I would stand on the playground
whilst we did make believe
they would be princesses, I would too
with a gender neutral name though
my favourite of which was Alex
I'd declare that my future child
would have a neutral name
the happiness in my grin would shine
knowing I'd let my child be themselves
In silence I would wish I'd named myself,
as I didn't resonate with my own.
I wonder how different things would of gone
had I been taught what non binary was
had I knew it was an option.
I don't think I would of hated myself
despised my body or resented my parents
I don't think I would have felt the need
to criticise my skin
to eventually harm it
to change it because I deserved it,
I was not who I was supposed to be.