My heart feels heavy,
My head is cloudy,
My thoughts depressing.

I don’t walk anymore...I wonder the city lights
Not knowing where they lead me.
I don’t look at things anymore...
I try ti simplify what I see
So that my depressed mine doesn’t get filled with subjective thoughts.

My eyes are tired,
My mouth is shut,
My feelings are opressed.

I don’t live anymore...I simply exist
Because my taunted being
Is so sunk in this inert world of mine
That the joy of the little things
(The joy of being alive)
Is just a sad memory
Of the life I used to have.

When you look at me with those eyes
What do you expect?!
Do you expect sadness?!
Or regret?! Or even anger?!

When you look at me with those eyes
Expect nothing but the purest happiness
Mankind has ever seen!

When you smile at me with that joy
What do you expect?!
That I keep being who I am?!
That depression keeps on hitting me?!

When you smile at me with that joy
There is no more sadness on my mind
There are no more rought thoughts!

When you look at me with those eyes...
When you smile at me with that joy...
My love for you takes all of my mind
And all I can think of it’s you!

I miss looking in the eyes,
Not your eyes...but the eyes of someone
Who actually cares for me!
Your eyes are filled with hipocrisy...
You don’t even want to look at me...

I miss holding someone’s gane
And feel the warm feeling
That runs through my heart!
With you I had none of that...
With you I only felt cold...

I miss being loved
But I don’t miss loving someone
Because throghout this time
I love you with all my soul
And got nothing in return...