Worthless
With nothing left to give
Emasculated
Taking my will to live
Belittled
Judgment sets you free
Humiliated
For all the world to see
Discredited
All my efforts in vane
Criticized
Never be the same
Ridiculed
Unlike the rest of you
Condemned
Life can be so cruel
Depressed
Never to understand
Overcome
Too late to lend a hand
Muzzled
No one hears my plea
Neglected
All to busy to see
Hopeless
Another day in hell
Desolated
Another empty shell

Another lonely sleepless night
Another emotional fight
Thoughts tear my head apart
Sorrow strangles my heart

Sleep evades my every advance
As if I ever had a chance
Cursed this wretched life I bare
Alone I suffer without care

Hatred builds inside my soul
Lashing out against you all
Where empathy dies, greed resumes
Merciless hunger does consume

Writing be my only defense
So begins another resistance
For in these words bare my soul's
Battles know one ever knows

Alone in this world
I look where to go
Pick a direction
See where it goes
Don't aim too high
Don't settle low
Dreaming is good
But failing blows
Take it day by day
Not too fast or slow
Figure out your stride
Just go with the flow
Learn from mistakes
Share what you know
Find happiness
Let your heart grow
Love whenever you can
Cry away your sorrow
Never say never
Though I just did
You know what I mean
Don't give me that sh*t
So much distraction
Which way should I go
Maybe roll the dice
I just don't know
Now times up
Gotta go
Hope you enjoyed this
If so then follow
Me

Trapped in a cage
I'm angry inside
Releasing my rage
There's nowhere to hide
Spreading my hate
Just like a disease
Infecting the plague
From street to street
Running away
You're caught in my wake
Losing your faith
You begin to break
Without delay
You open your eyes
No longer blind
To all the worlds lies
Now you're awake
And you're in control
The world's mistake
Was testing your soul

Walk with me along this path
Let me share my dreams
Close your eyes, open your heart
Look past what you see
Shower the world with endless love
Teach them how to smile
Help the ones with less than you
Make it all worthwhile
Be a friend to everyone
Fear not be your guide
For every step that you take
I'll be by your side
Walk with me along this path
Open up your eyes
Feel my love surrounding you
Hold you as you cry
I'll be there for every step
Watching over you
Hold my hand when it gets dark
I will guide you through

I lost myself a time ago, I don't know who I am
I used to be someone else, I used to be a better man
It just got so complicated, it was more than I could take
So I slipped further away with every decision that I made
I never thought about the consequence as I lived day by day
I never considered the man I'd become or the bed I'd lay
Now I try so f#@king hard to remember who I used to be
Cause I don't recognize the man in the mirror staring back at me

Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside

I try to hold my head up high and I try to chase my dreams
But it seems the more I try I just get by with broken wings
So I find it hard to get up and face another day
I just lay there in my bed wishing that I could stay
At least I can say that I have perpetual love
Thanks to my heart, our two awesome boys, and my angel from above
They give me reason to live on and they give me reason to breathe
They are my motivation when I'm out of gasoline

Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside

I began making changes in my life in the past few months
I quit the drugs and the lies along with other stuff
Though its still hard to get by I swear that I won't quit
I'll keep fighting the urge everyday and dealing with the ****
And if I never make it big and no one knows my name
I'll still know that I tried and be happy just the same
Because I'll still have the love of my friends and family
No matter how successful I am they will always be there for me

Welcome to my crazy life
Welcome to the fear I hide inside
Do you know what it's like
To hear the screams I hide inside

Today is the day
That I find myself
Today is the day
I clean off my shelf

Today is the day
That I see the truth
Today is the day
I tie my own shoes

Today is the day
That defines my life
Today is the day
I fight my last fight

Today is the day
That I find my path
Today is the day
I get off my ***

When I lie awake at night
Songs echo in my head
Verses bring back memories
And tears fall to my bed
I can't seem to sleep
Believe me I have tried
Moments recur over again
Every time I close my eyes.
Sometimes I get a moment
A few hours reprieve
Waiting for you to haunt me
Visit me in my dreams
But then I awake again
To my hellish reality
Trying to hold on
Reaching for my sanity
Impossible to comprehend
The reason that we're here
When calamity confines you
What's left is pain and fear
Concealed behind my jolly
Seldom am I seen
I'll just remain in the shadows
Alone for eternity

Ever have a moment
Where the mind runs dry
A seemingly endless void
Like of that beyond our sky

Ever have a feeling...
Unable to describe
A secret within your heart
You carry until you die

Ever have a craving
You can't quite explain
A specific unknown taste
Unquenched without a name

Ever have a vision
That you cannot see
A blurred gray passing image
Of a future you or me

Ever have a nightmare
You don't quite recall
A subtle subconscious fear
Embedded behind a wall

Ever have a sadness
You refuse to share
A hidden infinite pain
Disguised with a smiling stare

Ever have an insight
Shake you to your core
If you don't get the message
"You're not alone anymore."

