To me she was rain
Often gently in the background
A soothing constant
She was nurturing
Life giving
Everything she touched seemed to flower
But she could also take you by surprise
A sudden deluge
Hammering
Fierce
Droplets like fire on your face
That would have you running for shelter
But what I liked most
Was when she stormed
The unbridled passion
The tang of electricity in the air
When the wind whipped around your face
And rain tangled in your hair
She would stand with her arms outstretched
As free and as wild as the storm

Even in death
I have not been granted peace
So I will carve out my own heaven
On the rubble of dreams
And regret

Last night I dreamed
That I drowned
In the tears you cried for me

When I woke
I could not wash the taste of salt
From my mouth

To forever drift
Alone
To watch warm brilliance
Pass you by
Never able to touch

When the sheer magnitude
Of an endless universe
Become stifling, suffocating
And all you wish is to break free

To where?
We are contained only by our thoughts
After all
And perhaps in this place beyond
You will finally find peace