Fingers pulling at my hair
The wind is back again
All blue and silver and wild and free
I missed my lifelong friend
But where was the white light
When I needed it so badly?
With the devil stroking at my back,
The fire growing madly
The purple flecks upon the eyes
Of the innocent and broken
Magic can rarely be retained
And even rarer be spoken
Engulfing me in white and gold
A reminder of the dreamland
The memory is fading now
Sinking in the quick sand
The fingers are pulling harder now
This wind is not my old friend
A trick, a fiend, a clever con
To rip my beating heart wide open

Confined in a cage of flesh and bone
We’re all cursed to be alone
Layers holding our souls inside
Trapped in cycles like the tide
I’m in a constant battle to let others in
But they can’t seep into my skin
My mind is my own and no one else
Can carry the burden of myself
My very essence locked inside
This world has rules that I must abide
My soul would fly and my soul would soar
But body is pulled down by the core
The cage I wait in will wither and decay
And my soul, released, will fly away

I think so much,
I wonder,
Can I survive,
If I turn my world upside down?
It might crash,
But can I come back,
Like a phoenix,
From the ash,
Of a forgotten place,
One long ago surrendered,
A battle pocked mind,
We can fill these holes up,
With a bulldozer,
Maybe.
But what do we fill it with?
Or should I leave them empty,
A reminder of the battles
Of thoughts.

Ingrained in my senses,
There is a solidity,
But today the ground shook,
and I think it broke me
My bones swayed and bent
And my mind, it took flight
And my perception has shifted
Like day into night
I was breathing, surviving,
Weaving in, weaving out,
Life was straight like an arrow,
A path walked without doubt
But see, things have shifted
Reality is now abstract and fractured
Inside where I’m rattled,
Sanity can no longer be captured
In my core, In my bones,
In my cells, in my veins,
In the blood pumping through me
I feel the tendrils of change
My fate now is fleeting,
With cavities left behind
Sending me into the hysterics
Of an unstable mind
***** hands spread dark doubt
Leaving black, ugly fear
What was once transparent,
Is no longer clear
In the after math of an earth quake
I search for stable ground
But I might just go mad
Before any is found