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Apr 2021 · 57
The Waiting Room
Samora Apr 2021
White hair,
Blank face,
Woke up in a white room with light space,
Waking up from a lost memory that I couldn’t remember,
The last thing that popped through my brain was a dark room in a dark place,
Which I thought was a vision but turns out that was my last life in a different setting,
Don’t remember after point blank,
Now I stare down at a round globe that looks pretty,
But should I stay here or go down there and start my new life journey,
White gown was what I was wearing,
I see a lovely couple in the waiting room wishing to have a baby,
But she wanted a girl and ended up with two boys, they seem a bit rowdy,
Waiting here is kinda tiring,
As I stared back down knowing I must make a decision,
But also knowing the consequences,
That if I start up my journey there,
It’ll all end up in tragedy and then I’ll have to make myself whole again,
By finding love again,
By finding peace again,
By finding me again,
That’s a risk that I’m willing to take,
Even though it might crush me inside out to be able to breathe again,
I’ll still progress the process within me,
To set free the real me and let people see what I wanna be down there in the greenery than being stuck up here and looking down at the scenery,
Now that’s a challenge that I’m willing to make possible,
Even though the world that I look at seems damaging,
War outbreaks,
Religious and race,
Stress building,
Suicidal and grace,
Liars and cheaters,
Loyalty and love,
Everywhere I’ve looked brought me more closer to God,
I wonder what kind of personality I’ll have,
What kind of traits I’ll discover,
What type of friends I’ll make or maybe become a loner,
Either way, it’s how I shape me or where my journey leads,
The life lessons that teaches me might crumble me and have me waiting patiently,
But realize that love breaks down every negativity that streams through each and everyone’s star dusted bodies,
I think I’ve made up my mind,
Cause there was a sudden bright flash that I had to bask in,
After that I blinked twice looking up to see the most beautiful of brown eyes and smile all covered in sweat,
And a name given to me while the nice women held me snuggled close for there was little room for stretching,
And then I fall back to sleep knowing that this part of my life was already beginning.
Apr 2021 · 51
Valued
Samora Apr 2021
I don’t want to be liked,
I want to be cherished and loved,
I want to be valued with someone to hold,
To build up a family and not settle for less,
Saying how I’m different from the rest won’t keep me in place,
Instead I’ll be walking with stride and built up by pride and watch as your karma revise,
I don’t want to be liked,
I’d rather be valued.
I’ve met guys that have liked me but never have I ever once asked if they valued me. They say that I’m different from girls that they’ve dated but how does that compare me if they always decide to leave me and be with someone that they value the most over me. Being liked and being valued are two different meanings and I’d rather be valued than liked
Apr 2021 · 58
Touched
Samora Apr 2021
You make my body flush with emotions,
Running into a very deep sleep I’m drowning into,
All of the trickles that I feel across my face,
Driving me insane with love stains streaming in my vanes.
You make me feel curiously , mysteriously, and loving,
But make me want to take a step back cause right now my heart feels heavy,
Never felt this way with nobody,
So why must it be you, out of everybody.

I don’t feel lustful when I’m in your presence,
Looking into your eyes, I can see your soul,
I can see your struggles,
your pain,
your worries,
I can see my own reflection but told in two different stories.

You make me feel crazy and yet I cannot show it,
Like I’m being tangled with words leaving my thoughts open,
But keeping my mouth shut to keep all the letters from escaping,
Deep down I can see me wanting to escape,
Let loose and crave you but softly,
No matter how badly I want you,
I’ll savor you,
Cause I will never want to tame you.

