you are not here anymore
you are not here to hold me close
when i wake up terrified in the
middle of the nights
you are not here to kiss me
each morning when we wake up
you are not here to hold me tight under the sheets
you are only somewhere i cannot reach
you are only somewhere i cannot feel you
don't you miss me
don't you imagine your hands
running down my body
don't you want to read those books
to me again
i think you don't
you never really wanted to do these things
to me in the first place
you did it because your friends told you to
you shattered me and you broke me
and now i'll never be the one who can love
someone again