MAMA, I am left speechless, I don’t know where the road leads from this point onwards. I am left hanging on a jungle in great struggle trying to save myself from falling ******* the surface.
At all times as I was about to fall from the ninth floor you saved me by holding my hand real tight and gave me enough reason to continue climbing the ladder towards success.
MAMA, during thy existence on Earth, I never received diamonds nor Golds but the tender, love and care you offered indeed became my greatest treasure and shall not be forgotten in any day.
The lessons thy offered me shall certainly build me into a better daughter, an improved friend a good wife to he who will be God sent and certainly a good parent to thy grandchildren.

MAMA, thy removal in this Earth by those whom we always thought were a shoulder to cry on when we are in pain has certainly taught me that we never had friends, pity I had to realise this without you.
I remain on Earth with heartless creatures who will do absolutely anything to knock me down to the ground but because of your emotional existence I know I will overcome anything coming my way.
Mama, thy physical absence certainly does not mean I am left alone, thy love exists in all ends of the atmosphere and I will forever feel your presence everywhere I go.
Death stepped foot between a mother and a daughter in hopes that it will separate the two but the special bond between you and I MAMA is so strong that not even death can separate us.

MAMA, I am in tears, I seem to find no reason to continue living because my soul repairer has been removed next to me for reasons of which are unknown.
It breaks my heart when I think of all that is happening, my future endeavours has been ruined because physically you won’t witness me graduating or going shopping with me in my car.
So many things will change, I can never distinguish daylight to night-time. The mouth-watering food you used to prepare for us daily will never be tasted anymore unless I think of the past.
Nonetheless, thy special recipe will forever be in my mind and I know that in one of the good days I will prepare it and let your grandchildren taste thy teachings.

Empa MAMA, kalelingwe lamatsatsi gotla loka ebile ketla kgona go amogela gore otlogile lefaseng. Madi awe asenang molato kasolofela gore magodimong odutsi stulong sa kgauta ekganyago jwale ka lerato leo ne ompha lona kamehla le matsatsi
ROBALA KA KGOTSO , MAMA YOU PLAYED YOUR ROLE.

Deep within you there is a special seed that waits to breed
No matter what the circumstance within your environment is
Whether you live in a shack or a mansion that does not define you
But it molds you into a bright future that waits for you tomorrow

Yesterday is nothing but just a lesson in your long walk to success
Even if the obstacles seem too hard to conquer
No matter how hard you fall to the ground never lose hope
There is still a chance for you to prosper and you know it
Being heartbroken does not mean you don’t deserve to be loved
Heartache shapes you into a better partner the following day

Life still goes on with or without the one who broke your heart
Out there into the world is a special someone created for you only
Whether you failed to be something in life that’s just an hindrance

 But that does not stop you from being someone
Dreams are there to lead you into your future endeavors
A blessing is who you are in many souls existence
God takes away what you want and bless you with what you need

A large portion of the universe perceive death as the finish line
In a long race of a human beings existence
Connection between ambiances seems to have reached its limits
Our minds are cleared of the deceased as we can never see them again

But that factor shall certainly not reflect upon us
Death the mother of all the cries of our ripped hearts
Eradicating my loved one into a different dimension
That surely does not mean it is the end of our association

Deceased or not our bond shall continue to exist as we always planned
Tender love and care shall always be offered even in your resting place
Memories will not only be relieved in the past but also in the future
You might be removed from the Earth but not in my temperament

Though years might go by without physically seeing you
Spiritually and emotionally your presence will be visible at all times within me
Just like old times when I made your bed well
Even in your resting place I shall clean and make sure you sleep well forever

Notice the difference between before and after your presence, weigh the after effects of the termination of the bond between binary ambiances which resulted from not appreciating.

Evaluate the conditions of our hearts during the juncture of the best love affair we have ever got into. Feelings extracted from deep within the sentiment is what I always offered you.

Give yourself time to realise that you were never grateful, no matter what I offered to you it was just not good enough since it was below the standards you put for yourself based on the beauty you possess.

 

Love, affection is what I offered at all times but material possessions remains to be the root cause of your love for a guy. Sadly, I never had what you wanted but I had what you deserved and that is love.

Expressing the conditions of my heart is now futile because the heart that withheld true feelings for you was tossed in the mud and thrown in the trash bin by you who was supposed to treasure it.

