The heart screams
yet not, she utters
merely a sign, giving
as if emotion kind
of certain rubbing
was against
her arteries, panic
strikes
her yet not. my feet
stumble upon
the snare of boredom
of loneliness.
It’s like a heavy
rain
that does not stop
for days
at a time.
my persevering
shield is coat. Forgotten
memory
of mine you burn
in fire
which it flames
are higher
then the Babel Tower.
It glows
and it glows, forever
and forever.
Element
that wouldn’t quench
greatest
of oceans.
Selfish attention
to avoid
it you gather
to desires and needs
your’s only.
The ruler
of this polluted
world, hunger
for my soul, he shall
not get
his wish,
I will fall
not into
despair.
The deepest
of graves, call
her by name,
they.

My memory is healthy and well
The lively voice ring my ears like bell
The picture flashes my dreadful eyes
Paradoxical beyond the mind
Foolishness, impracticality

Body cannot separate itself
If you want, if you want not, listen
If we are in Christ we are oneness
It has to be drastic, immediate
In the moment that very, now, now!

Love me, do you? No dead thy love is
But agape is open at all times
She will greet you, she will embrace you
I exhort you, I please not, but come

The many questions
Steam from the mind
of mine like vapor
out of boiling ***.
Dead you are,
answer to thy misery
i possess. In stroke
each commitment
yours resides.

Boredom and laziness, never
bothered to bother
you. Time is profound
mercy showing
you. In quiet silence
she seats waiting,
observing you paint.

Repayment of talents
you gather
is strictly expected.
Is assurance in your head
proud? Has the meaning
not found you yet?

Suicide is not tempting
you to lean
on her breast
anymore. How come
your art is floating
in nonsense? Look, see!?
Your own numbers
are tirelessly exhausted
by squeezed being
one by the other.

They shout
to stop painting
them.
Did your first
love plunged a sword
into innermost being
of thy heart?
The thought of God
is abandoning you wholly.

Is the rebellion
a cause
of succumbing
to a number
of four walls
stricken
by the splash
of blood paint color?

The palace we build, was it in vain?
Why do you hide from these glass doors?
I speak not to offend always, but here
I might offend, dear your words change like weather
The judge will judge accordingly

You rejected him out of a court room
The knowledge of love left your evil heart
Pleasure has overtaken your only soul
The medicine I gave was not taken by you
Sweetness you are tasting is momentary

Lost in indulgence of your passion
Calamity will come like uninvited guest
The opportunity vanished hastily
Absence of purpose creates a room for sin
And friend ending never death is the result

As if mud was a playground
Most would happily play
But no, an adult is there…
Laughing and having pleasure
Wanting to get out, sadly
Hypocrisy will not let her

She tied her hands and feet
Her idol won’t save her soul
Lips and heart found an agreement
Life of a deep, deep denial
Deeper than those of the dead
Living in a bubble of lies

Where falsehood won over truth
Lost time is worst than burned bill
She says, she knows all, certain no
The lungs will collapse in no time
The darkness of it like a tar
The awfulness od thy sin..

Can it be bad, or like prison?
short lived or long lived
now its to late, keys were thrown
love became frosty

It became like a broken car
desire has no tire
husbands flattery no battery
where is thy love only I see force

out of no where comes proud divorce
affection and protection left
argument over a betrayal
a hanging shattered hand nail

faithful trust weeping on the grass
delicate wife cast on the side
like a withered flower she lays
her favorite melody plays

They plot, they spread, the inflict
even cannibal would fear them
call themselves honorable and just
they even adopted evil

their hearts are far from right
their eyes see not light, neither night
they boast and toast, drink and get drunk
bite and fight, spit and spark

their joy is like a bird flying short
bragging in their wealth is a cry for help
show mercy, show grace but not in haste
thy strength is strong it will not fold

lies, deceit overflow from thy lips
anyone in front of it will drown
unless a friend will come to rescue
or death will petrify itself

The sound of her is innocent
Truly, truth triumph today, tomorrow
She is like a pear picked up in season
Rescuing robe is in her steadfast hands
Their twisted whim is crossing the borders

I will stand, stop and stump if needed
Proclaiming, never despairing
Existence of fear forgetting forever
Marching forward, toward
In grip of mine, sharp sword there is

A wild bee, let us be
Spreading the nectar of truth
Because a jar of honey awaits us
The taste of it is life eternal
Evil is destined to perish

Amen.

Spontaneous surprise strikes as if strangeness or selfishness
Memories melancholic mind my smear
She seats, smile of her opens brought and wide, through her eyes comes convicting confidence

Womanly love have I don’t, need not, secretly want

Husbands crown is his noble wife, but his shame is a bad wife
Like Corinth not, place of ladies of young who for marriage look

Abandonment of the presence, crossing rivers many, the borders dozens, green forests, even the heightens in height and largest in width
Mountains cross I will

Even say I the continents

Misery, misery, misery..
Here you are
To my doorstep you came
Invite I sent not, did I?
Indulging in anger like a narcotic I will not
Piers of mine vanished like Lot’s wife

But you, ohh
Dear misery
You did not, forget me not

Let gladness and joy fill my soul
Least you could do, you did not do
You cause an extensions of my love for the evil act of man

Manipulated by Satan himself, he knows not
Intentional infliction of harm was served

Well
misery left me
But guilt will keep you in her torments
Day and night
Night and day

Forever I hope not