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Samora Apr 2021
A different note
A different vibe
A second chance
A second thought
A final blow
A final end
I’ll move on silently
Without any demands
Samora Apr 2021
White hair,
Blank face,
Woke up in a white room with light space,
Waking up from a lost memory that I couldn’t remember,
The last thing that popped through my brain was a dark room in a dark place,
Which I thought was a vision but turns out that was my last life in a different setting,
Don’t remember after point blank,
Now I stare down at a round globe that looks pretty,
But should I stay here or go down there and start my new life journey,
White gown was what I was wearing,
I see a lovely couple in the waiting room wishing to have a baby,
But she wanted a girl and ended up with two boys, they seem a bit rowdy,
Waiting here is kinda tiring,
As I stared back down knowing I must make a decision,
But also knowing the consequences,
That if I start up my journey there,
It’ll all end up in tragedy and then I’ll have to make myself whole again,
By finding love again,
By finding peace again,
By finding me again,
That’s a risk that I’m willing to take,
Even though it might crush me inside out to be able to breathe again,
I’ll still progress the process within me,
To set free the real me and let people see what I wanna be down there in the greenery than being stuck up here and looking down at the scenery,
Now that’s a challenge that I’m willing to make possible,
Even though the world that I look at seems damaging,
War outbreaks,
Religious and race,
Stress building,
Suicidal and grace,
Liars and cheaters,
Loyalty and love,
Everywhere I’ve looked brought me more closer to God,
I wonder what kind of personality I’ll have,
What kind of traits I’ll discover,
What type of friends I’ll make or maybe become a loner,
Either way, it’s how I shape me or where my journey leads,
The life lessons that teaches me might crumble me and have me waiting patiently,
But realize that love breaks down every negativity that streams through each and everyone’s star dusted bodies,
I think I’ve made up my mind,
Cause there was a sudden bright flash that I had to bask in,
After that I blinked twice looking up to see the most beautiful of brown eyes and smile all covered in sweat,
And a name given to me while the nice women held me snuggled close for there was little room for stretching,
And then I fall back to sleep knowing that this part of my life was already beginning.
Samora Apr 2021
I don’t want to be liked,
I want to be cherished and loved,
I want to be valued with someone to hold,
To build up a family and not settle for less,
Saying how I’m different from the rest won’t keep me in place,
Instead I’ll be walking with stride and built up by pride and watch as your karma revise,
I don’t want to be liked,
I’d rather be valued.
I’ve met guys that have liked me but never have I ever once asked if they valued me. They say that I’m different from girls that they’ve dated but how does that compare me if they always decide to leave me and be with someone that they value the most over me. Being liked and being valued are two different meanings and I’d rather be valued than liked
Samora Apr 2021
You make my body flush with emotions,
Running into a very deep sleep I’m drowning into,
All of the trickles that I feel across my face,
Driving me insane with love stains streaming in my vanes.
You make me feel curiously , mysteriously, and loving,
But make me want to take a step back cause right now my heart feels heavy,
Never felt this way with nobody,
So why must it be you, out of everybody.

I don’t feel lustful when I’m in your presence,
Looking into your eyes, I can see your soul,
I can see your struggles,
your pain,
your worries,
I can see my own reflection but told in two different stories.

You make me feel crazy and yet I cannot show it,
Like I’m being tangled with words leaving my thoughts open,
But keeping my mouth shut to keep all the letters from escaping,
Deep down I can see me wanting to escape,
Let loose and crave you but softly,
No matter how badly I want you,
I’ll savor you,
Cause I will never want to tame you.

As your arms wrap around me as I cradle your neck gently,
As you kiss me softly,
Waiting til I kiss you back with intense passion coursing throughout my body,
I wake up with a startle with a kiss on my left cheek,
Exiting my dream and back to reality,
I find a cute face looking down at me,
And all I can say is,
“good morning my baby”

But then that’s when it shattered,
All the leftover pieces,
That’s when it broke all of the deepest emotions,
All of the memories that clinged to me now closed off,
Nothings left but a pile of dust,
All that we’ve shared, I knew they would be lost,
Cause nothing ever lasts when it’s between me and trust.
Samora Apr 2021
Sleeping,
Falling,
Darkness,
Surrounding,
Dirtying,
My body,
Images,
Appalling,
Loneliness surrounds me,
I’m sleepless,
Depriving,
Revolting,
Abandon,
Emotions,
But slowly,
I’m restless,
I’m sorry,
I keep on breaking,
Cracking it open,
Shattered to pieces,
When I know I can’t proceed,
From these emotions I’m feeling,
Can’t be real from this person,
Who I thought was so loving,
And caring,
But seemed to be playing,
Again and again that they play is divulging,
Why must they keep and mess with my heart,
When I now should know better than to guard this with taste,
And that’s when I wake,
With an emotionless face,
But knowing all these memories that stays with me,
I know that I’ll never ever forget about your personality
Samora Apr 2021
Every dying minute that I have,
Every dying minute that I find,
Every bleeding day that I take listening to your heart,
Every single day,
Why am I afraid,
Why am I afraid,
I can't believe I said that,
Can't believe I did that,
Said that I was talking,
Never gave a name,
Like a stranger, was in my thoughts,
Clinging to me like a narrow arrow,
That leads me to the next guessing game,
Like, what I do?
It's always the same,
That, dying pain, that I seem to recognize,
every time I make a mistake,
When all I could have said that,
you were my Bae.

Your, kindness follows every walking hour,
Every second that I think it's over,
Just because I made 1 tiny error,
Now ignoring with more silent terrors,
I deserve it, I deserve it all,
You, gave me love and I just let it fall,
And now my path is blocked by a narrow wall,
Blocked away from your inner thoughts,
That I can't get through, and instead I'm lost,
Lost inside my own crazy mind,
That I can't control,
When my hearts on fire,
My heart keeps pounding,
My words are drowning every single reader,
That wants to come near,
To read their letters out of fear.

It's like my tongue is twisted,
And I can't sleep through this knowing somethings missing from your silent treatment,
All I hear is, should I say it,
Should I say it, no,
It's too early to express my feelings, yes,
Maybe I'll just wait it out,
Let him tell me first, so I don't feel 'barrased or,
Should I say it now,
Since I'm crazy inside,
Let the waves take me for another ride,
Let this crazy out,
Let this crazy loose,
Let this crazy take over my mind
and let it drown me out,
Like a Crazy Train buried deeper inside,
Waiting for someone to unbreak these chains
restraining me on every side,
But that's on me, that on me,
Every single day of every week,
That's my train when I'm deep inside my feelings,
Keeping every word sacred from your hearts tongue's follow,
I'd rather keep it caged deep down,
Letting no one in and keep faking smiles.

Can't stop writing all these heavy poems, can't stop sharing all my happy feelings, cannot stop waiting for discretion, my thoughts on fire like some burning metals, dripping down my face like a melting figure, that I cannot bring myself to finally call this, like a tortured fire, like a blazing arrow, shot straight through a farrow, through a narrowed pathway,
Through this Crazy Train that I cannot follow.
Samora Apr 2021
That I keep getting these deja vus,
It always seems like I’ve seen you before
But when I look back,
you were never there.
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