Communicating with you is like visiting the graveyard to shred tears on my special one who is extinct from this Earth. Whether I cry or not the situations remains constant, you are dead to me.

Taking away everything I had in a wonderful home which existed deep within you. I am leaving and opening space for another man who will be brave enough to accept your behaviour because I can’t.

 

Inflicting the same pain you caused me when I always believed that you were miss right but never did I know that you would only serve to teach me that a book cannot be judged on its cover.

Never will I make the same mistake ever again when I meet the one who holds much beauty. Your presence made me acknowledge the availability of a mask a woman can have on her face yet evil inside.

Going home back to my original roots where I never met you. Meeting you was not a mistake and I appreciate the lesson you taught me but you deserve nothing but heartache.

 

Letting go of the thought in my mind that you would grow up to be the mother of my children and the daughter in law of my mother who would love you as much as I did.

Oppressed deep within is how you made me feel everyday but I am wide awake, realising my worth on this Earth and I deserve much more than what you offer.

Voices in my head screaming there’s no beauty that exists in the world which is more radiant than that of which you possess of but I am not going to consider such because beauty exists everywhere.

Everything we had was just a fluke and I can safely walk away from this household that I received a blind eye when I was ought to be cared for, loved and cherished by you whom I loved.

A large portion of the universe perceive death as the finish line

In a long race of a human beings existence

Connection between ambiances seems to have reached its limits

Our minds are cleared of the deceased as we can never see them again

 

But that factor shall certainly not reflect upon us

Death the mother of all the cries of our ripped hearts

Eradicating my loved one into a different dimension

That surely does not mean it is the end of our association

 

Deceased or not our bond shall continue to exist as we always planned

Tender love and care shall always be offered even in your resting place

Memories will not only be relieved in the past but also in the future

You might be removed from the Earth but not in my temperament

 

Though years might go by without physically seeing you

Spiritually and emotionally your presence will be visible at all times within me

Just like old times when I made your bed well

Even in your resting place I shall clean and make sure you sleep well forever

Compare and contrast the natural existence of nature
To the special blessing of your life on this Earth
Look at the shining sun and pair it with your smile
Perceive the stars and contrast it with the sparkle in your eyes

Acknowledge the mistakes you did back then
Correct all the wrongs you did when tomorrow comes
Yesterday is a past for reason and cannot be undone
But it can be forgotten when you correct them when tomorrow comes  

Whether you are happy with your surroundings or not
The question is does that serve as a limitation to your desire?
The answer to that query lies within you and nobody else
Within you there is a special seed that waits to breed and flourish

Some days of our lives are sweet and some are sour
Fact of reality is those days that already occurred are all in the past
Should you wish to go back there because of those best moments?
That is one of the choices you have to make in life

Once again change is good when you know what your goals are
Moving forward without looking back is a step closer to your dreams
Do you still call today a new day when you bring yesterday to it?
Leave the past in the past dust to dust ashes to ashes

The world we live in is full of malice and melancholy
A world isolated in darkness does not mean you are in the dark
Be unique, be firm, be courageous and be a blessing to yourself
When everyone declares you darkened you shall be shining in the dark

I don’t know how to accept this man, thinking to myself about the creation of Heaven and Earth along with the lives brought down to Earth to live for a certain period of time by God the Almighty.

The creation of man seemed to have less significance upon this wonderful world thus a women had to be introduced in the world of man.

The one who Gives Opportunities Daily (GOD) saw a need for a women’s existence in a world lived by man and he said” Be fruitful and increase in number, fill the Earth and subdue it”

Considering the effects of today’s society, the Gods creation seems futile, his reasons for bringing a women to Earth looks tainted due to greed and desire of a man hungry for power and wealth.

 

Unappreciated by worthless man without a vision, treated unkind, lashing the back of a woman with a belt. Abused physically, emotionally, spiritually without caring.

It pains my heart to witness such cruelty, our society left without peace. Women of today live in fear, he who is supposed to be shielding them is now a hungry lion out of its cage.

Our feminine parents and those who we associate ourselves with their lives become extinct on this world we live in because of cruel man.

What have they done to deserve such, I beg thee to forgive them man, stop abusing she who is destined to be a mother to a future life that will be blessed to say mother to she whom you are abusing.

