skin
i want to tear you off
my aura filling up the room
just move
and feel

dance till dizzy
happiness is relative

eyes carrying baggage
everyday
and through the night

thoughts consume me
desires to be somewhere else
anywhere else

grinning and bearing it
guilt,
fear,
wisdom bought with experiences
laughter to hide the pain
broken but not defeated
there is struggle still within

i look in, and see myself
messed up, in all the wrong places
emotions on a roller coaster

irrational, impulsive, incoherent

yet,
masculine

opposites attract,
and you sir
are not mine

when I talk
with you
only you

will you allow me to go in circles
beat myself up
cry my heart out till its all gone
and only you will be standing there
telling me to go have fun

when you are upset
i take you by the hand
we walk and we talk and
I try to make you feel better

You are perpetually there for me
Endlessly.

something to weave my hands into
there right in front of me
my protector
shield
definable human
i know you; you know me