Only feel when there is a blade on my wrist
I now i seem like a girl who needs help
But im really just a girl that needs a little love
There is nothing more you can do for me
But love me unconditionally

There are three rules to life
one is be kind
two is be kind
and three is be kind
you never know what someone elses is going through
and making mean comments could make the hurt even worse
don't push people off a ledge
just because you aren't happy with yourself
Some people are living on the ledge
just waiting for the day they fall

They expect you to be the perfect person they want you to be
Let's look at the reality
I'm broken and hurt and i have nothing left to fight for
You want me to be happy so i hide the sadness until i can't anymore
The tears fall now theres blood
What do i do
How do i hide it this time
Alll the times you have hurt me
you think i want you to love me
but i just want you to see what's going on inside my head

talking is hard
especially when you can breathe
but what's even hard is listening
your not focused on what they are saying you focused on surviving
but it gets harder when you realize you are on a tank with Piranhas

People dont understand
With the situation at hand
I am lost and hurt
I am torn between a rock and a hardplace
I have no choice
What happens next isnt up to me
No matter what i do or how much i fight
This is out of my control

I see a shooting star
so I make a wish
I see a dandelion
I pick it up and blow
but my wishes never come true
but its okay
I'll make I through
with out the wishes coming true
I always have and I always will

Why is it so hard to love those who love me now
I was hurt and i stuck with me
Many memories i dont understand
So many blank spaces in my past
I want to be able to love them to
Nothing helps
Not therapy not crying nothing is helping
I feel as though i'm drowning in the place they call home
Not my home just a place i have no voice, no choice
Feeling like all i can do is just lay in my bed
Never wanting to leave the cozy little place
Its the only place i feel safe
Except the thoughts that go through my head start to get to me
I push people away
It ***** when they think i hate them
I don't but i don't love them either
Its a mix of things i don't understand

Why is it so hard to love those who love me now
I was hurt and i stuck with me
Many memories i dont understand
So many blank spaces in my past
I want to be able to love them to
Nothing helps
Not therapy not crying nothing is helping
I feel as though i'm drowning in the place they call home
Not my home just a place i have no voice, no choice
Feeling like all i can do is just lay in my bed
Never wanting to leave the cozy little place
Its the only place i feel safe
Except the thoughts that go through my head start to get to me
I push people away
It ***** when they think i hate them
I dont but i dont love them either
It a mix of things i dont understand

People say i look for things that hurt me
but i dont have to look when all the things around me hurt
Its like im caught in a rose bush
You dont have to look for the thorns
Cause they are in your eyes
you are bleeding you know you are hurt
you keep fighting to get to the other side of that hored thorn bush

everything dies once a year
trees
they loose all their leaves
flowers
lose all their petals
but the next year the comeback
and they are stronger than ever

Seeing the beauty in the world is something many dont do
Buried in their phones
Or staring at a screen
No one knows the things they could see
So many times i drive by the trees wishing to be set free
We live in a world where nothing is right
we continue to think we don't have hate
We just dont see the beauty in things

I am hurting
I blame love
I am crying
I blame love
never once did I think to blame myself
I made the choices I made
nobody made them for me

Thought he loved me
He just used me
Left me here to hang
Now im wondering what the **** i was thinking
Im scared and hurt and he doesnt even understand
He can't look me in the face
He knows he messed up
He cant admit it but he still has feelings for me
And it's hard for me to accept but i have feelings for him to
Wish we could be together
Just us two
Happier than ever
But i'm afraid that can never happen
Because he is with her

how could you hurt a little girl
she hid because she was scared of you
you dragged her out by her hair
hit after hit
she doesn't even know what she did
she was so happy before you
You left her in pieces
a girl you said you loved
a girl you took under your wing
she was 7 getting beat
turned 8 now she is getting *****
she was fighting for her life
but for what
every one she loved just kept hurting her
she tried to say no more
but she couldn't even speak