My Goal
Was to grow stronger and in that, I hurt you
Because I couldn't see it at the time
For I was blinded by my own stupidity and guilt.

My brain cages toxic assumptions
The ones that tell me to never trust
I can't stop them, as they inch closer
Tearing my mind apart slowly killing me

Every thought is worth a penny

Each word a thousand meanings

Every look a cry for help

You can see in everyone if you know where to look

And everybody's wishing it were that simple

To share their problems

To ask for help

Every thought is worth a penny

And if I had enough for every time you kept to yourself

I'd be well off

I'm not ready
I can't be
I can clearly see what's holding me back
So why can't I fix this
Why won't you help me
I'm suffocating and I can't help it
I can't help myself
I need you

One song plays on repeat
Looping
Over and over
I sing along sometimes
I plug my ears sometimes
Never ending

A song

I wish I could hear another
But I can't
The song tainted with memories
The song blessed with memories
Over and over
Over and over

Dear Dad
I love you so,
So much that it hurts to see you like this

Dear Dad
I'm scared that one day our bond will be shattered, crushed by all our stress

Dear Dad
How does it feel to be feared by the ones you love the most?

Dear dad what are you thinking when you hit mom?

Dear Dad
Mr. Hyde is scary i hate it when he visits, please call Dr. Jekyll over

Dear Dad
Can you fix the damaged?
Can you heal the sick?
Can you revive the dead?......

...Will you fix me ?.......
..No? I didn't think so
Will we ever get through this struggle?

Dear Dad
Promise to find me when you've found yourself,
I will wait rotting  for that day

Sincerely, your beloved daughter

Its become clear, too clear, its become dark, too dark

The truth hides itself wrapping around lies and deciete, But when it's unraveled the colors begin to fade

The uglyness reveals something beneath what you'd grown to know

It's suddenly hard to breathe, the air so polluted with fake people

All that's yearned is to be free from the truth, but it's too late