I am the compromiser
The give to the take
The shame behind the vain
The love that you hate

I am the forgotten
Forsaken by your fears
Owned by your tears
The empathetic ear

I am the safety
The honor you disbelieve
The good you never see
The heart that cannot be

I am the trusted
The truth that no one knows
The you that does not show
The one you don't let go.

I am your equal*
The crazy that comprehends
The stubborn that understands
The ***** up in the plan

Hello,
Welcome to my life
I don't know you
And you
Don't know me
We can try
Hear these words
And then you decide
A simple mind and
Good Personality
I'm imagining
Another fantasy
Too little faith, ADD
Spoiled child
And a little OCD
You think I'm hopeless
So you preach at me
You call me lazy
Then you scream at me
Hiding your eyes
Looking for the door
You're growing tired
Heard it all before
Despite my madness
I still can bleed
Stake my heart
And then you will see
Inside this crazy
Cast iron shell
A heart of glass
Has already fell
Blessing a curse
Laughing all the while
Another lost soul
Behind another smile
Weakened voice
And watered eyes
Pounding head
But never cry
Consumed by denial
You just can't tell
Your walk in the park
Is my own personal hell.

Over and over everyday
Society falls. What can I say?
We're told to love, honor and obey,
While we are lied to, cheated, and played.
It's time, my friend, to open your eyes,
End the pattern, the world revised
Start with yourself, steady your aim
Take control and end all the games
It can all change but it starts with you
Don't give up. Don't put it in queue
And in the end you will see it too
My plain and simple point of view

Lost in the abyss
You look around
Through the darkness
You hear a sound
A maddening cry
A shrieking shout
Curiosity peaks
What's it about
Turn your head
Salute the sound
Squint your eyes
Until its found
Through the void
A shadow appears
A shapeless blob
Of hopeless fears
You wipe the fog
And begin to tear
As you gaze upon
The truthful mirror

What it is to be desired
I will never know
No one's ever longed for me
I've spent my life unknown
I long to know a love
That cares for what I feel
That finds me attractive
And is actually real
Someone to fight for me
To never let them go
Someone to believe in me
Stand by me as I grow
But life has other plans for me
Than this impossible dream
To pull apart my inner soul
And rip it at the seams
In this sorrow I survive
To be ridiculed and teased
My heart infected by loneliness
I spread the hate disease
Outside I may seem cold
Robotic some would say
But inside I am crying
In misery where I stay
Waiting to be noticed
For someone to finally hear
My silent screams of agony
And my retired rivers of tears

Okay so this started out as a depressing poem on a night where I was in a really dark mood so I titled it "Depression." The next day in a totally different and more "positive" mood I realized that I could greatly change the poem's meaning with one word and "Snapped" was born. So I will post it with the option for the reader to choose. Look at that, Interactive Poetry. That's gotta be a first. Hope you all enjoy and thanks for the reads.


My life is a joke and I'm always broke
And happiness is a figure of speech
Every time I'm evoked they always provoke
I'm tired of listening to them preach
Twisting my brain they tap another vein
And continue to bleed me dry
Burying the pain my feelings detained
I wait for my turn to die
All of the while I'm cloaked with a smile
You're fooled by me being jest
When actually my style is quite really vile
Because I'm severely depressed
Another line crossed, another soul lost
I think someone tipped the scale
My sanity lost I will pay the cost
Just send me the bill in the mail
'Cause when all hope is gone the light will then dawn
On your egotistical head
That while you just yawned my pistol was drawn
It's your fault that now *I'm/you're dead

(You want to know)*
Trust me, Cause who I am
Just another lost soul condemned to be ******
Still I will try to hide behind my pride
And put my crying eyes aside
(You'll run away)
Screaming all the things that I've said
Through the tears you shed, you move on ahead
And leave me for dead, bound to my bed
By all the fear that i fed
(What the f#ck?)
Did you f#cken say?
What f#cken game are you tryin to play?
Anyway, it's just another f#cken cliche?
Cause everyone f#cks me anyway.

And even though you sigh every time I cry
I know all the lies that we all deny
Still we all get by...

By staying strong
And holding on
A blissful time
Will bring you peace of mind
Let go what's gone
And move along
Fear can not bind
What it cannot find

Trust me, Cause who I am
No on really knows so don't misunderstand
Runnin and runnin away from the pain
This never ending game is driving me insane
And so you put me in a padded room
Cause alone with my gloom you just assume
The room will become my tomb
And my hell will resume

But that won't happen to me
I may fall down but I land on my feet
Cause I am stronger than any of you can believe
I'm not alone you see I'm just free

And even though you sigh every time I cry
I know all the lies that we all deny
Still we all get by...