The abhorrence lived deep within me

Consumed so many injurious verses from the world

I never cared yet about what they thought of me

Seemed to be strong but truth be told I got affected  

 

I lied to myself that I would never let them change me

Tried getting rid of the pain by soaking my pillow with tears

Lay on a bed resting my hurting soul

The pain was too much now and I broke

 

The abhorrence within me has been unleashed

The sweet little guy all covered in costumes of the devil

Shrilling sound of my voice roaring far away like that of a lion

I am not whom I used to be simply because of the world

 

A monster is who I seem to be nowadays

I hate every moment of this soul

Smiling seems to be my stranger

I don’t know how to accept him as a friend

 

The fury within me drives away many souls I wish to have

All I have to do is accept that the world transformed me

Took everything of mine and sold my name to the devil  

The abhorrence within me makes my life miserable

JANUARY
J* oin other people who work together in
A ctivities because that
N otion expands the concept of
U nity in
A ll Corners  of life and teamwork can make you
R ealise something new about
Y ourself which you have never been aware of.

FEBRUARY
F eelings that
E xist in my heart
B reaks me  because they are not just
R egular feelings yet they are
U nconditional
A nd I am struggling to
R elinquish this innermost feelings because I am scared
Y ou might deny my heart which i kept for you to equip

MARCH
M any things are stripped
A way from us because we don't
R ealise or come into terms that we ought to
C herish and
H onour those that heaven specially blessed us wish.

APRIL
A lways know that God's
P romises shall be
R eceived and we should never be
I mpatient because he is the only master of our.
L ives.

MAY
M any things are
A chieved when
Y ou have developed a positive energy of that certain aspect you are doing.

JUNE
J ump
U p and down
N ever lose hope certainly
E verything shall work out.

JULY

J ustify why such
U nconditional feelings will eventually
L ose its value when i try to express how I truly feel about
Y ou.

AUGUST
A lways get
U p and
G o into the day without
U ncertainties of
S ome sort and
T he best you can be in that day.

SEPTEMBER
S omeday i will
E ventually be able to overcome the
P ain
T hat
E xists deep within
M e
B ut remember that i wished for our
E xistence to never end but i can't change the circumstances because
R eality is that we were never meant to be.

OCTOBER

O ceans are deep and the
C onditions of my sentment upon you are much more deeper than that of the ocean.
T oday marks a new story and a new life which i wish to persue with you, I don't have much to
O ffer thee my dear but I promise to
B e there for you whenever you need me in the
E ntire duration of your existence because I
R eally  feel greatness with your presence in my life.

NOVEMBER
N ever mistaken the conditions of my sentment because the feelings that exists are real
O ut of millions of people in the world you are the only one i exchange such
V ows of the sentment and
E very little thing i say is out of the deeepness of
M y heart
B e with me babe and
E veryday i will love you and
R aise our little ones into bright future leaders of tomorrow.

DECEMBER

D ear you can't be loved by
E veryone and you
C an't expect thing's to go your way.
E verything you do in life has it's own
M eaningful aspect which when carefully analysed it
B rings out a better vision of yourself and  daily we learn something new which shall
E ventually build us into
R espectable citizens of tomorrow.

Are we going to bring tears in each other's lives or we gonna bring nothing but the best smile ever existed in our faces?
For a moment I assumed that we were both linked by all heaven skies to live a new chapter of our lives together.
Was I only blinded by the beauty that existed on your face?, was noticing your beauty a calling to my heart break?
What should I do at times like this when the rain and the tears that fall from my eyes serve as a closely related family.

Thunderstorms,lightning and other hissing sounds never cry out loud like the heart of mine that cries because of you.
I never expected perfection from you. All I ever wanted was for you to make me forget about all the pain I felt in the past.
You forever running away from me as if I am a loan shark expecting you to settle your loans.
Even if that's the case I am left wounded, unable to see the life I assumed I was going to live because you can't hold me.

I am fine I will not cry for you any more, I will simply let you go to your desired place of comfort.
Seeing that nothing I do pleases you, allow me to grant you my blessings to go to any man you want.
You my lady bird and I cannot restrict you to fly around to notice the beauty that exists on Earth but never forget HOME.
My heart is your home but never expect to find it as comfortable as it was before because nobody cleaned it.
If you wondering why, allow me to tell you that nobody will ever live in my heart than you forever.