As your arms wrap around me as I cradle your neck gently,
As you kiss me softly,
Waiting til I kiss you back with intense passion coursing throughout my body,
I wake up with a startle with a kiss on my left cheek,
Exiting my dream and back to reality,
I find a cute face looking down at me,
And all I can say is,
“good morning my baby”

But then that’s when it shattered,
All the leftover pieces,
That’s when it broke all of the deepest emotions,
All of the memories that clinged to me now closed off,
Nothings left but a pile of dust,
All that we’ve shared, I knew they would be lost,
Cause nothing ever lasts when it’s between me and trust.
Apr 2021 · 59
Can’t
Samora Apr 2021
Sleeping,
Falling,
Darkness,
Surrounding,
Dirtying,
My body,
Images,
Appalling,
Loneliness surrounds me,
I’m sleepless,
Depriving,
Revolting,
Abandon,
Emotions,
But slowly,
I’m restless,
I’m sorry,
I keep on breaking,
Cracking it open,
Shattered to pieces,
When I know I can’t proceed,
From these emotions I’m feeling,
Can’t be real from this person,
Who I thought was so loving,
And caring,
But seemed to be playing,
Again and again that they play is divulging,
Why must they keep and mess with my heart,
When I now should know better than to guard this with taste,
And that’s when I wake,
With an emotionless face,
But knowing all these memories that stays with me,
I know that I’ll never ever forget about your personality
Apr 2021 · 93
Crazy Train
Samora Apr 2021
Every dying minute that I have,
Every dying minute that I find,
Every bleeding day that I take listening to your heart,
Every single day,
Why am I afraid,
Why am I afraid,
I can't believe I said that,
Can't believe I did that,
Said that I was talking,
Never gave a name,
Like a stranger, was in my thoughts,
Clinging to me like a narrow arrow,
That leads me to the next guessing game,
Like, what I do?
It's always the same,
That, dying pain, that I seem to recognize,
every time I make a mistake,
When all I could have said that,
you were my Bae.

Your, kindness follows every walking hour,
Every second that I think it's over,
Just because I made 1 tiny error,
Now ignoring with more silent terrors,
I deserve it, I deserve it all,
You, gave me love and I just let it fall,
And now my path is blocked by a narrow wall,
Blocked away from your inner thoughts,
That I can't get through, and instead I'm lost,
Lost inside my own crazy mind,
That I can't control,
When my hearts on fire,
My heart keeps pounding,
My words are drowning every single reader,
That wants to come near,
To read their letters out of fear.

It's like my tongue is twisted,
And I can't sleep through this knowing somethings missing from your silent treatment,
All I hear is, should I say it,
Should I say it, no,
It's too early to express my feelings, yes,
Maybe I'll just wait it out,
Let him tell me first, so I don't feel 'barrased or,
Should I say it now,
Since I'm crazy inside,
Let the waves take me for another ride,
Let this crazy out,
Let this crazy loose,
Let this crazy take over my mind
and let it drown me out,
Like a Crazy Train buried deeper inside,
Waiting for someone to unbreak these chains
restraining me on every side,
But that's on me, that on me,
Every single day of every week,
That's my train when I'm deep inside my feelings,
Keeping every word sacred from your hearts tongue's follow,
I'd rather keep it caged deep down,
Letting no one in and keep faking smiles.

Can't stop writing all these heavy poems, can't stop sharing all my happy feelings, cannot stop waiting for discretion, my thoughts on fire like some burning metals, dripping down my face like a melting figure, that I cannot bring myself to finally call this, like a tortured fire, like a blazing arrow, shot straight through a farrow, through a narrowed pathway,
Through this Crazy Train that I cannot follow.
Apr 2021 · 441
Why is it Always You
Samora Apr 2021
That I keep getting these deja vus,
It always seems like I’ve seen you before
But when I look back,
you were never there.
Mar 2021 · 62
Positivity
Samora Mar 2021
I’m starting to see clear that love is literally everywhere. The hate is gone it’s like I can feel whole again. More evolved than I was before ahead of time. Mobilized to step my feet out of a dark place and step down onto the actual ground. That my thought process of thinking is no longer under distress. More mindful of what I think first before I decide to speak.

