Staring into your cute little eyes
All I could see was a future and the feeling was mutual
We crossed oceans, climbed hills together in our minds
The period of our affiliation was truly splendid

Unforeseen occurrences came by but I was blinded by love
Assumed that it was just for an hour what a white lie I told myself
Future in just a blink of a second became a past
I am left stuck up in the dark without any direction

My loved one spoiled all the sweet memories because of new
Forgot the past and focused on the present that only lasted for an hour
Returned to find a seed once planted gone
I had given on our relationship

Used as a scapegoat to run away from the relationship
I was the center of the blame without a cause
Yet tales that the love that exists deep within for me won’t die
But a reason for her smile is another man

What is love if all I do is cry silently?
My inner parts failing my respiratory well being
The pain that I endured pushed me over the edge
Life with you once again would be accepting the devil as a friend
Goodbye my lover goodbye my friend

I don’t know how to accept this man, thinking to myself about the creation of Heaven and Earth along with the lives brought down to Earth to live for a certain period of time by God the Almighty.

The creation of man seemed to have less significance upon this wonderful world thus a women had to be introduced in the world of man.

The one who Gives Opportunities Daily (GOD) saw a need for a women’s existence in a world lived by man and he said” Be fruitful and increase in number, fill the Earth and subdue it”

Considering the effects of today’s society, the Gods creation seems futile, his reasons for bringing a women to Earth looks tainted due to greed and desire of a man hungry for power and wealth.

 

Unappreciated by worthless man without a vision, treated unkind, lashing the back of a woman with a belt. Abused physically, emotionally, spiritually without caring.

It pains my heart to witness such cruelty, our society left without peace. Women of today live in fear, he who is supposed to be shielding them is now a hungry lion out of its cage.

Our feminine parents and those who we associate ourselves with their lives become extinct on this world we live in because of cruel man.

What have they done to deserve such, I beg thee to forgive them man, stop abusing she who is destined to be a mother to a future life that will be blessed to say mother to she whom you are abusing.

The abhorrence lived deep within me

Consumed so many injurious verses from the world

I never cared yet about what they thought of me

Seemed to be strong but truth be told I got affected  

 

I lied to myself that I would never let them change me

Tried getting rid of the pain by soaking my pillow with tears

Lay on a bed resting my hurting soul

The pain was too much now and I broke

 

The abhorrence within me has been unleashed

The sweet little guy all covered in costumes of the devil

Shrilling sound of my voice roaring far away like that of a lion

I am not whom I used to be simply because of the world

 

A monster is who I seem to be nowadays

I hate every moment of this soul

Smiling seems to be my stranger

I don’t know how to accept him as a friend

 

The fury within me drives away many souls I wish to have

All I have to do is accept that the world transformed me

Took everything of mine and sold my name to the devil  

The abhorrence within me makes my life miserable

Compare and contrast the natural existence of nature
To the special blessing of your life on this Earth
Look at the shining sun and pair it with your smile
Perceive the stars and contrast it with the sparkle in your eyes

Acknowledge the mistakes you did back then
Correct all the wrongs you did when tomorrow comes
Yesterday is a past for reason and cannot be undone
But it can be forgotten when you correct them when tomorrow comes  

Whether you are happy with your surroundings or not
The question is does that serve as a limitation to your desire?
The answer to that query lies within you and nobody else
Within you there is a special seed that waits to breed and flourish

Some days of our lives are sweet and some are sour
Fact of reality is those days that already occurred are all in the past
Should you wish to go back there because of those best moments?
That is one of the choices you have to make in life

Once again change is good when you know what your goals are
Moving forward without looking back is a step closer to your dreams
Do you still call today a new day when you bring yesterday to it?
Leave the past in the past dust to dust ashes to ashes

The world we live in is full of malice and melancholy
A world isolated in darkness does not mean you are in the dark
Be unique, be firm, be courageous and be a blessing to yourself
When everyone declares you darkened you shall be shining in the dark

A large portion of the universe perceive death as the finish line

In a long race of a human beings existence

Connection between ambiances seems to have reached its limits

Our minds are cleared of the deceased as we can never see them again

 

But that factor shall certainly not reflect upon us

Death the mother of all the cries of our ripped hearts

Eradicating my loved one into a different dimension

That surely does not mean it is the end of our association

 

Deceased or not our bond shall continue to exist as we always planned

Tender love and care shall always be offered even in your resting place

Memories will not only be relieved in the past but also in the future

You might be removed from the Earth but not in my temperament

 

Though years might go by without physically seeing you

Spiritually and emotionally your presence will be visible at all times within me

Just like old times when I made your bed well

Even in your resting place I shall clean and make sure you sleep well forever

A heart drenched with emotions that is detrimental to a person’s wellbeing

A face that is supposed to be glowing now looks pale

The suffering she is enduring at this juncture is truly excruciating

I wish I could hold you just to make you feel better

 

My wish and all my promises in life all includes you

Nothing of my dreams includes a saddened spirit  

Only a precious ever smiling beauty queen experiencing tender love and care

That is all I hope to achieve in life making you feel appreciated  

 

I pray for a day whereby you will still see the sun rise in the morning

Your face to glitter with nothing but happiness

Your eyes to twinkle brighter than the midnight diamonds during the night

All of the sweet little things you experience put me in a place of comfort

 

My heart is not at all at ease when a situation of discomfort surrounds you

I feel lost and loose a reason to live on this Earth

The pain that you feel is mutual between binary ambiances

All I ask is for you to never forget to smile daily because that’s what makes me happy

Notice the difference between before and after your presence, weigh the after effects of the termination of the bond between binary ambiances which resulted from not appreciating.

Evaluate the conditions of our hearts during the juncture of the best love affair we have ever got into. Feelings extracted from deep within the sentiment is what I always offered you.

Give yourself time to realise that you were never grateful, no matter what I offered to you it was just not good enough since it was below the standards you put for yourself based on the beauty you possess.

 

Love, affection is what I offered at all times but material possessions remains to be the root cause of your love for a guy. Sadly, I never had what you wanted but I had what you deserved and that is love.

Expressing the conditions of my heart is now futile because the heart that withheld true feelings for you was tossed in the mud and thrown in the trash bin by you who was supposed to treasure it.

Communicating with you is like visiting the graveyard to shred tears on my special one who is extinct from this Earth. Whether I cry or not the situations remains constant, you are dead to me.

Taking away everything I had in a wonderful home which existed deep within you. I am leaving and opening space for another man who will be brave enough to accept your behaviour because I can’t.

 

Inflicting the same pain you caused me when I always believed that you were miss right but never did I know that you would only serve to teach me that a book cannot be judged on its cover.

Never will I make the same mistake ever again when I meet the one who holds much beauty. Your presence made me acknowledge the availability of a mask a woman can have on her face yet evil inside.

Going home back to my original roots where I never met you. Meeting you was not a mistake and I appreciate the lesson you taught me but you deserve nothing but heartache.

 

Letting go of the thought in my mind that you would grow up to be the mother of my children and the daughter in law of my mother who would love you as much as I did.

Oppressed deep within is how you made me feel everyday but I am wide awake, realising my worth on this Earth and I deserve much more than what you offer.

Voices in my head screaming there’s no beauty that exists in the world which is more radiant than that of which you possess of but I am not going to consider such because beauty exists everywhere.

Everything we had was just a fluke and I can safely walk away from this household that I received a blind eye when I was ought to be cared for, loved and cherished by you whom I loved.