You heard the thoughts beating holes in my tattered heart over meaningless words spewing carelessly from my mouth.
Knew what I meant before the words had the courage to surface in my mind.
I gave you the insight on my life I couldn't even give my self,
from that you saw a light in my soul I had kept hidden from all those trying to reach it,
for a brief moment you had me convinced there was a way to expand it,
mold it, to what I expected of myself.
The spark you saw could be a flame, a fire.
the light went out when you took back everything you said.
My hope extinguished, gone from my soul.
A blackness inside myself replacing the light you brought and took.
my wasted time changing me in irreversible ways.
I realize now the worthlessness of it all,
of you,
of all the things I let myself believe for once could be true.
I'd left an exit sign over my heart like it's something you can just pass through, saving yourself from another lonely night.
Maybe I speak in metaphors afraid of falling from my lips just to plummet to the ears of those afraid to hear me.
I may no longer have that light inside myself, but unlike you I know where to find my flint.