I’m starting to see clear that love is literally everywhere but not all the time cause sometimes your feet can get stuck again.
You may seem like you’re out of the dark but it’ll just pull you back in.
Consume you with negative thoughts that you have to fight off. Remembering that nothing can touch you the more they led on. Cause you can only make yourself happy and that they’re also stuck like you. Trying to get out from the grip that’s holding them astray. That’s they’re struggle. Chained up and stumbled. Glued down or falling fast that’s part of their journey. And they’ll all make it through no matter how bad they’ve struggled.
Mar 2021 · 83
I’d Rather
Samora Mar 2021
Hard to get, I don’t like to act it.
Put on a fake mask then hide my emotions.
I don’t like to play so I act accordingly.
Through this tough life that you put me through, I don’t want it.
Mar 2021 · 64
Loyal
Samora Mar 2021
I’d rather have space than to be lonely.
To feel self absorbed by the world around me.
To face all my fears than to be picky.
Sneaking around ain’t my forte, I’d rather have loyalty.
Mar 2021 · 69
Self Love
Samora Mar 2021
I’d rather have space than to be lonely.
To feel self absorbed by the world around me.
To face all my fears than to be picky.
Sneaking around ain’t my forte, I’d rather have loyalty.
Mar 2021 · 204
Pulling Strings
Samora Mar 2021
Memories they cling on my deepest of strings.
Sometimes they break but other times they sting.
Next to the heart not that far apart that they’ll be lost with the thought of me falling hard.
Mar 2021 · 55
Thoughts
Samora Mar 2021
Stay still and be quiet.
Beautifully worded written down in my mind.
Roller coasting down every desire that I find.
And then suddenly, a vision meeting every hit and miss,
Rebounded like a boomerang, cross fitted this bliss.
Stumbling down and soon I shall rest.
My head wants to wonder and then later think less.
Rather than overthink than progress.
I’d rather mishap my habits then to crumble in my own mess.
I’d rather stay positive and full of hope than to be tied down and hanged upside down by a rope.
That’s when I’ll know that I’ll have no self-control.
When my thoughts takes over that’s led by strings.
That’s crushing every wind pipe down my streams.
How I breathe. How I speak. How I make or break.
But that’s just how life goes right.
Making a few minor mistakes.
As I pace back and forth inside my brain.
Riding around on the crazy train.
I think and I stop on what I’ll do next.
Guess I’ll just wait and see and keep living my dreams but in reality. Not a fantasy.
Mar 2021 · 73
Give it a name
Samora Mar 2021
Inner voice, *****.
Loves the attention, within.
Crime and addiction, pleasant.
Negative emotions, keeps in.

Hearing voices, repeating.
Opposite opposes, threatens.
Quietly shouting, crying.
Is my inner voice, *****.

I hear her when I’m dreaming.
Nightmares clinging, sweating.
Dreaming heavy, breathing.
I can’t believing I’m falling,
Heavenly feeling attached to the ceiling,
Withering down and then into the ocean,
Drowning me down even more than I’m used to,
Exhilarating, composing this blessing I’m treading.
All because of my inner voice, *****.