By staying strong
And holding on
A little time
Will bring you peace of mind
Let go what's gone
And move along
Fear can not bind
What it can not find

Every word that I said
Every shot you took instead
Repaired my heart
After you ripped it apart
Every word that I said
Every shot you took instead
Repaired my heart
After you ripped it apart

By staying strong
And holding on
A little time
Will bring you peace of mind
Let go what's gone
And move along
Fear can not bind
What it can not find

These are lyrics for a song. A friend wrote a beautiful melody and recorded it. I then wrote these lyrics to go with the melody. You can listen to the music to it @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zZphVqGer5M. Thanks for the read guys and please let me know what you think.*


-Verse 1-
I know that everyone has an answer for me,
Just keep it to yourself
Everyone thinks that they know what's best for me
They don't know me at all
You think that everything you do benefits me,
You're just out for yourself
Every time you try to do something for me
I pay for it in the end

-Chorus-
You think you know it all
But you could not be more wrong
I can see right through your wall
'Cause
I'm smarter than you all think
Standing on top of the brink
It's kinda like Tesla's dream

-Short Verse 2-
I'm not afraid to die
When I'm gone you'll cry
My name
To the stars
'Cause that is who you are
But no one else can see
That life is energy
While I'm
Everywhere
You'll remain unaware ('cause)

-Chorus-
You think you know it all
But you could not be more wrong
I can break right through your wall
'Cause
I'm smarter than you all think
Standing on top of the brink
It's kinda like Tesla's dream

-Bridge-
When I'm gone
You'll cry my name and...
When I'm gone
You will remain unaware
That while you selfishly
waste all of my time
comparing me to you
I pay for it in the end.

-Verse 1-
I know that everyone has an answer for me,
Just keep it to yourself
Everyone thinks that they know what's best for me
They don't know me at all
You think that everything you do benefits me,
You're just out for yourself
Every time you try you do something for me
I pay for it in the end

They say "Time heals all wounds."
But the scar will always remain
They say "Give it all you got."
And then they take it all away
They say "It cant get any worse."
But then it always does
They say "You can't win them all."
When you want to just once
They say "You don't understand."
But sometimes you really do
They say "Careful what you wish for."
But it never comes true
They say "Its good to dream."
Then tell you what to do
They say "Nothing lasts forever."
But some things sure seems to
They say "Never give up."
Then turn their back again
They say "It will get better with time."
But they don't say when
They say "Wisdom comes with age."
But it really comes with experience
They say "Life isn't fair."
Well ain't that a b*tch?

I am a man of unknown fortune
Who lives life by the turn of the sun
I guess I will always be the one
Lost in life and known by none.

My mind is a scary place
One of a completely different taste
Most of its use has gone to waste
And disappeared without a trace

My heart is one of purity
I wear it on my sleeve for all to see
It branches out just like a tree
Sadly this is the downfall of me

My soul is lost as I like to say
In a new place each and every day
I couldn't say where it is today
I wish it would choose someplace and stay

I am a man of unknown fortune
Who lives my life by the turn of the sun
I guess I will always be the one
Lost in life and known by none.

Okay so this is a project I am working on for fun. It is a song about pants hanging low. I hate that ****t. Anyways this is the first verse and chorus. Please let me know what you think. Remember it is meant to be funny but I want it to make sense too. Hoping to make it a video on Youtube when it's finished.<Fingers Crossed>*


Today's just another day I make the mistake to hesitate to awake
So now I'm late for my date with fate. I don't hate the breakfast I ate
But I think I rate too harshly today cause my innate irate state is now awake

See now...
As I look for my jeans the unforseen scene unfolds before my caffiene free life
Another serene latrine cleaned by my mean queen with her keen green eyes
So I convene just thirteen minutes obscene. With my demeaned destiny I collide

Because...
This hand I was dealt fell to hell when none of my wealth contained a belt
So don't dwell on my saggy spell cause it ain't a rebel. Can't you tell now I'm compelled to excel at

The Wigga Walk
Oh yea The Wigga Walk
I'm waddling like a penguin bro
'Cause my crotch hangs low
So I'm stuck doing The Wigga walk
Yeaaaa... The Wigga Walk

Every night I lie awake
Thinking of the all plans we made
Some were big and some were small
I just wish we could have done it all

I should have seen all of the signs
I should have read between the lines
Of every laugh that hid the pain
And now it will all never be the same

How did it all end up this way
How did we all get so far astray
Unaware and caught offshore
In another winter downpour

You were there when no one was
Without even the slightest fuss
All it would take was a call
And you would smile trough it all

I only want to give back the same
Bring you back and ease your pain
Give you the life that you deserve
Give you everything on this earth

Every night I lie awake
As the day's about to break
I try to think of what you'd say
How I can face another day

And right before I fall asleep
I hear a voice it speaks to me
Live your life to the extreme
I fall asleep and begin to dream

But how did it all end up this way
How did we all get so far astray
Close your eyes and dream some more
Through another winter downpour

Another day
I barely survive
Hidden away
By all your lies
Kept from the life
You stole from me
I fall away
From memory
Slander my name
Walk in my place
Burn me in hell
Spit in my face
All that I've missed
All that I've lost
Taken from you
All at my cost
Because of you
A failure is seen
A broken soul
Brought to his knees
Innocent cloud
Taking no claim
Continues life
Feeling no shame
Hatred you hold
Reasons unknown
A shadow cast
My darkness owned