A heart drenched with emotions that is detrimental to a person’s wellbeing

A face that is supposed to be glowing now looks pale

The suffering she is enduring at this juncture is truly excruciating

I wish I could hold you just to make you feel better

 

My wish and all my promises in life all includes you

Nothing of my dreams includes a saddened spirit  

Only a precious ever smiling beauty queen experiencing tender love and care

That is all I hope to achieve in life making you feel appreciated  

 

I pray for a day whereby you will still see the sun rise in the morning

Your face to glitter with nothing but happiness

Your eyes to twinkle brighter than the midnight diamonds during the night

All of the sweet little things you experience put me in a place of comfort

 

My heart is not at all at ease when a situation of discomfort surrounds you

I feel lost and loose a reason to live on this Earth

The pain that you feel is mutual between binary ambiances

All I ask is for you to never forget to smile daily because that’s what makes me happy

I should have listened to their expressions

I should have swallowed my pride

I should have known better

I should have expected absolutely anything coming my way

 

Realized a day is made of a day and night

Realized a coin is made of head and tale

Realized that there is either truth or a lie to a story

Realized that either there’s a smile or a frown on a precious face

 

Failed to think of you as my heart breaker

Failed to think of you neglecting me at one point of life

Failed to oversee myself crying tears of sorrow because of you

Failed to think of one of us saying bye without the presence of death

 

I certainly will remember the wonderful memories we created

I certainly will smile when I think of yesterday

I certainly will miss my other half when tomorrow comes

I certainly will keep you in my sentiment forever

Staring into your cute little eyes
All I could see was a future and the feeling was mutual
We crossed oceans, climbed hills together in our minds
The period of our affiliation was truly splendid

Unforeseen occurrences came by but I was blinded by love
Assumed that it was just for an hour what a white lie I told myself
Future in just a blink of a second became a past
I am left stuck up in the dark without any direction

My loved one spoiled all the sweet memories because of new
Forgot the past and focused on the present that only lasted for an hour
Returned to find a seed once planted gone
I had given on our relationship

Used as a scapegoat to run away from the relationship
I was the center of the blame without a cause
Yet tales that the love that exists deep within for me won’t die
But a reason for her smile is another man

What is love if all I do is cry silently?
My inner parts failing my respiratory well being
The pain that I endured pushed me over the edge
Life with you once again would be accepting the devil as a friend
Goodbye my lover goodbye my friend

Perceive the ticking clock as it moves towards the last straw of the year 2017.
Family and friends came together for a festive season as they remembered where their roots originates from.
Memories indeed have been all that was created in all families who saw a need to come together.
Moments of sadness, moments of happiness have all been endured but what matters most is that a new leaf is coming.

Despite everything else, no one can regret ever coming home to have just the little of which we have been offered.
It hurts when one has to leave due to business callout yet it is a lovely feeling because great belongings haven’t been lost.
Tears fallout as feelings alters due to thoughts that nature is separating you from your loved ones.
Wipe off the tears flowing down your cheeks because it ruins everything that was created from day one.

What we are being separated forever from is just a year which was introduced by nature for a short while.
Goodbye 2017 welcome 2018 a progressive family that has never ceased to stop.
The upcoming year wash away all the tears that flows down the cheeks of the unfairly treated souls.
Offer sunshine in the night and make the stars become visible during the day.
Reflections in mind about the good and the bad yet 2018 shall be a year of no any other alternatives.
Let everyone enjoy the upcoming year and many chain locked doors to be unlocked for those who wish to enter.

HAPPY NEW YEAR…………….

Let everything be knew, allow what has never been offered by any year be offered by you.
Remove any bad occurrences and replace it with golden memories leading to a beautiful tomorrow that awaits us.

To me the stars are the eyes of the fallen warriors
And my eyes should be acting as the stars than weeping over a laissie

I still can't believe I was blind all this time
Blinded by my own words thinking it is all God's doings man
But then this has never been God's grace
No God approves of such extent of agony
But you my love brought me down instead of lifting me up

In my thoughts I always thought of u
I always told a farytale and even thought of uttering it to my unborn children
Funny to me their mother was you
Why did I love unconditionally when the results would be unnecessarily burdensome

I lied to myself man I lied thinking that some day the world would be a better place with me and you living in a well fed home like Queen Elizabeth I thought I was telling the truth just like Sister Abigail always said
With you I had the whole world but now it is all shattered for reason I can't even come to conclusions with

The stars shine in the sky
The are draped in the dark but still shine
But you can't even shine in the light
My love I call it quits now I am done uttering lies that binds us in my thought