I gave it a name, *****.
Cause she is but me, a demon.  
I can’t escape her cries,
So why not give me emotions.
Give me pain and sorrows.
Give me what your negative thoughts is saying deep inside.
Share with me your worries that you designed to keep and hide.
So I can understand better and to tame your fever.
That you’re not alone in this black and white world.
Cause I can see through, cause I am you.
Beautiful.
Mar 2021 · 230
Dreaming
Samora Mar 2021
Free ride
Fried to the core inside
Tried
To make me more afraid
Hide
Frightened of what might come out
Doubt
Mortified
To make me feel certified
In and out my life
I’m alright
And fine
Okay
K
I’m not
And yet keep telling
Repeating
How am I doing?
Answers
That I cannot retype
Words
I can’t rejoice
The noise (wake up)
That sounds so familiar
Memories
Clogging
Jamming (wake up)
Pounding
Banging
Slamming
What’s happening?
Brain was melting (wake)
Breaking
Freak train back on track (up)
Breathing
Steadily back and fourth
Steadily back and fourth
Rocking
Eyes slowly open
I peak
I blink
At last
It’s finally morning.
Mar 2021 · 62
Spirit & Body
Samora Mar 2021
I’m a spirit in a body,
I hold my hands out and there it is,
Lit like a flame,
As it slowly maintains  
Not burning nor hurting,
just sitting and floating,
Just waiting patiently for my soul to stop glowing.
But it won’t.
Not even when time stops.
It’ll keep on going.
Cause no matter if the body’s gone,
The spirit will still keep moving.
Mar 2021 · 77
Between You and Us
Samora Mar 2021
Trees are green more greener than we.
The ocean is blue but sometimes they mold.
Flowers they bloom cause they grew from their roots, unlike us,
Who was formed out of dust and then later will soon
rust.
Between you and us,
We aren’t really that different,
because sooner or later we’ll both be
lost.
No matter the cost.
Mar 2021 · 69
That’s I
Samora Mar 2021
I am but stuck in the clouds.
Wondering where I’ll be next.
All of the stars,
They shone through the sky,
As bright as they were til now.
All of the stars,
Has shown who they are
All but one.
That’s I.
Stuck in the sky.
Just because I couldn’t find.
That’s I.
Stuck in the sky.
So bright that I couldn’t find.
That light.
That deeming light.
The one that shines brighter than I.
Mar 2021 · 59
Stand Still or Keep Going
Samora Mar 2021
My life is on pause.
Stuck in a fog.
Making bad decisions.
I’m a sewer that’s clogged.
Overthinking.
Overbearing.
Over stimulate my own flaws.
To make room for more claws.
Scratching its way to my heart.
To bleed.
To fall.
Like licking blood stains off art walls.
A canvas so finished.
There are no blocks.
No stops.
Head is filled with so much intensity that’ll make your head spin.
Break.
Even possibly shake.
But not as far to make you feel lonely.
You may feel guilty but you’re not the one melting.
I’m the one who has to figure this out deliberately.
Warmly.
Figure this out calmly.
I have to push myself to be who I want.
To move swiftly.
Through gravity.
Stand still or keep going?
Mar 2021 · 275
Unread Books
Samora Mar 2021
Mountain of books,
Laying across my looks,
Sitting across my eyes,
Now why can I not oblige?
Mar 2021 · 81
Black hole
Samora Mar 2021
Looking way way up,
Out of this dark dark place,
Seeing the bright white stars,
Inside this really deep hole

Most of you seem out of place,
Looking way way down,
I seem to be in my space,
Ignoring the very loud crowd

It may seem lonely down here,
And so much fun up there,
I may wanna make a bigger hole,
And drown us all and make us see fear

Looking way way up,
I think to myself while my heads clear,
I think to myself while my eyes tear,
I think to myself, why am I down here?
Feb 2021 · 74
Me
Samora Feb 2021
Me
You hate me, you love me, you cherish my soul for me, you feed it, you hug it, you keep me in your arms and I see all these things, that you’re keeping me safe from and I keep my loyalty locked away next to your key and you hate me, you love me, you cherish your soul for me, you carry me, worship me, the ground I step my feet into, I keep you around and I’ll cherish you inside me, from day to dawn, til you finally treat me wrong, til you finally give up on me, disrespect, loose interest, and down right straight ghosting me, my heart will then shatter to millions and thousands of, broken up pieces that has but our memories, but then I’ll be strong and live my life, carry on, believe in what I got, carry on with my pride because my life is beautiful and wonderful, I hate me, I love me, I cherish my soul for me, I hold it so close that my own heart won’t shatter it and it’ll keep it so warm that no man will harm it, nor no woman will taint it,  cause my life is pure and I will not let anyone harm it.
Feb 2021 · 181
Light The Way
Samora Feb 2021
Light me up like silver and gold,
Light the core that burns in the cold,
Light the way where I meet and end,
Light the freaking cries that's keeping me hold,
Cause there's no way I'm getting stuck here alone,
Cause I got more things to fulfill until I fall and sin.
Feb 2021 · 81
But Me
Samora Feb 2021
Everyone's happy but me,
Everyone's wealthy but me,
Everyone's in love or falling but me,
instead I'm just falling,
Deeper and deeper into my own hole I call an empty being,
Everyone's smiling and not pretending,
Everyone has someone to hold and fending,
Everyone's successful and living and breathing,
But me, I feel like I'm suffocating,
I feel like I'm stuck,
I feel so alone,
I feel no one wants me because where I'm at now,
I feel so useless,
I feel so...not me,
I feel so out of place, like this isn't home.

