the rivers ran dry
the soil crumbled
the plants grew wilted
the insects fell from the sky
in starvation
the hedgehogs struggled,
the squirrels too

'cause all the waters gone
I cried it for you

lonelys a state not a feeling
it's a sense of being
that flows in your veins
consuming your whole body

it's not temporary or easily fixed
and somehow we all seem to be lonely
at one point or another
yet were all still alone together

leafs fall so delicately
branches sway carefree
flowers bloom so slowly
clouds drift with no rush
yet humans walk in numbers and letters

I miss when my heart ached in every beat
how it spread the pain through out my limbs
reaching the tips of my fingers and toes
it made the pain feel less somehow
as it was diluted into my blood,
it would be there, mixed in, forever
but at least I couldn't always feel it

my heart can no longer do this
it stopped beating when you left

how do you change so quickly
the eyes once filled with warmth
are now stones
that look through me

am I a ghost?
someone that you wanted to leave your life
but it's somehow impossible

your smile used to be the real
and I used to support you when it was not
now I look past you too
because you couldn't fix your mistakes
so the only way to get rid of them,
was to get rid of me

i don't want to face my feelings
they're too strong now to bare
they punch my heart
and beat up my brain til I can no longer think

poetry forces me too face them
so this passion now fades
despite my fighting
,forcing the sadness into letters,
as the emotions swarm inside
a whirlpool of a lost desire to face tomorrow

I loved you enough,
didn't I?
that if it could bring you back,
it would

I'd hug you tight then see your tail wag,
my heart would leap
doing somersaults in my rib cage
as not a single part of me
would feel despair anymore