Hottie Tottie Maserati
Got the whole world feeling naughty,
Everybody’s true colors showing off of me like painted bodies.

What renders me is my soul,
That blows off hot and cold,
Keeps me crisp in the winter time and keeps away from feeling dull.

Smashing, I’m unfazed,
Dashing, I’m unclaimed,
Lonely sorrows that hunts this real world turns my dreams into castaways.

Now I’m all alone,
On this island I call home,
I’d rather stay here than lift my mask for others who really never ever plays fair.

As I wake with beaded eyes,
Slumbered in with my bedded head,
Like I’ve been asleep for 5 whole years and seem to have woken up until 10.

Surprised to see my own reflection,
Bathing in the sunlights perfection,
where half of the shade hits my face making my eyes glisten in the light that turns my eyes golden.

I’m off to explore more, dear heavens galore,
As I lock and shut this door that separates me from my comfort zone where I’m usually stored.

Since I’m free I’ll go out and take a look see,
Take a walk out and enjoy me,
As I eat alone seeing faces unknown I catch a cute face gander my way wondering if I should say hi and let him into my scenery.

Instead of letting him getting to know me I’d rather get to know a little about me,
Went to go see a movie and of course I was pleased,
In my own skin where everyone can barely see that I was clearly enjoying my time alone knowing I can be.

But know this,
I still hold a flame that everyone refuses to see underneath,
That I’d rather not let loose,
Now won’t that be a breathe.

As I call it a day waiting for tomorrow to come and bathe me away,
My eyes fall heavily wanting me to sleep,
As I do I recall upon my memories and entered into a really deep sleep knowing in the next couple of weeks it’ll feel like a brand new me but the same Maserati.

Maybe I was actually wrong about you,
Watched you pull the sword right out infront of me,
Like I didn’t feel any pain but that’s cause it was already broken,
Shattered to pieces,
By the words that you’ve spoken,
Which ended up being a blank page filled with so much of your hatred,
That I could not yet understand it,
And yet you keep wondering why no one else can fill it,
No matter how much you lower your standards for the people that would soon deserve it

Yes I want you,
I want to touch your hair with my hands,
I want to lay beside you when you sleep,
I want to talk to you like I’m talking for hours on days end,
I want to snuggle up to you while I caress your face with my fingertips that’ll send shivers to you until the moon bends.
Yes I want you,
But no not sexually,
Not to the point where you are deep, all the way inside me,
I want to know you physically,
Up close directly also emotionally,
How much straightforward can I get by just telling you this exactly,
You don’t seem to understand it,
What I’m looking for, it seems like,
So imma still keep loving me until someone sees it the first time.

You know that saying “Lighting in a bottle”?
Well,
That’s how you made me feel,
Until I bursted free and told you how I really felt.

I’m not something that you see me to be,
You only see what I want you to see,
And what you saw was a half version of me,
You heard my stories and only saw  my broken parts,
But I’ve also seen all of your sacred scars,
Kept them hidden deep, kept secret,
Had to follow the clues with an intelligent mind,
And had to break some strings knowing you will never find,
That the true me hidden behind all these signs,
Made you believe that I wasn’t worthy to climb.

So I made you believe that I needed to stop trying,
Stop trying to be something I’m not,
But the truth is that is me,
I just couldn’t take you dodging me,
Seeing me as only an option was your choice to make,
And you seeing me as easy is what I wanted you to believe,
And have me focus on me to the point you’ll never have me,
I don’t care if you don’t like me,
I don’t care if you call me crazy,
Cause those are the parts that I want you to see,
The parts that you think are the real me,
Besides, why would I want to try for a guy who just gaselighted me?.