Every soul is drifting,
Every past is leaving,
Everyone I thought as friends are now depleting,
Like every step I've tried to make has all gone to waste,
Like living in a home with bird cages that I cannot escape,
And me just feeling like I don't belong, just makes me feel more out of place in a world that's filled with love,
Feeling like my time is almost up,
Like everyday is draining me, until that day finally comes,
But I never end up doing it because what's the point,
People that I knew will start to care, no,
People that knew me will start to care... and I don't want that,
People that knew me will start to support me and I don't want that,
People that knew me would start to cry and I don't need that,
I would rather feel what everyone else has instead of feeling so down in the dump,
Until my body is six feet under, I'm gonna try to live my best life until my time is up.
Feb 2021 · 83
Breathe
Samora Feb 2021
Every year is always the same,
It’s almost like playing a game,
I wake up, get dressed, put up a straight face and then later I go back to sleep...
I want to try something new,
Without another,
Cause no matter how hard I try or how I try to be me,
Nobody would ever want to stay and that’s okay,
Lol Maybe go ice skating on a lake,
Try the most delicious of stakes,
Go to concerts and go to raves,
Maybe even go surf the waves,
Even go snowboarding, now that’s what I’ll crave...
Not stuck at home being a bore,
But somewhere where I can smell the air,
Outside where there’s a breeze on my face,
Someplace, where I know that I’m scared and yet not feared,
The stuff that gets my heart racing or look at the ocean and watch my face clear...
I know what I want and I know what I need,
I want a loving man but can leave as he please,
As long as he stays but not trapped but free,
Just like me, the person that I finally wanna be,
Now won’t that be a dream
Feb 2021 · 77
Fear
Samora Feb 2021
Everyone is beautiful but all have their demons,
All have something deep inside lurking without warning,
And even when we don’t see it,
It’s still there hiding,
underneath our happy thoughts that’s cowardly fearing
Jan 2021 · 288
Played
Samora Jan 2021
The games they play are just miserable
And late night plays are disgraceful
Fall in love first and they disappear
Like crying behind a see through glass wasn’t painful enough and yet you ended up breaking it like playing truth or dare
Jan 2021 · 79
Feelings
Samora Jan 2021
Blue Haze that craze,
that burns that chase,
I see but one my eyes turn blaze,
even though the stars,
they burn,
more than the sun,
they cry,
but with the right shape,
they form,
and then later,
torn.
Dec 2020 · 68
Choose
Samora Dec 2020
Not all guys are horrible. Not all guys are sweet and lovable. Some lie. Some are fake. Some are honest. Loyal. True. I just wanna know which one are you?
Nov 2020 · 48
Path
Samora Nov 2020
Lock it, lock it,
Turn the key and click it,
Back and forth, the clock reverse,
Don’t turn your head just leave it,
Don’t open up your heart,
Don’t open up your scars,
Don’t go and open any parts that makes you wanna regret it
Regret what-the sorrows, the pain that left me hollow,
The darkest part of where I was left,
The last place you don’t wanna follow,
The worse part of my head,
The parts you don’t wanna tread,
Tread lightly and just maybe once,
I’ll listen to your demands.
Nov 2020 · 354
Judge Me
Samora Nov 2020
Judge me here,
And judge me there,
Judge me anywhere,
I probably wouldn’t care,
You only know specs, and pieces of my own,
You don’t know all, so judge me as you go.

Judge me intellectually,
Judge me emotionally,
Judge me mentally,
Judge me spiritually,
Judge me anyway you want to judge me,
But make sure you do it confidently.

