Antihistamines antidepressants and paracetamol
Tanned skin white skin unexplainable
Falling and flying now one and the same
Who knew about the summer rain
Lying here you confirm my fear
I love you more than life itself my dear
I’d hate for you to up and leave
But I couldn’t fill your wildest dreams
Your wishing for another I know
She may act like me but she won’t
She’d do the things I do not do
She’d love you different to how I do
But she’d never look at you the way I do
She wouldn’t fall in love with your smile like me
She wouldn’t kiss you before you sleep
Or when her insomnia woke her
Or when her anxiety got her
But I do
I do because you mean everything to me
I do because your my remedy
I do because maybe I’m not scared of being in love with you anymore
I’m in love with the idea and thought of you
The being and existence of you
I’m in love with you

I can remember wanting love, wanting to love somebody and them be as in love with me for my ground to move underneath their feet and their world turn with me
I remember wanting simplicity and the quietness among the madness and
I can remember being in love the gleam and the glow the battles and breaths I can remember being held and not wanting to let go
I can remember the aftermath, and every heartbeat in between the breaks,
I can remember loosing my best friend and my world in a day and I remember how alone I felt
I can remember how I forgot your touch
I left
I got on a train and I’ve never got back on to go back too you and I’ve not walked up that hill to hers I’ve gone past his street but never through my heart and eyes are sensitive too all of you, I can see you, just not where we were alone or when because I’m scared of falling back in love because I do
I can remember everything that made me fall in love with everyone I’ve ever fell in love with, but I can remember why it didn’t work and why it ended
Half of it on account of me half on you,
But I fall in love too easily and I’m scared because I love you
I do
I genuinely feel love towards you but my heart breaks and mends quite quickly nowadays and it’s sorta killing me cause I can fill the cracks with other people
Like some weird glue
I’m currently in love with you
So everything to me about you is still unreal
But my love for you is real
I believe that we can make it work
We just gotta realise that we work