So there's this star I see whenever I look out from my bedroom window.
There's nothing special about this one specific star.
It has a gold shine or shimmer, which ever it is that stars actually do.
There aren't any stars as bright or fiery and fierce in its proximity.

So there it is, this star that I keep seeing.
All by itself, in it's own golden spotlight,
But for all I know this star stands alone.
But late at night, when I look up at the sky, the moon has taken a place, right alongside.

So here I am, lying in my kingdom staring at this star.
You'd think I'd stop right? I mean, there's nothing great about this star.
For all I know, it's always been there, in that black space and I never noticed it.


But of course, I only recall looking at the spangled night sky because I came to notice this burning ball of splendid.

I've been speaking to the star lately. I must be losing my mind though, why am I speaking to a star?
Is it because I long to speak to you as I speak to this star?

Has this tiny glitter of insignificance listened to the conversations I plan to have with you someday?
That's right, it's seen my smile and heard my laugh. Me perfecting my ****** expressions in anticipation of your responses.

This makes a ton of sense now, I guess it does.
This gold illuminating rock wasn't meant to mean all that it does.
Kind of ironic or double sided when I think about it.
I'm looking up again, I see the moon has kept it's regular schedule tonight.

The moon, why didn't I choose the moon to utter my story to?
That's right!
The moon belongs to everyone doesn't it?
At the back of my mind, this golden Snowball belongs to me.

And when the time is right, I'm going to reach out, I just hope that at that time, you'll reach back!

In my loneliness,
Where it is only me,
I have found that,
The voices keep getting louder.

My life has been moulded by mere moments.
Simple moments, that when I look back,
Seem insignificant at most.
Yet the weight of these moments are immense!

Simple and minute moments that I
appreciate.
It is within these moments I have found solitude.
Within these moments, I have found peace or happiness.
Within these moments, deciding factors that has lead me to live!

These are moments that may seem tiny!
Meeting someone and becoming family!
Experiencing a car accident and learning to live more!
A sports injury, that taught me to relax more.

There is one moment, that I did not see coming.
A moment, that has not only redefined my future,
But has shown me to build my future around it.
That moment? Meeting her!

I've come to realize that there are moments,
Simple moments in my life that no longer seem to make sense.
I have lead my own thoughts to where it is,
And now, It is my own thoughts that I doubt.

You see, I've realized that many things are untrue.
I've let slip certain mindsets that seemed to mean so much to me.
Tiny things, that I can no longer explain or accept.
Minute details that are now something I need to rewrite.

It's funny how I've realised of all this, in a short space of time.
Silly things like love is a lie, I'm alone and I'm fine with that.
These tiny yet powerful notions of life,
Set aside and questioned, whether I really believe this!

As I'm struck by this reality of realization,
I have to accept that it's because of her.
Only a fool would look beyond her being,
And not give credit that she has unearthed these changes within me.

Cover to cover, read my story.
I dare you!
But to be fair, I must tell you, I've left my soul between the confines of these pages.
Read my story, I dare you!
But I ask you this, think you can handle it?

I've loved you for the longest that I can remember.
I only used 'loved' because it's the correct context.
Fact of the matter is I still do.
Yes, I still love you!

Through relationships, flings, friendly encounters,
See I've developed this habit.
I always detect chatecteristics about people that remind me of you.
And the charecteristics that's missing in them, which is possessed by you.

What hurts is not that I love you this much and yet I'm not with you,
It's that I've told you how much I love you But you didn't feel the same.
From the last time I told you how I feel till now, I still feel the same!