I’m judged a lot,
By people that gossip,
By people that barely knew me in private,
By people that pretends to think they know me,
By a text or some words said out in context,
I probably wouldn’t care cause y’all barely hit the surface.
Nov 2020 · 53
Chapter #1
Samora Nov 2020
The sky is so beautiful as I look up with my dark brown eyes,
Every aspect of colors filling me up twice the size,
And yet, I still don’t feel nothing inside.
I get up from the patches of grass underneath me,  to see in front of me, a few pine trees, rustling,
A nice breeze, that brushes my face, softly,
To abruptly see that I’m not alone, well I’ll be.
I’ve never seen this person before, ever,
And yet he comes near me, slouching down slowly, with his light brown eyes
And tries to speak to me but nothing he said towards me was coming out correctly,
And so he smiled, lightly and got back up on his feet and walked off,
Disappearing from my sights as he faded in between the trees,
And a gust of wind, closing my eyes shut heavily,
I start to hear voices calling my name,
And as the wind stopped blowing, I opened my eyes once again to see that what was in front of me was pitch black
Nothing in sight, as if I felt lost,
Left inside my own thoughts,
I didn’t want to make a slight move but,
The noise abruptly started again, gradually getting louder...
and louder...
When suddenly a door...
A door so bleak that it  was rusted, old but oddly not bullet proof,
Like there were little holes here and there but I couldn’t see through...what could be inside that is true...
To be continued
Nov 2020 · 42
Speechless
Samora Nov 2020
Why can’t I speak,
Why can’t I word,
Why can’t I mouth all these things, wont come thru,
Why can’t I start,
Why can’t I go,
Have a conversation like back in the boons,
Why am I mute,
What did you do,
Why would my hands freeze up and refuse,
What did you do, what did you do,
Because for some reason I’m scared of you😔
Nov 2020 · 51
Breaking Point
Samora Nov 2020
Heartache,
Heartbreak,
Headstrong,
Love-ache,
Making my heart break two folds,
The back of my neck stands too cold,
What am I doing wrong, I don’t know,
Letting my intuition sink so low,
That all of my open boxes stays closed,
I’m done with it all,
I’d rather fall.
Sep 2020 · 51
Home
Samora Sep 2020
Every passing day you fade,
With less memories to keep me at bay,
With the less stars that twinkle in your eyes,
Another piece breaks with each passing day,
And yet I keep smiling hoping one day,
That I’ll finally find it, my home, where I’ll stay,
And you’ll be there by my side,
Not leaving me out like a stray,
And to keep me close and warm inside,
That no matter what, I won’t fade away.
Aug 2020 · 43
Nightmares
Samora Aug 2020
Have you ever had those thoughts that swirled inside your head?
You know, like a rollercoaster, and the screams and then at the end of it, it was dead?
No noises all around so that at some point you heard a sound?
A sound so soft then gradually loud and can’t remember what was said?
And then you finally hear it again and your body turns cold as ice?
Because as soon as you turn your body, you end up looking at an evil reflection of your face?
And that’s when your eyes wake up, and you’re frozen solid because the devil is in your space.
Aug 2020 · 67
Disappointment
Samora Aug 2020
I’m so energetic so filled with life,
But when they meet me in person, they always change their minds
Aug 2020 · 48
Hurt
Samora Aug 2020
The more I give,
the more I die,
the more pain I shed,
the more I’ll cry,
the more I free,
my dying heart,
the more I’ll find,
my sleeping eyes
Aug 2020 · 55
A Girls Silence
Samora Aug 2020
All of the things I’m doing wrong,
All of what I give isn’t enough,
Which is why I stay silent and slowly start crying telling myself,
Am I ever really good enough?
Aug 2020 · 54
Rainy Day
Samora Aug 2020
Moonlight drips,
Stars on my lips,
My black dress twirls,
While my toes getting soaked.

