her wings of beauty are magnificent to see,

I tried to speak but my heart got the better of me, couldn't think straight with that glance, my mind was ******* to a tree.

I hate myself when nonsense happens, everything I say wrecks everything.

She laughed at my stupidity but admired me for being funny. Out of the blue she put her arms around me, I could feel her heart was true.

I spoke the words of a lover and told her I miss her, she replied me with sweetness and told me she knew right from the start by the tone of my voice that I Iove her.

As my dream started to bend, I put my arms around her hoping this moment would never end.

Seconds feels like hours, minutes feels like days, days feels like months, months feels like years.

I didn't care, we held each other in the silence as the void passed away, replacing it with her radiance.

I woke up realizing it was nothing but a dream, I felt empty once again.

Lost to the world was I, to a place where eyes do not meet
a place where hearts are encased in stone.

I walk among shadows and among darkness
not a hint of music anywhere nor a scent of magnificence

My hands tremble and shake from time to time
Silence falls upon me everyday
the light slowly fading from my eyes
sense of touch seems to depart my skin.

Such sadness and misery
corruption and greed envelops me
anger and hatred begins to fill my soul
My mind broken and shattered

I shout one last plead
asking for hope that would never reach.
Fly did my humanity
to it I said goodbye

There in that corner I sat
waiting for something I am
I shut my eyes and clenched my fists
I fall to sleep for death to take.

Among many she has the capacity to speak her mind, when time dictated that love no longer exists in this cruel world, she still loves me and found love for herself all the same.

I see endless passion and care on what many see on her as rage and distress, her words seems to sting more than the hottest deserts or the coldest tundras, but beneath those words is a slice of wisdom, experience but most importantly reality.

I feel the tender grips of fear in her every embrace, each pounding beat of hear hearts speaks a message that says, never lose yourself.

Among many she is a one of a kind, many see her as a supernova of emotions, a volcano ready to blow, she may be those things to other people

But to me she is the star that guides me in my blackest night
She is the wonder many may not notice but is there ever so present among the background.

To me she will always be that angel that praises no hypocrisy, instead of wearing white ***** wings and horned halos, she wears the color black cleanly, displaying an aura of truth.

Among many she may be of no importance, but to this broken jigsaw puzzle she will always be one that completes a part of me.

And so I leave this place of old,
Nothing makes me stay no memory i can hold.

No bars to hold me in a lonely shack,
No reason to hesitate and ever look back.

No hand to hold to sway the makings of my mind,
No love to return, only emptiness i can find.

But i leave with one last glance looking at the sun,
Thinking of all the moments i had fun.

I listen to one last song to ease my sorrow,
I listen hard and think of things that might come to follow.

And so i greet the doors of my departure,
Onward to the halls of an uncertain future.

I loved a girl but she didn't love me back,
I know for a fact that it was time that I lack.

The songs i sang in honor of her name,
Is like music playing to a deaf all the same.

She was broken and shattered deep within her core,
Im just sad I wasn't able to make little to more.

For a time i thought so too that i was sure,
But then I'm sure I'm not the man to give her her cure.

and while i dream of us being together,
It stays a dream and a dream it shall be forever.