Once upon a time
I stared right at nowhere
Confused about stuff
Hoping to have answers

Why am I here?
What am I doing with my life?
Am I ready to give up my soul?
Or I'm just trying to make things more complicated?

What should I do?
I don't know anything anymore
What happened to the happy life I once have when I was a little kid?
Did it vanish the same way bubbles pop?

Should I make a big change in my life?
Or should I just stay still as others pass by?

I'm sorry
I never notice
Your annoyance
Everytime I'm sharing
Stories that I thought
You'd love to hear
But instead
You'd rather not hear

I'm sorry
For I get excited
And I wanted to share it
To the person I cherish
Among the audience around me

I'm sorry
Please be gentle
In every word you tell me
'Cause without you knowing it
I already cried a million bucket of tears
For all the rejections
I get from you

I'm sorry
But don't worry
I'll soon change
For the better, of course
Hope you'll love
The new me
'Cause it's for you
And for me too

But lastly
I'm sorry
For loving you too much
That I didn't even feel
The hatred you have for me

I do admire you for so long
I do care for like a song
I do listen to you attentively
I do take you seriously
I do talk to myself
I do laugh at myself
I do cry everytime you leave
I do smile everytime you're near
I do feel hurt when you're with her
I do feel flattered when you're with me
I do love you so so much that
I do get jealous because of that

I'm always by your side,
watching your every glide.
I kept on telling jokes that would make you laugh,
but instead I made you cough.
I look at you deep within my eyes,
but you always give me eyes filled with ice.
I hope you will soon notice
my every glance when like this,
aching and feel like dying.
I've tried so many times to tell you what I'm feeling,
but I'm scared thinking you'll never listen.
But maybe someday,
I'll tell you what I've been hiding.
For the sake of my heart,
I'll tell you I love you.

You saw me crying
But you didn't stop me
I thought you wouldn't care
So I continued what I'm doing
I saw a shadow
Infront of where I'm staying
Removing my hands off my face
I saw you with full of worries
I cried even more
'Cause I'm so happy
Knowing that you will be there for me

I gave my all
To the people I know
Thinking that they will do the same to me
But I was so wrong
Realizing my worth
Is like an empty purse
With nothing inside
And with nothing to value
Are you happy now
Looking at me with my head down
But I hope you don't mind
I borrowed a smile
From the people who cared
More than I thought someone like you would have done

I can feel my tears
Rolling down my cheeks
I can feel my hands
Trembling like the drums
I can feel my heart
Beating as it fall apart
I can feel my head
Aching as you fade
Not away from me
But away from all the memories we shared