My hair all wet,
But I don't really care,
Because everything about today
is gonna turn out great.
Aug 2020 · 40
Misunderstood
Samora Aug 2020
Why are so many afraid of me?
Why do I keep falling hard?
Why can no guy see it?
Is it because I'm just too easy?
What's the point in trying?
If the only option is failing,
How is everyone else getting it right and I'm the only one falling?
I love too hard I can't help it,
Which is why I should stay put,
But whenever someone wants to know me better,
I'm always misunderstood
Aug 2020 · 58
Judgement
Samora Aug 2020
The love I give is unlike anybody else's only a few can only see,
A few can see only my truest heart that not many are able to feed,
Even if I wear my heart across my body there's no one to deem worthy,
That every part of me that you choose not to see is only your truest discoveries
Aug 2020 · 47
Untitled
Samora Aug 2020
When do I give up?
When do I stay?
When do I ever call it a day?
How long do I wait?
or should I even wait at all?
All these decisions are making me quake.

How should I respond?
What do I say?
Can me and him really just be friends?
He is a loner and I am the same,
So how do we do this?
How can this situation be tamed?

Just be you and I'll be me,
And one day,
we will meet,
But for right now,
just do you,
and I'll swiftly follow a suit.
Aug 2020 · 62
Heartbreak
Samora Aug 2020
Murdered by my feelings I seem to keep hurting others,
A sharp tongue and blunt words seems to scare all my lovers,
Kept distinguishing the fire that was built up and colored,
Now look what I have done,
All watered up and shattered.
Aug 2020 · 54
Stuck
Samora Aug 2020
Why is my body wanting me to stay here?
Viewing my visions in clear view,
My mind is so lost I can't see straight,
And yet here I am,
Blind as a bat,
Finding my way,
Cannot be swayed,
And all I can hear are footsteps blocking my way.
Aug 2020 · 50
I try
Samora Aug 2020
I try to change but it's usually too late,
I try to change but I'm already awake,
I try to be me but turns to be fake,
Understand me but misunderstood,
I can see why now that I am damaged goods.
Aug 2020 · 40
Late at Night
Samora Aug 2020
Late at night I look on up at the stars,
Late at night I took my hands out and reached,
Late at night I saw that the lights were so bright,
That it took my friend beside me to shake me
awake
Aug 2020 · 61
I Wish
Samora Aug 2020
I wish I can change the life that I live
No more confusion left in the struggle,
I wish I can chase all of my dreams
And bring fear with me and call it a friend,
I wish I can have trust throughout all my falls
So that I can finally have some guy by my side,
I wish my wishes were real
But they are, I just haven't gave them a try.
Aug 2020 · 61
Let you go
Samora Aug 2020
Let me in,
into your life,
let me fix this,
so we could fix us,
I am your light,
to your shining star,
so let me back in,
or let me go.

Let me in,
I miss you so much,
I know that I yelled,
I know I messed up,
you are my piece,
my missing heart,
so let me in,
or let me go.

Let you in?
nah uh I can not,
you hurt our bond,
more than a scratch,
more than a bled,
more than I can see,
that I was the third,
and she was the one.

Let you in?
why should I stay?
you pushed me away,
when I opened my soul,
you closed yours back up,
and just me out in the cold,
Ghosted me like I wasn't home,
so why should I stay,
when I would rather just let you go.
Aug 2020 · 45
Untitled
Samora Aug 2020
Every touch of your hands,
Driving me crazy with sins,
Crawling back into my skin,
I'm tired, I want all this to end,
I want my body controlled,
Struggling in bed, can't let go,
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide,
All of my demons inside,
Locked in a cage in my brain,
What can I do but to scream,
All the emotions, I cant contain,
Wants to let loose like a train,
All of the memories flutter,
Until one page is blank,
That pulls me back in, with a shutter,
That all you hear is a shriek.

I open my eyes, I look at the ceiling,
Escaping my fantasies cause I was just dreaming,
Less than a nightmare, my heart was just bleeding,
The secrets I've kept in, not out on my sleeves,
Cause why would I tell,
All of my thoughts,
Hidden away,
Where no one can see through,
All of my messes that I've been through,
Out on the surface where many can pass through.

— The End —